loveableleopardy (imported) wrote: Sun Nov 20, 2011 4:54 pm The take on applesauce was freaky cool! But in actual fact, even if it was capable of eating the potato peelings, I'm not so sure that it would, as who likes to eat potato peelings?

Deep-fried with bacon, cheddar, and sour cream, yummy!

Right time to wrap up this thread.

I'm going to write about "my experiences" for those who wish to read them soon on EA.. I don't have the strength to carry on battling (and it is a battle) the NHS in the UK so its back to internet hormones. I will go back to my doctor and ask for blood checks every few months; but as to gender equality how can anyone try and express their desired wish in this field when those in charge of my health and mental well being...

I think I have said all I can so please wait now for my conclusions....

Don't lose hope. I'm not over there. I am indeed in a more backward country as pointed out (US). I don't even know what health care is anymore. There must be someone somewhere that can help you. Write a list of all the people you know and think. Maybe. Hope.

hungrycat (imported) wrote: Tue Nov 22, 2011 7:50 am Right time to wrap up this thread.

I'm going to write about "my experiences" for those who wish to read them soon on EA.. I don't have the strength to carry on battling (and it is a battle) the NHS in the UK so its back to internet hormones. I will go back to my doctor and ask for blood checks every few months; but as to gender equality how can anyone try and express their desired wish in this field when those in charge of my health and mental well being...

I think I have said all I can so please wait now for my conclusions....

It isn't gender equality we need, what we need are non-cisgenderist attitudes in those who are attendant in caring for our mental and physical wellbeing. Good luck with the internet hormones. At least you can afford them. I have a friend who's struggling in the american system, can't even afford hormones at the moment and it's affecting her badly.

Anyways good luck and hope that helps you to begin social transition. If you need someone outside the EA to lean on for some moral support, I'm in the UK as well, IM me if you'd like. =)

Oh my.

I have my androcur now

Though I will hold off on taking it for a little while.

I nearly lost it with my folks before. Yes, I understand it all, but life is really quite sad sometimes. I mean I don't feel sad, but it's sad how trying to get happiness - in fact actually gaining it - tends to result in negativity to many others, at least in some form.

It was a bad time really for a suspicious package to arrive in the mail. I had been in a pretty bad way at times last week - so much so that they noticed it (I was extra extra quiet). That wasn't to do with anything that will be too disastrous it seems, but it's still not something I can talk to them about, or at least what I want to do about it (it's work stuff). That and the fact that I've recently ended a relationship. I am happier because of that, and happy in general, but anything is going to be picked up by my parents when my life is back to not being on the totally normal path.

I tried saying that it was a couple of CD's, but they said that they had read the packaging which said that it was medication. In the end I managed to back out of it by saying that it was my normal medication - and that I'd ordered it online because I had run out and hadn't been able to see my doctor (which is actually some truth). I don't know whether they sense that something is up or whether they are genuinely concerned for me. Most of what they were saying during that brief period (while I sat and focused on just head nodding) seemed the opposite of what I see as the reality. For example they said that we worry for you more than ever when you don't talk to us. Well actually I made them worry more than ever before when I told them everything. And if they go and ask to see the medication now then I might just snap into that mode again; and tear them apart.

Now they are over parenting. Wanting to take me away on holidays with them during my Christmas break. Nice? Kind of. But it might help to think of what thirty year olds actually like to do.

And that's not go away with their parents for a holiday. That is what the parents want.

I understand. But right now I feel a little sad for them.

But anyway. I have androcur! I really have androcur!

:):):D

And to everyone on the EA who has helped me to get to this point on my journey,

Hi,

I'm glad your feeling better about yourself gregrowlerson. Ur parents are looking out for you but you are grown up so can make your own decisions. I don't talk to my parents at all and they don't see me ever. Try and balance their parenting needs with your own needs

My Meds take about two or three weeks to arrive in the UK !!!

Ryan ^-^

Thanks for keeping a look out for me Hungry. Maybe one part of me won't be so hungry in 2012!

And thanks for the advice in regards to balancing. I will do my best to protect both of our needs.

My mum has some real issues sometimes.

And I thought that was going to be it; World War 5,667 was going to be on, but almost comically we avoided it.

She couldn't be that stupid. Couldn't she?

She went into her stern, serious mode and spoke to me. She said that she had looked up this medication that I'd got today (because she was concerned about me), which means that she went through my room to do so. And she looked up what the drug does online. The saving grace is that this is called Siterone, not Androcur. I have mentioned the latter in the past most definitely. She asked me in that real overbearing motherly, I need to put you down so that my life can mean something way, "Are you worried that you're going bald/losing your hair?"

Yeah, that is always on my mind! LMAO

A few seconds before that I was about to explode, but that moment kept me in this game, and I acted concerned about my hair loss, and that yes, this was the reason why I had got the pills. And she would take it that I am embarrassed about this and that's why I didn't tell her. But then went into everything else that she'd read about it; that it can make your blood pressure seriously low and stuff, and made me promise that I wouldn't take it, that I could get other things to help with my hair loss. And she continued with her needs, telling me to focus on the good things about myself, and that I am a handsome man, etc.

Yeah, I know that now, you idiot.

I have wanted to move out of home again now for sometime, and the other week decided that I would do this via renting - from as early as next year as possible. They will use all of this as another excuse/reason that I am going off the rails and need to stay with them, etc. Earlier today I thought it a good idea to ignore the Androcur request to my doctor on December 16, because my parents would probably try to see the script, or would at least be highly suspicious if I didn't show them. So I was already making an adjustment for their needs.

For Fucks sake.

Well, I checked my room before, and at least the pills are still there

I'd better get off the computer now before they get even more worried that I am going to kill myself or something.

Greg, like it or not, a lot of our parents would have little or no understanding of the LGBT world. Some parents may eventually come to see the light, others won't. They do have our welfare at heart, even if their ignorance sometimes causes more harm than good. I know it's frustrating, I've been there myself, but the one thing I clung onto was hope and faith at their logicality. Both my parents went to university at a time when few people in my birth country did. I may have arguged and even raged sometimes, but at the core of my arguments were sound logic backed up by evidence. The same way you may have seen me debate on the EA at times.

It sounds tremendously egoistical of me to put it that way, but to me facts are facts, and I mention them without any intention of self-elevation. There have been issues on which my stance has shifted. I cling onto what I know until evidence disproving what I know is obtained, but I certainly do not bullshit, which is why I've in the past been terribly offended by people on EA making even that suggestion.

My parents know that too, and eventually, even though they still have some doubts and are not 100% convinced, they've begun to understand, if not accept, some of the truths I was showing them.

I suppose that living far far away from them has helped and eased my transition, as we're not even on the same continents. But in the end, they still have to come round to me, because I wouldn't really be able to continue living in the UK and my education here without their support both financial and moral.