clysmaniac (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 09, 2009 10:21 am We're getting to the point here of subjective interpetations of how complete your chemical castration is. Short of being absolutely impotent and with no sexual urges, you have no idea of your actual testosterone level unless you have a blood/saliva test to find your actual number. While it sounds easy to take so much Androcur, you really don't know how much your T level has dropped. You can feel it is lower than before but you can't tell if it has been lowered by 10%, 50% or what? You can play around all you want but without facts, you won't know for sure where you are.

And yes, I realize that this may not be easy to obtain depending on your situation.

Hi clysmaniac

Thank for replying, anyway u said i need some tests done, i know when i was orderd to take this medication by the courts i had to give a full blood test but what that was for i dont know, i know since been on androcur they are effecting my penis and balls as i get a aching pain but told its normal, i can still get a hard on but not as much as without the meds, and when and if i do cum there is no force behind it, other side effects is breathlessness and get womens hot flushs which are unconfertable, and there as been alittle shrinkage in tests, i next see my doctor in 1months time so if u know what i need to ask please let me know, she as put me on prozac recently and told me there is a side effedt that will happen but i still have to take the meds and the side effect is impotency, im not going to lie the idea of my sex drive removed and now penis made dead scares me as ive enjoyed j/o for many years and also admit i enjoy exposing myself to girls/women and the odd guy but i also dont want to end up in jail, so part of me hates this but i dont have a choice as its forced on my by courts, and the other side agrees with what they (women mostly) want to do.

Testosterone tests can be ordered from various reputable places, via the internet.

Your issues are significant and complex. Every time you start to think about exposing yourself to others, force yourself to instead think about actually being arrested, going on trial, being in jail with horrible people, and when released being a Registered Sex Offender for the rest of your life.

Give your therapist full control over your treatment. Help is possible in most cases, if you have a good therapist and you let them do their job.

Good Luck.

nullorchis (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2009 4:32 am Give your therapist full control over your treatment. Help is possible in most cases, if you have a good therapist and you let them do their job

I see my therapist this coming friday, so what should i tell her or ask her to do !

Thx

You really need to be on a higher dose of Androcur until your T drops, then go on a 50mg/day maintenence dose.

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2009 4:58 am I see my therapist this coming friday, so what should i tell her or ask her to do !

Thx

Have you ever thought about giving her the link to this EA site and tell her that you are Malevirgin.

I know I know, that would be a big step. Not forcing you, only a suggestion

loveUall

Jean

Jean Op den Kamp (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2009 5:39 am Have you ever thought about giving her the link to this EA site and tell her that you are Malevirgin.

I know I know, that would be a big step. Not forcing you, only a suggestion

loveUall

Jean

I really dont know tbh, shes been fantastic i must admit and i do trust her, but theres still alot of school stuff and other things she doesnt know about and the sexual side half the time i dont think she want to know or even gets bored, but thats just my opinion, some1 here said give her full control but i dont know what that means, she does totaly agree with me on chemical castration and not being able to masturbate as classed as a risk to both young girls/women, shes asked me if im into young girls sexually and ive told her i like them in school uniform (skirts) or skirts and white socks or black tights and that i get hard etc, but also told her i neevr think about havin sex with a young girl which i dont, although i like exposaing myself and masturbating on them, i just know this is all scary the thought of loosin my sex drive but people tell me its for the best but then the side effects i get (feminization) sucks, its just getting harder and harder.

sorry for postin my personal crap thats going on.

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2009 4:58 am I see my therapist this coming friday, so what should i tell her or ask her to do !

Thx

Consider printing your very first post that is in this thread and give it to your therapist. While you must always be honest with your therapist, you don't have to tell everything all at once. But whatever you do say, do be honest. Maybe you don't want your therapist to know (yet) that you are visiting the EA web site. Fine, keep it to yourself for now.

You recognize that you have a problem. Just getting to that point is a big accomplishment.

Obviously eliminating the problem is the goal.

Don't get trapped in quicksand, which will happen if you think about and dwell on the problem forever.

Problems like this can not be solved quickly. Changing thoughts and behavior takes a long long time. If you are strongly religious, or have strong political party attitudes just think how hard it would be for you to change to another religion, or change how you think politically.

Our innermost self can be changed if we really want this. Less difficult things we can often do on our own. More difficult challenges required the assistance and guidance of someone who is trained in such re-molding of our inner self.

