Hi

Just wanted to say to them that replied to my post to say thanks, but ive now been on ANDROCUR 50mg for aweek taking one in the morning with food and one at night , and i admit my moms took control of the medication to make sure i take it, and to be honest i didnt want to take drug as im addicted to masturbation and exposing myself since very early teens and was masturbating 4.5, 6 times aday sometimes untill i made myself sore. i will admit i was arrested twice when i was 14 and 17, but after that i seemed to have carmed down but the past 6 or 7yrs its came back to were i expose and masturbate to family (including my mom ALOT recently), friends (which u can understand ive lost now) and strangers (young girls/women and some males), what made me go for help was when a freinds daughter i think i said this already she was 14 and came in the toilet and caught me masturbating and then wanted to watch and this happend 4 or 5 times after plus i think i was sexually actracted to her, my therapit was great but she knows how bad the situation is of me exposing myself, ive done it to my own mom and even cum on her, but she made me go see a doctor that deals in sexual problems and offenders and as i said she mentioned physical and chemical which as i say im now on, but she as said i need to stop long term and ANDROCUR is for now and whatever side effects i HAVE TO take it, but hand on my heart i dont want to take it but sayin that i dont want to be classes a SEX OFFENDER or PAEDOPHILE and she says im right on the edge, and means i have been arrested for this twice before next time wont be so light she says i will be put on the sex offenders register and a paedophile plus maybe put away in care, so if i dont want that then she says well both females say, my sex drive needs to be carmed down to the point of removal, since ive been made to take this by my mom, i dont know if its just me 1 day i was really hot and she said i was havin a hot flush, but i cant see that after 1 week of medication, and recently when i have tried to masturbate its been hard work as normal and admit its scared me to the point ive cried alittle, as ive been masturbating since 10, but people say my sex drive is a must to be stopped before i want the next lvl (SEX) as im still a virgin.

Anyway im rambling i think i do it as im nervous and scared, read about some guys takin the same and the shrinkage of the penis and balls which dont bother me as such but the feminie thing does, but mom, doctor and therapist say i still have to take it.

Life sucks

Ps My doctor as said ive i dont take the medication myself, then she can take my medication over, and it can be done forcefully is this true does anyone know !

It takes a brave man to make a hard choice.

Yeah, sometimes life sucks, but you sure do deserve a happy future

Good Luck my friend

loveUall

Jean

Ok so ive now been taking ANDROCUR 50mg for a month now, i had to ask my mom to take control of the medication as many times i refused to take the medication becuase if im honest i dont want to loose my sex drive so i cant get hard and masturbate and cum, so i called my therapist and she suggest asking me mom for help, or she she was going to get in touch with the specialist that put me on the medication as the doctor told me if i cant take the medication myself (which i cant) then she can take control by getting myself or my mom to sign a form giving her permission, which then is done forcefully and with injections instead of the current oral medication, but my therapist as said that i cant afford to have a sex drive anymore as thats when the trouble starts and i expose myself to young girls or boys and to women and men and im a risk especially to young children as ive already been arrested when i was smaller and she thinks as does my mom that if i expose myself to a child this time i will be arrested and either put into medical care or prison and be classed a sex offender and paedophile s the removal of my sex drive is a must and shes said that the androcur is short term but her and the specialist are thinking long term option and thats physical castration to permentaly remove my sex drive, but she did talk me into letting my mom take control of the current medication which she gives me 1 in morning and another at night and my mom always checks to make sure i have swallowed and as i say been on the medication for a month, yesterday (sunday) i had my first hot flush according to my mom and to be honest the FEMINIZATION of this drug is what i like, and my mom says why not think the drug as giving me female hormones instead of it killing my dick and sex drive as when i was younger (at school) she used to dress me in girls clothes and so did myself, but that medication as now started to kick in my sex drive were before this i would get hard many times aday maybe 20 tmes and i would masturbate 5 or

