Hello
Posted: Sat May 15, 2021 9:50 am
Hello all. My name is Dave. I will try to be brief in my introduction.
I developed a fetish for testicle abuse/penis abuse at the age of 12 or so. I quickly became very "advanced" in my self-administration of my fetish. By age 14 I had played around with banding with heavy-duty rubberbands, tying off both my testicles and penis with baler twine and leaving them that way for hours until they turned deep purple and borderline black, crushing my testicles in various ways, nailing my testicles to boards, etc...you get the point.
I only ever revealed my fetish to two people, my cousin and my wife. At age 14 my cousin joined me in some light-duty banding play during our masturbation sessions, but eventually reverted to him helping me take my own abuse to higher levels. I eventually ended up being his personal sub and providing oral services for him when we got together to play. One of our favorite "games" involved using baler twine to tie off my testicles to the point of the string cutting into my scrotum, and then me giving him a blowjob. I could only be released from my "banding" after he was fully satisfied, which can take several orgasms for a horny teen. Most of the time my balls were deep purple, cold and numb by the time he declared that I had earned my freedom.
Fast-forward to adulthood. As an adult I learned I had extremely low testosterone (shocker). The doctor told me he had never seen it as low as mine and even said he thought most women had higher levels than I did. I began testosterone therapy shots to bring my levels up and have continued to do so to this day. At one point I revealed my fetish of testicle abuse to my wife and happily I discovered that she loved the idea of helping me with it, and down the road of CBT we went. She now happily performs CBT on me once or twice a month with her focus being about 95% on testicle abuse, but she has admitted that her primary enjoyment from it is how much I like her doing it. She also cuckolds me, which is an entirely different subject for another day, perhaps.
This brings me to this forum. At the young age of 50 I find that my testicles have no real purpose or use now. Between a lifetime of abuse and torture and 20 years of testosterone therapy they are essentially non-functional. They have lost about 50% of their size since I was in my 20s. In addition, I have an unusually small penis (2.6" when erect) which is where my username comes from. I breached the subject of castration once with my wife and she didn't take me serious at first, but eventually realized I meant it. Since then we have not discussed it, even though she eventually agreed that castration fulfills several purposes in both my life and our cuckold lifestyle.
So I hope to learn more about the subject here and hopefully meet some like-minded people. Thanks for having me.
I developed a fetish for testicle abuse/penis abuse at the age of 12 or so. I quickly became very "advanced" in my self-administration of my fetish. By age 14 I had played around with banding with heavy-duty rubberbands, tying off both my testicles and penis with baler twine and leaving them that way for hours until they turned deep purple and borderline black, crushing my testicles in various ways, nailing my testicles to boards, etc...you get the point.
I only ever revealed my fetish to two people, my cousin and my wife. At age 14 my cousin joined me in some light-duty banding play during our masturbation sessions, but eventually reverted to him helping me take my own abuse to higher levels. I eventually ended up being his personal sub and providing oral services for him when we got together to play. One of our favorite "games" involved using baler twine to tie off my testicles to the point of the string cutting into my scrotum, and then me giving him a blowjob. I could only be released from my "banding" after he was fully satisfied, which can take several orgasms for a horny teen. Most of the time my balls were deep purple, cold and numb by the time he declared that I had earned my freedom.
Fast-forward to adulthood. As an adult I learned I had extremely low testosterone (shocker). The doctor told me he had never seen it as low as mine and even said he thought most women had higher levels than I did. I began testosterone therapy shots to bring my levels up and have continued to do so to this day. At one point I revealed my fetish of testicle abuse to my wife and happily I discovered that she loved the idea of helping me with it, and down the road of CBT we went. She now happily performs CBT on me once or twice a month with her focus being about 95% on testicle abuse, but she has admitted that her primary enjoyment from it is how much I like her doing it. She also cuckolds me, which is an entirely different subject for another day, perhaps.
This brings me to this forum. At the young age of 50 I find that my testicles have no real purpose or use now. Between a lifetime of abuse and torture and 20 years of testosterone therapy they are essentially non-functional. They have lost about 50% of their size since I was in my 20s. In addition, I have an unusually small penis (2.6" when erect) which is where my username comes from. I breached the subject of castration once with my wife and she didn't take me serious at first, but eventually realized I meant it. Since then we have not discussed it, even though she eventually agreed that castration fulfills several purposes in both my life and our cuckold lifestyle.
So I hope to learn more about the subject here and hopefully meet some like-minded people. Thanks for having me.