But when the mold of our inner self is set, it is not necessarily set in concrete. We are more like gelatin. Warm it up and it turns to liquid and it can be re-cast and re-set in a new mold. It's not as easy as that, but it makes for a nice comparative way to think about the process.

Good Luck in creating The New You.

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2009 11:43 pm I really dont know tbh, shes been fantastic i must admit and i do trust her, but theres still alot of school stuff and other things she doesnt know about and the sexual side half the time i dont think she want to know or even gets bored, but thats just my opinion, some1 here said give her full control but i dont know what that means, she does totaly agree with me on chemical castration and not being able to masturbate as classed as a risk to both young girls/women, shes asked me if im into young girls sexually and ive told her i like them in school uniform (skirts) or skirts and white socks or black tights and that i get hard etc, but also told her i neevr think about havin sex with a young girl which i dont, although i like exposaing myself and masturbating on them, i just know this is all scary the thought of loosin my sex drive but people tell me its for the best but then the side effects i get (feminization) sucks, its just getting harder and harder.

sorry for postin my personal crap thats going on.

Hey,

you say you you trust her,and you like to expose yourself to other people...

You don't know what it means to give her full control..........

If you follow my advice, and give her your account her at EA, you show yourself for a very big part. Don't bother if she gets bored, that's her problem. She could have learned a real job you know.

My offer is a hard one, I know. It takes something from you, but didn't you already show that you have it in you................

Go for it, throw away that fucking protection, so what, are you suddenly afraid that she will see your soul naked????

I make you a real fair offer...................

In about a week I guess I will know who my personal psychiatrist will be!!!!

I promise you that if you have her the information about your account, I will do the same with my account the moment I have my first consult with my psychiatrist.

Is that an offer???

I make it even a better offer for you.............

If you are to chicken, or don't know how to do it, or maybe next week, next month, next year or maybe never.............

I will show you how to do it

I am going to give him my account info (he just needs the webside, the idiot he find by the name), no matter if you follow or not

If you don't want to feminize, then be a man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

loveUall

Jean

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2009 11:43 pm shes asked me if im into young girls sexually and ive told her i like them in school uniform (skirts) or skirts and white socks or black tights and that i get hard etc, but also told her i neevr think about havin sex with a young girl which i dont, although i like exposaing myself and masturbating on them

You can have urges to do sexual things that aren't really sexually based. Sex obviously tends to provoke strong reactions, sometimes sex is for the reaction instead of the gratification.

When you say young girls arouse you, what do you mean? If you don't want to have sex with them, maybe try to ask yourself what you get from what you do.

And if you still get urges to masturbate publicly... maybe phone sex? There are ways other than imposing yourself on people.

This admittedly isn't something I know a great deal about. But I really do wish you the best of luck.

TeraNata (imported) wrote: Thu Jun 11, 2009 5:02 pm You can have urges to do sexual things that aren't really sexually based. Sex obviously tends to provoke strong reactions, sometimes sex is for the reaction instead of the gratification.

When you say young girls arouse you, what do you mean? If you don't want to have sex with them, maybe try to ask yourself what you get from what you do.

And if you still get urges to masturbate publicly... maybe phone sex? There are ways other than imposing yourself on people.

This admittedly isn't something I know a great deal about. But I really do wish you the best of luck.

When i say young girls turn me on, i mean when they wear school uniforms with a skirt and i see there legs and see them in girls white socks i will get hard, of if shes wearing black tights i will get hard and if i see women in black tights i will get turned on, i was caught by a friends 14yr old daughter in her parents bathroom masturbating at first she said sorry and left but returned asking to watch esle she would tell her parents, and not wantin her to do that i masturbating infront of her and even more of a turn on was she was in school uniform and black tights, and it didnt take me long untill i came and some went on her skrt and leg which again turned me on, but it didnt stop there a few times she watched me and it began to get were i was sexually turned on by her and she was all i thought about sexually, and i loved when she asked to watch me, i would masturbate over her picture, or would masturbate about other friends daughters etc but if i did want sex i wanted it with the 14yr old, but she older now and knows i have a problem and the thing that hurts me now is she agrees with chemical castration and that fact she wants my sex drive removed as does my own mom, every one is telling me that im a risk an

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 28, 2009 12:34 am d that i cant afford to have a sex drive

permantly so that i cant get hard and then masturbate, but there people are women....

So your female TeraNata what do u think should be done !!!