If this is the only way your sex drive manifests, it's not doing you any good. Is the pleasure you get from it really worth possible jail time, is it worth hurting other people? If the only way you can imagine enjoying your sex life is through the exposure, etc. your body is working against you, not for you.

Maybe this would mean freedom. It sounds like your sex drive & its consequences are controlling what you do. Sex is great because it's the satisfaction of an urge. Without the urge, why would you need the satisfaction?

Maybe ask yourself how you want to live your life. If you could have the perfect life, what job would you have? Relationship with your family? Money? Is the public masturbation getting in your way?

Going along with what your psych & others suggest sounds like a good idea for now; they're trying to do what's best for you.

But keep in mind that if you get a psychological thrill from the exposure, castration may not solve that....

but like I said before, I'm not that knowledgeable in this area.

TeraNata (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 2:04 pm If this is the only way your sex drive manifests, it's not doing you any good. Is the pleasure you get from it really worth possible jail time, is it worth hurting other people? If the only way you can imagine enjoying your sex life is through the exposure, etc. your body is working against you, not for you.

Maybe this would mean freedom. It sounds like your sex drive & its consequences are controlling what you do. Sex is great because it's the satisfaction of an urge. Without the urge, why would you need the satisfaction?

Maybe ask yourself how you want to live your life. If you could have the perfect life, what job would you have? Relationship with your family? Money? Is the public masturbation getting in your way?

Going along with what your psych & others suggest sounds like a good idea for now; they're trying to do what's best for you.

But keep in mind that if you get a psychological thrill from the exposure, castration may not solve that....

but like I said before, I'm not that knowledgeable in this area.

I just dont know TeraNata, ive been put on chemical castration for god knows how long, and my doctor and therapist are talking about physical castraton as they say im a risk ! i cant see i am all im doing is masturbating, although they know im a virgin and admitted to my therapist i think about sex alot, you said "

TeraNata (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 2:04 pm sex drive & its consequences are controlling

" and to be honest i like what i do i like exposing myself, masturbating and cumming on them if i can after the guilt is so bad but when im horny again all that goes, and u asked "

TeraNata (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 2:04 pm Is the public masturbation getting in your way

" i like what i do, i like being seen and being caught. ive tried to stop but i cant. i get hard and then dont care ive done it infront and on my own mother and she wants my physicaly castrated aswell, me i want to stop and i dont i dunno...

If im honest with you TeraNata and the rest here, i sometimes wish i was sexually dead, and all the sexual fetishes, fantasys, and urges to protect young girls and women although i would never hurt a sole, but life aint that easy and at min im being controled by a female doctor, female therapist tellin me im a irsk cuz i have a sex drive.....

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 2:43 pm I just dont know TeraNata, ive been put on chemical castration for god knows how long, and my doctor and therapist are talking about physical castraton as they say im a risk ! i cant see i am all im doing is masturbating, although they know im a virgin and admitted to my therapist i think about sex alot, you said "

TeraNata (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 2:43 pm ]
sex drive & its consequences are controlling

" and to be honest i like what i do i like exposing myself, masturbating and cumming on them if i can after the guilt is so
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bad but when im horny again all that goes, and

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 2:43 pm u asked "

TeraNata (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 2:04 pm Is the public masturbation getting in your way

" i like what i do, i like being seen and being caught. ive tried to stop but i cant. i get hard and then dont care ive done it i

nfront and on my own mother and she wants my physicaly castrated aswell, me i want to stop and i dont i dunno...

You like being seen and caught, but does that prevent you from being able to do the other things you want to do?

You feel guilty afterwards but lose control when you're horny. Do you think that means the need for sex is preventing you from being true to yourself and your real values?

Masturbating frequently is one thing, hell, we all think about sex a lot. But it's different when you're forcing people to watch you.

As a woman, I can tell you that's so objectifying. Some people get really upset by it. A younger girl may not understand now, but if she ever does it could have a terrible effect. You can hurt people without hurting them physically. Wouldn't you say that, for example, raping an unconscious girl hurts them? It may not inflict physical damage, but it's about forcing someone into a sexual situation they don't want.

Remember that a second opinion can't hurt. Seeing another doctor, especially perhaps a male doctor, could be a good idea. This is a big change in your life, and you want to be able to approach it as confidently and as well informed as possible.

TeraNata (imported) wrote: Fri Jun 12, 2009 3:04 pm You like being seen and caught, but does that prevent you from being able to do the other things you want to do?

You feel guilty afterwards but lose control when you're horny. Do you think that means the need for sex is preventing you from being true to yourself and your real values?

Yes it does especilly when i get hard and horny, and then i HAVE TO expose myself that being to my mom, or female friends or family, or i will go out in public and expose myself infront of young girls and have to masturbate untill i cum on them or infront of them, and before i was put on castration i was horny 24/7 like i was masturbate and cum and 3sec later im hard again trying to masturbate. you asked if sex is preventing me beign my true self not sure what that means but sex to me is intercourse and to be honest that doesnt interest me, although i think of sex alot lately or did before the chemical castration, but been on the meds were i take 2 androcur a day i know my sex drive is reduced as before i was put on this by courts, i would get horny all the time masturbating to the point i make myself sore, when it comes to young girls i dont want sex with them at all i dont fantasys about them (accept for a 14yr old) who caught me one day in her parents bathroom and asked to watch many times after that, wrong for me to let her but at the time she was female and it was a real turn on for me, at min i keep being told i cant afford to have a sex drive no more as im a risk t oyoung girls and women so was forced to take androcur and now doctor as put me on prozac and shes told me one of the side effect is permant impotence, but shes said she still wants me to take the medication as its for depression and also stop the urges i have, so they seriously want to damage my sex drive or remove it, and as i say 10% of my seriously wishs my sex drive was dead and all sexual urges, fetishs, fantasys were all gone, but the selfish horny guy is scared of loosing his sex drive permently plus wants to continue exposing himself to his mom, young girls, etc etc becuase im addicted to the pleasure, both my therapist and doctor and specilist are still talking about physical castration but seekin court help, but i have been told they cant castrate me forcefully, but the court can force chemical castration which as happend, sometimes i really wish iwas a girl.

