After ordering replacement pens and resetting up dates with the cutter I finally had the left one removed 2 weeks after the first. I'm so glad that I have reached my goal of castration. No matter what difficult situations I have faced durring the passed year I have never regretted going through with the castration. That has been the best thing for me.
I'm so glad of my partner James (Nullo_James/EJ) and 2 close friends (Bobbie/ChemEunuch & Ralph/OneBallBoi). I also am glad of all my chat fiends and friends from here and IAM. Thank You ALL.