Wellesley (imported) wrote: Fri Nov 21, 2014 3:54 pm So it was 4 years October 13th since the last testicle was removed.

I have been on TRT for the whole time.

I am on what could basically be called a maintenance dose. I get a peak T of about 375, 0.5mL of IM ethantate

I have been on a lower dose of 0.4mL that was a dark time. The difference for me of 0.1mL is huge. The depression is crushing at a lower dose.

However,

living with a totally asexual wife (radical hysterectomy 4.5 years ago and totally sexless for about 3 years)

Penis issues.

As in wishing it was non-fuctional or wishing I could be using it with a woman at least once a month.

I am 36 years old. So still functional.

For me what is the worst issue is a crushing lack of self confidence. That is something that I can't seem to find the cause of. I mean I had an abusive alcoholic father for the first 13 years of my life. But.... in the more recent times other than the complete failure of my business I can't seem to find any other causes...

I think the problem is that the thing that gave me the most self confidence was the ability to physically please a woman. Now that is not something that I can see happening in my immediate future.

Thanks