Re: Am I Wrong?
Posted: Wed Apr 04, 2012 5:24 am
In the absence of a family history of people dying from cancer that became terminal before it produced any symptoms (my situation), methinks that the use of possibly-reversible chemical castration may be wise and appropriate.
In the absence of forms of inner gender conflict that push a person toward suicidality or other personal/biological issues which make chemical castration more likely to be life-endangering than simple bilateral orchiectomy, methinks that the use of possibly-reversible chemical castration may be wise and appropriate.
Were I, in my licensed capacity as a Wisconsin Registered Professional Engineer, to deem anything actually and objectively wrong, it would be using measures of central tendency based frequentist statistical methodologies for determining what is best for every person.
I am autistic, and I have that form of autism which has always, since I was born, if not also before i was born, effectively shielded me from internalizing the social conventions of deception and dishonesty that are the essential, shattering, brain-traumatizing essence of the infant-child transition and/or the infant-child discontinuity (a discontinuity because it results in some form of amnesia for pre-discontinuity life experiences).
Yes, "essential... essence" is redundant, and is purposefully so.
No one has ever been able to teach me to be ashamed of any aspect of my life, though I experience the affective condition named "shame," as best I can observe, about as intensely as anyone else does.
No one has ever been able to teach me to believe that I, or anyone, or anything, can ever actually be guilty with respect to any behavior, conduct, action, outcome, or any other aspect of existence; I find guilt to be a purely delusional human social evolution blunder which has always been unavoidable when it happens.
No one has ever been able to teach me to believe that "it would have been better" had some event which actually happened actually happened differently than it actually happened.
Put me on a jury in a trial in the U.S.A., and I will always find everyone perfectly innocent, regardless of whatever testimony is presented in court, doing so because I actually understand how and why guilt is merely a tragically addictive, socially ruinous, falsehood in the form of a hateful delusion.
Ridiculous?
I will rejoice if anyone can actually demonstrate that guilt is other than a delusion. I will rejoice if anyone can actually demonstrate that it is actually possible to make an actually avoidable mistake. I will rejoice if anyone can actually demonstrate that adversarial jurisprudence is in any way whatsoever, actually just.
What would it take for such an actual demonstration to occur?
First of all, actually demonstrate the actual making of an actual mistake. (Please note that I find no hint of any definition of mistake in which a mistake can be made with fully-informed deliberate intent, since mistake and fully-informed deliberate intent are mutually exclusive, and, therefore, purely dichotomous, constructs.) Next, having actually demonstrated the mistake being made and having been made, demonstrate that it was actually avoidable by demonstrating that it actually did not happen after demonstrating that it actually did happen.
The belief that avoidable mistakes happen was, I find, named "time confusion" by Erik H. Erikson and was named "imprisonment of the mind" by neurologist Robert C.Scaer.
I observe that believing in guilt as other than a tragically addictive and destructive delusion imprisons the mind of anyone and everyone so believing in some form of a prison of hatred of the actual, directly-observable process of existence itself.
In these days, conception appears to me to be a lethal event. If death is to be prevented, life must first be prevented.
I further observe that life is made of death as death is made of life, and life and death are one and the same. To fear death, as to seek death, is to fear life, and I cannot be taught to do that.
For being so profoundly autistic as to be incapable of being taught and/or learning to fear life, my personal innermost gratitude plausibly transcends all infinitudes of infinities.
For me, doing chemical castration prior to my bilateral orchiectomy would have been a form of suicide attempt, given my understanding, since tragically and profoundly validated by my brother's terminal cancer experience, of my familial cancer risk predicament and its optimal, surgical minimization.
So, I leave to conscience of the individual person the choices of how to live, as I have never encountered, nor been able to imagine, any better way of making choices.
In the absence of forms of inner gender conflict that push a person toward suicidality or other personal/biological issues which make chemical castration more likely to be life-endangering than simple bilateral orchiectomy, methinks that the use of possibly-reversible chemical castration may be wise and appropriate.
Were I, in my licensed capacity as a Wisconsin Registered Professional Engineer, to deem anything actually and objectively wrong, it would be using measures of central tendency based frequentist statistical methodologies for determining what is best for every person.
I am autistic, and I have that form of autism which has always, since I was born, if not also before i was born, effectively shielded me from internalizing the social conventions of deception and dishonesty that are the essential, shattering, brain-traumatizing essence of the infant-child transition and/or the infant-child discontinuity (a discontinuity because it results in some form of amnesia for pre-discontinuity life experiences).
Yes, "essential... essence" is redundant, and is purposefully so.
No one has ever been able to teach me to be ashamed of any aspect of my life, though I experience the affective condition named "shame," as best I can observe, about as intensely as anyone else does.
No one has ever been able to teach me to believe that I, or anyone, or anything, can ever actually be guilty with respect to any behavior, conduct, action, outcome, or any other aspect of existence; I find guilt to be a purely delusional human social evolution blunder which has always been unavoidable when it happens.
No one has ever been able to teach me to believe that "it would have been better" had some event which actually happened actually happened differently than it actually happened.
Put me on a jury in a trial in the U.S.A., and I will always find everyone perfectly innocent, regardless of whatever testimony is presented in court, doing so because I actually understand how and why guilt is merely a tragically addictive, socially ruinous, falsehood in the form of a hateful delusion.
Ridiculous?
I will rejoice if anyone can actually demonstrate that guilt is other than a delusion. I will rejoice if anyone can actually demonstrate that it is actually possible to make an actually avoidable mistake. I will rejoice if anyone can actually demonstrate that adversarial jurisprudence is in any way whatsoever, actually just.
What would it take for such an actual demonstration to occur?
First of all, actually demonstrate the actual making of an actual mistake. (Please note that I find no hint of any definition of mistake in which a mistake can be made with fully-informed deliberate intent, since mistake and fully-informed deliberate intent are mutually exclusive, and, therefore, purely dichotomous, constructs.) Next, having actually demonstrated the mistake being made and having been made, demonstrate that it was actually avoidable by demonstrating that it actually did not happen after demonstrating that it actually did happen.
The belief that avoidable mistakes happen was, I find, named "time confusion" by Erik H. Erikson and was named "imprisonment of the mind" by neurologist Robert C.Scaer.
I observe that believing in guilt as other than a tragically addictive and destructive delusion imprisons the mind of anyone and everyone so believing in some form of a prison of hatred of the actual, directly-observable process of existence itself.
In these days, conception appears to me to be a lethal event. If death is to be prevented, life must first be prevented.
I further observe that life is made of death as death is made of life, and life and death are one and the same. To fear death, as to seek death, is to fear life, and I cannot be taught to do that.
For being so profoundly autistic as to be incapable of being taught and/or learning to fear life, my personal innermost gratitude plausibly transcends all infinitudes of infinities.
For me, doing chemical castration prior to my bilateral orchiectomy would have been a form of suicide attempt, given my understanding, since tragically and profoundly validated by my brother's terminal cancer experience, of my familial cancer risk predicament and its optimal, surgical minimization.
So, I leave to conscience of the individual person the choices of how to live, as I have never encountered, nor been able to imagine, any better way of making choices.