thefraj (imported) wrote: Wed Aug 24, 2005 12:54 pm I understand exactly what you're getting at Bryan,
After breakfast I was hanging out our washing, it was quite early and the sun was brilliant. Which was odd - considering the country I'm in! I just remember the deep green of the grass, seeing the wonderous colours of the flowers, and seeing two children playing happily, noisily and carefree in the street. There was just such a feeling of peace and contentment. It's a level of happiness I think I've seldom known on male hormones (or with testicles).
This was the first sign of change when I began horomone therapy to transition from male to female. Colors were SOOOO vivid and shocking to me, that I had to wear sunglasses indoors and at night, for like a month. Hearing increased drastically, tastes were more enjoyable and various, pungent/pleasant odors beacame significantly increased, and most of all my sense of touch was EXTREMELY heightened. I have neared orgasm from my bellybutton alone. A mere brush on my arm sends chills down my spine. I became one giant nerve begging to be touched and held.
Not all was positive though... I bruise easier, and my pain tolerance has bottomed out. Now I whine about little things that never would have bothered me previously. I cry alot too... and I have gotten WEAK! I used to be able to carry a 100lb rucksack, 2 bandoliers of ammo, a couple mortar rounds, and a 16lb machine gun, and keep treking. Now I struggle to open a jelly jar.
There is alot to be said for the elimination of testosterone, but like everything, it has pro's and con's. I think all the pro's are WAY worth the con's in this instance. But that's just me. Everyone is different.