A Discovery

[plix (imported)]

Over these last few years I have undergone a number of changes and as a result have learned many different things about myself. Some of these have been new and surprising, while others have always been a part of me. Going through these experiences and learning what I have has been critical to growing as a person and becoming stronger overall.

I know that had I not elected to undergo castration, much of what I have experienced and discovered may have remained unknown. Castration made me open to things that before I would have never thought possible.

One of things that castration and the resulting hormonal changes opened me up to was the possibility of being romantically involved with a man. Prior to my surgery, I always thought of myself as a straight man. My sexual thoughts were always about women. However, once the T had left my system, and perhaps taking E played a role as well, I began to have questions. Could I be involved with a man? For a time I thought I could.

Now that I have been back on T for an extended period of time and have had time to do some thinking, I have realized that my sexual orientation has not changed. I am a straight man. I have always been a straight man.

Admitting this to myself and to others has been a relief for me, and I am looking forward to moving on with my life and enjoying whatever the future brings.

[OneBallBoi (imported)]

Plix, I wish you the very best. To live a life as a heterosexual person is the right thing to do, if you can do that. The whole world's standard say that heterosexual life is the right thing. To be homosexual is wrong in the worlds eyes and the true number is homosexuals is in the minority.

[moi621 (imported)]

Thank You for sharing.

Were you with a lady while you had no "T"?

Yes? Details please

Thanks again for your insights.

[tugon (imported)]

Plix you have been on quite a road of self discovery. You now know the true you. All the experiences you have in life contribute to who you are today. Those with whom you have experienced life will always be remembered. Best of life on your new path.

[tugon (imported)]

Plix, I wish you the very best. To live a life as a heterosexual person is the right thing to do, if you can do that. The whole world's standard say that heterosexual life is the right thing. To be homosexual is wrong in the worlds eyes and the true number is homosexuals is in the minority.

OneBallBoi you are a sweet gentle soul. We are close to the same age and I to remember what is was like being gay in those days. The world is changing and yes people from our past may not change but things are truly better. I wish I could help you let go of the pain from the past because I also carried it too long.

Our friend Plix is not becoming straight so it would be easy but because it is truly right for him. I could not become straight on a bet or with a gun to my head. When I was young I struggled with who I was before being able to accept that I was gay. Now Plix has reached the realization that he is straight and can only be straight.

[jemagirl (imported)]

Plix, I wish you the very best. To live a life as a heterosexual person is the right thing to do, if you can do that. The whole world's standard say that heterosexual life is the right thing. To be homosexual is wrong in the worlds eyes and the true number is homosexuals is in the minority.

OneBallBoi, I wish you the very best, but I think you worry too much about what other people say about homosexuality.

[chilliwilli (imported)]

Plix, I wish you the very best. To live a life as a heterosexual person is the right thing to do, if you can do that. The whole world's standard say that heterosexual life is the right thing. To be homosexual is wrong in the worlds eyes and the true number is homosexuals is in the minority.

I wish at some point in everyone's life they are able to find a partner and enjoy intimacy. Intimacy does not have "right" or "wrong" attached to it and nor should sexuality. For there are no absolute "rights' or "wrongs" in nature and the world is right now reopening it's eyes to the possibilities of life.

chilli-

[Danya (imported)]

Over these last few years I have undergone a number of changes and as a result have learned many different things about myself. Some of these have been new and surprising, while others have always been a part of me. Going through these experiences and learning what I have has been critical to growing as a person and becoming stronger overall.

I know that had I not elected to undergo castration, much of what I have experienced and discovered may have remained unknown. Castration made me open to things that before I would have never thought possible.

One of things that castration and the resulting hormonal changes opened me up to was the possibility of being romantically involved with a man. Prior to my surgery, I always thought of myself as a straight man. My sexual thoughts were always about women. However, once the T had left my system, and perhaps taking E played a role as well, I began to have questions. Could I be involved with a man? For a time I thought I could.

Now that I have been back on T for an extended period of time and have had time to do some thinking, I have realized that my sexual orientation has not changed. I am a straight man. I have always been a straight man.

Admitting this to myself and to others has been a relief for me, and I am looking forward to moving on with my life and enjoying whatever the future brings.

Hi Plix,

I was a real pleasure for me to get to know you at last August's MoM.

You have been through a lot in your young life, my friend. I'm glad you have found the freedom that comes from openly expressing who you are.

I wish you the best of luck and much happiness as you continue your life path. Being true to oneself is critical for happiness, whatever one's sexual orientation.

Hugs,

Danya

[JesusA (imported)]

One of things that castration and the resulting hormonal changes opened me up to was the possibility of being romantically involved with a man. Prior to my surgery, I always thought of myself as a straight man. My sexual thoughts were always about women. However, once the T had left my system, and perhaps taking E played a role as well, I began to have questions. Could I be involved with a man? For a time I thought I could.

Now that I have been back on T for an extended period of time and have had time to do some thinking, I have realized that my sexual orientation has not changed. I am a straight man. I have always been a straight man.

What Plix has discovered on his own is just beginning to come out in the sex research literature.

While it has long been known that women exhibit more “sexual fluidity” than men, the source of that wider interest in potential sexual partners has not been understood. Recent work with advanced prostate cancer patients (who have been castrated) and the data from the Eunuch Archive survey both seem to indicate that it is lack of testosterone that may be the controlling factor.

Plix was heterosexual when he had a full complement of testosterone, but was more flexible without. Adding the testosterone back into his system has returned him to more strongly heterosexual. There is some evidence that the same effect works for homosexual males. Without testosterone they are more “fluid” in their sexuality and show some of what would be termed heterosexual interests. It does not impact anyone’s basic sexual orientation (which seems to be hardwired at birth), but only how flexibly one can comfortably express it. Testosterone not only increases libido, but also appears to channel that libido more strongly into the pattern which the individual is wired for.

Do any of the eunuchs on the Archive who are NOT taking any HRT (either testosterone or estrogen) have any experiences that they would be willing to share along these lines?

[Beau Geste (imported)]

Plix--

I'm just curious as to whether you think your involvement with the story section of the archive, had any influence in your definition of your real orientation. If you've taken courses in creative writing, or otherwise studied the craft of writing, you must have read or heard of the theory that reading fiction allows an individual to have an experience of--sometimes an experience in considerable depth--things he otherwise might not have experienced otherwise, and therefore reading fiction provides him with more understanding of himself, and the potential for greater self development in the future. I've always wondered how deep people's experiences in reading literature are, but maybe there is something to the theory.

With your having gotten, after a couple of years, some perspective on orchiectomy, I get the impression that you see it as something which has opened elements of your personality and types of ability which you wouldn't otherwise have had. Considering the careers of some who became eunuchs in the past, it soes seem that creative thought may be facilitated by the change in hormones.

If you haven't made a career choice yet, have you considering becoming a sounselor, mediator, or negotiator of some type? Being broad-minded and, particularly, being able to see things from more than one perspective, is invaluable in those careers. (and, incidentally, very well paid!)