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[stubbyhubby (imported)]

Hello all. My name is Dave. I will try to be brief in my introduction.

I developed a fetish for testicle abuse/penis abuse at the age of 12 or so. I quickly became very "advanced" in my self-administration of my fetish. By age 14 I had played around with banding with heavy-duty rubberbands, tying off both my testicles and penis with baler twine and leaving them that way for hours until they turned deep purple and borderline black, crushing my testicles in various ways, nailing my testicles to boards, etc...you get the point.

I only ever revealed my fetish to two people, my cousin and my wife. At age 14 my cousin joined me in some light-duty banding play during our masturbation sessions, but eventually reverted to him helping me take my own abuse to higher levels. I eventually ended up being his personal sub and providing oral services for him when we got together to play. One of our favorite "games" involved using baler twine to tie off my testicles to the point of the string cutting into my scrotum, and then me giving him a blowjob. I could only be released from my "banding" after he was fully satisfied, which can take several orgasms for a horny teen. Most of the time my balls were deep purple, cold and numb by the time he declared that I had earned my freedom.

Fast-forward to adulthood. As an adult I learned I had extremely low testosterone (shocker). The doctor told me he had never seen it as low as mine and even said he thought most women had higher levels than I did. I began testosterone therapy shots to bring my levels up and have continued to do so to this day. At one point I revealed my fetish of testicle abuse to my wife and happily I discovered that she loved the idea of helping me with it, and down the road of CBT we went. She now happily performs CBT on me once or twice a month with her focus being about 95% on testicle abuse, but she has admitted that her primary enjoyment from it is how much I like her doing it. She also cuckolds me, which is an entirely different subject for another day, perhaps.

This brings me to this forum. At the young age of 50 I find that my testicles have no real purpose or use now. Between a lifetime of abuse and torture and 20 years of testosterone therapy they are essentially non-functional. They have lost about 50% of their size since I was in my 20s. In addition, I have an unusually small penis (2.6" when erect) which is where my username comes from. I breached the subject of castration once with my wife and she didn't take me serious at first, but eventually realized I meant it. Since then we have not discussed it, even though she eventually agreed that castration fulfills several purposes in both my life and our cuckold lifestyle.

So I hope to learn more about the subject here and hopefully meet some like-minded people. Thanks for having me.

[JesusA (imported)]

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[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

Great introduction ! Farm and ranch boys and teens do get into advanced ball busting early.

Welcome to a great site. You will find lots of like minded men and eunuchs on here who share your history and turn ons. You did a better job of slowly steering yourself than you realized to get such low testosterone production from your tough survivor balls. Now that you are done baby making, your battle scarred balls are ready for final harvesting. And you had two people into castrating and CBT at crucial times in your life to enjoy your desires with you. I bet your wife s virile bulls are eager to see you steered ? You re lucky to have such a hot and understanding wife. Does your cousin know what a good job he did on your balls and want to see how well you two gelded your balls before you make trophies of them ?

Welcome and enjoy the endless info and friendly men on here.

[Littledick (imported)]

Welcome to the group.

I am sure you will find friend and lots of information n this site.

Again welcome.

[stubbyhubby (imported)]

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place. Look around. Join the conversation.

Welcome to the group.

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Again welcome.

Thank you both

[stubbyhubby (imported)]

Great introduction ! Farm and ranch boys and teens do get into advanced ball busting early.

Welcome to a great site. You will find lots of like minded men and eunuchs on here who share your history and turn ons. You did a better job of slowly steering yourself than you realized to get such low testosterone production from your tough survivor balls. Now that you are done baby making, your battle scarred balls are ready for final harvesting. And you had two people into castrating and CBT at crucial times in your life to enjoy your desires with you. I bet your wife s virile bulls are eager to see you steered ? You re lucky to have such a hot and understanding wife. Does your cousin know what a good job he did on your balls and want to see how well you two gelded your balls before you make trophies of them ?

Welcome and enjoy the endless info and friendly men on here.

My wife had a stud of a bull about 4 years ago that actually mentioned the subject to me. When I told him I was all for it he was a bit surprised. Her current bull is not in the same mentality, so I don't see that happening too soon at his request.

My cousin was fully aware. When I told him about starting the Tshots he immediately put two and two together. Ironically about 2 years into my marriage he and his wife went thru a rough patch and he moved into a hotel for about 4 months and during that time he visited the wife a few times a week. At the time I had not revealed my fetish to her, but I had more than a few fantasies that he would tell her about our teenage adventures and they would collaborate to CBT and maybe even snip me. Even then I would have gladly welcomed it since babymaking was not in my future anyhow.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

You re a brave man, first to do all that ball busting so young. And to let your cousin bust you. And keep getting more advanced. Was your penis fully grown when you first started cbt as a 12 year old ? Or did ir shrink or get stunted growth from your balls getting so busted early in puberty ? You and your wife have a great cuckholding relationship going. How did you start that ? Was it her idea or your idea ? How did her bull bring up castrating you 4 years ago ? Was he just testing your reaction or trying to scare you by suggesting castration, and then you surprised him, that you wanted to get gelded ? Has your wife s current bull ever heard about your fetish ?

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

Lucky thing you re not needing your sperm now. Have you always been a voluntary non breeder ? Or were you sterile and wanted to have kids but could not impregnate ? Has your cousin talked to you about going on the artificial testosterone and whether you guys castrated your balls way back as teens, or if those cbt sessions as teens had set up testicle injuries that finished off your gonads years later ? By him visiting your wife, I m hoping he was studding her as one of her bulls ? That would be so ironic if he castrated you as a teen, long before you met your wife, and then he benefitted from that steering of you by years later enjoying being one of your wife s bulls ?

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

What prompted you to see a dr at age 30 and learn your T level was so low ? Has the artificial T worked well in your body for those 20 years ? Have you experienced the normal male virility reductions with aging ? Or has the artificial T been any sustaining fountain of youth for your virility and masculinity and sex drive ? It sounds like you had big balls in your 20s ? That seems to mean that you did not get immediately castrated by your teen cbt adventures. Did anything happen to trigger your functional castration as an adult ?