Only asking TeraNata would u email me, not for funny crap as i cant anyway, but just to chat means ur female.

After maybe 3months the chemical castration is starting to kick in, i admit i can get an erection maybe once or twice aday if that, but when im hard and i masturbate i either loose erection or i cant make myself cum, i admit this freaks me out, but before i was put on chemical castation i would get an erection i double loads each day and then would masturbate 6/7/8 or untill i would make myself sore, but now like i say im lucky if i get hard once or twice thats when i need to masturbate but when i dont get hard i dont think about it if that makes sence, although im scared of loosing my sex drive and the ability to masturbate and cum again, i sort of cant wait were i cannot get an erection at all, but then i worry about when they say STOP taking the meds and all this starting again.

Thing i dont enjoy is the female side effects especally the hot flushs as i sufeer with eczema, and the short of breath etc, the aching i had in my balls as now gone which im glad as it was uncomfertable but doctor said it was the meds working on my testicules plus i was masturbating and trying to cum which i couldnt, have to say this is NOT an easy road but im starting to agree with both doctor and therapist being women they were right !

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 17, 2009 3:22 pm but then i worry about when they say STOP taking the meds and all this starting again.

Hey my friend,

I can understand that point so well. Please NO, never put me back.....

Good luck

loveUall

Jean

I cant understand why i still have a sex drive, as the other day i manged to get a hardon and masturbated to orgasm, but will admit it was hard work especally to cum, but as i say ive been on ANDROCUR 50mg for 3 months now and admit my sex drive as fell dramatacly as before this i would be hard 24/7 even after i had masturbated and cum, 2/3 secs laters i would be hard, but i say im prob hard once or if im lucky twice aday, but someday im not, and i will admit this scares the hell out of me, but some1 asked would i rather be exposing myself to young girls and women masturbating on them and end up in jail or loose my sex drive and the ability to expose and i did admit loose sex drive but still its hard very hard, not keen and the female side effects, but as i said above, im terrified if the doctor she says you can stop taking the chemical castration meds, as i know for a fact i will go back to my old ways as it was a sexual turn on for me being seen etc, anyway have to see but mean my sex drive is tbh very small i want it to stay small or taken away forever.

Just wanted to say to those who have replied to my posts, i am very gratefull first post i wasnt sure if i should post here, but i am glad and again gratefull for the advice, but i feel theres along way to go and im 42 nearly a male and a virgin, and terrified with whats going on, anyway il shut up for now as mostly probly annoyin you all.

carl.

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MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 20, 2009 1:17 am Just wanted to say to those who have replied to my posts, i am very gratefull first post i wasnt sure if i should post here, but i am glad and again gratefull for the advice, but i feel theres along way to go and im 42 nearly a male and a virgin, and terrified with whats going on, anyway il shut up for now as mostly probly annoyin you all.

carl.

Just look at your own posting and even signed with your name. That doesn't sound as the same person anymore.

You are changing my friend. It works same for me, still can get hard and have an orgasm, but the need is gone

Only two, three months more and you look at that long way to go as something nice, just 42 and many years ahead, outside of jail

And don't bother to much about annoying them....If you don't, I do, and if nobody does, they do it themselves

(Oops sorry did it again )

loveUall

Jean

Ok i have a curious question to those that are taking ANDROCUR 50MG twice a day and prozac also twice aday, i am having the female side effects mostly out of breath and hot flushs etc, but im still able to get an erection at least once or twice aday although sometimes not at all, but ive now been on my meds for 15wks and admit my sex drive as decreased a great deal, but although i didnt want this chemical castration i have no decided i want to loose my sex drive and wonderd how long it normaly takes before my sex drive is ended with this current medication, i have thought about maybe surgical castration but ive heard they dont do that in the uk only in curtain curcumstances, although i class what i have been doing now serious as i was

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Thu Apr 09, 2009 5:50 am exposing myself and masturbating to

both young girls and women, and admit it needs to stop, what

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 20, 2009 1:17 am does scare me is when my doctor says stop taking the

meds as i know for a fact i will go back to my old ways and although at the time i like what i do and the pleasure i get from it, i also know it needs to stop i have tried before this all started but if i get hard then thats when i do it, and to be honest since ive been on androcur i havnt exposed myself and although i have tried to masturbate it is very hard work and sometimes i loose erection or find it very hard to cum so, were iwas masturbating say 6 or 7 times a day or untill i made my penis sore, im lucky if i can masturbate once or twice aweek, and like some of the advice i got in my post your right i dont miss masturbating but i do want my sex drive took away so im hoping the longer i take this drug it will end my sex drive but i dunno so thats why im posting here, although i find the female hot flushes uncomfertable the other side effects ive read is breast devepment which i dont want to happen, anyway also wanted to say THANK YOU to those that have given me advice here although i still think theres along way to go and admit im scared, but people have said to me when i have a normal sex drive im a risk to females and ive admitted to myself there right.......