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Wed Apr 15, 2009 7:21 am 6 times aday sometimes untill i made myself sore,

but now that as shot down to maybe 4 times a day and masturbate twice but when i do i struggle to stay hard and t cum and its hard work when i do finally cum, and as i admitted before i do goto my local mens toilets as theres gloryholes, and i go there to be butt fucked and again before i was put on the medication while i was being fucked i would always get hard and masturbate, but last twice ive been i havnt got hard when ive been fucked, and between us guys i really dont want to take this drug as i like

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Thu Apr 09, 2009 5:50 am exposing myself and masturbating

and especially the pleassure i get when i cum, but my mom, therapist and speciallist all say i cant have a sex drive anymore and thats why there thinking of a perm sollution in physical castration and another op on my penis, but i do like the feminization part and thats all, and hand on my heart i would do anythink to be a GIRL.

O.K., LOOK,

A sex change is not going to cure your attraction to minors. Really, it won't. Thinking that it will and then going that route as confused as you are will just compound your problems, maybe make you suicidal and hoplessly depressed. You enjoy your sex drive and I would bet the Archive that you are not interested in giving up your sex drive. Tell me, am I wrong?

So, you are probably not going to change your present behaviors.

The reason is that it is obvious that you DON'T WANT to change and even if you did B.F. Skinner tells us that it may not be humanly possible.

So, ask yourself about your alternatives.

I think that you have a future in the porn industry, at least as an outlet for your strong impulses.

What you have to do is to mold your behavior into something that is legal (almost, as porn is in many localities) and this will keep you out of jail. So, go and seek a porn company and start making porn with them, and they will supply you with minor look-alikes to get you away from society and offending it as you are now doing. I understand that you will work for cheap, so you will have to find a job and keep your impulses in line while working it. This may involve masturbation before and after work, but in private. Got it?

Tell us the age range of female that you got in trouble with exhibiting yourself before. That will help us determine at what age you became fixated.

All bullshit aside, your main objective is to become socialized and to stay out of jail. Once you do this things will start looking a lot different.

O.K.?

TO MALE VIRGIN:

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MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Thu Apr 09, 2009 8:55 am part of me wants her to kill my sex drive so i can never get hard, never masturbate or cum again, put part of me likes what im doing althought others dont.

Don't worry about not being able to be sexually aroused or perform.

From my experience, when you have a sex drive, you think loosing it might be absolutely awful, unacceptable, near torture.

But for me, it was exactly the opposite.

It is like a giant relief. Almost like going back to pre-puberty when you didn't have a sex drive. Life gets very simple, uncomplicated, and I do not miss sexual anything.

About the only difference of post-puberty medical castration vs pre-puberty life is that as an adult you do have some awareness of what you are missing as an andropause or medically castrated male, but there is no frustration in being sexless. Your results may vary and improve over time.

Give your therapist full reign. Don't over think it. Let go. Give it all the time the therapist thinks you need. Sexual addition, drug addition, alcohol addition, gambling addiction have a lot in common For varying reasons they are addiction. They consume your thoughts and make it near impossible to live life outside of the addiction. Addicts are not bad people and addicts are not really "cured" per se.

Mostly it's about learning to put the addiction in a little lock box in an unused part of your brain, locking it up, throwing away the key. You know that there is a part of yourself that existed, and still exists, but through various methods you learn to make it part of your past, and not bother you, and never let it out again. From there you can actually start enjoying life.

No shame in seeking out help, like your don't do your own dental work do you? Electricians, plumbers, doctors, lawyers, therapists. People are trained in certain skill sets, and utilizing their help and services makes sense.

Press on. Good Luck.

Ok all, ive been on ANDROCUR now coming up for 5wks, and this past few days i have been having pains in my balls is this normal ?

Thx

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Mon May 04, 2009 3:45 am Ok all, ive been on ANDROCUR now coming up for 5wks, and this past few days i have been having pains in my balls is this normal ?

Thx

Hey my friend,

How are things going on?

I am using androcur on a high dose for a long time, but the only pain in my ball came from the attacks I did to them, trying to cook them from the inside, running boiling water to a sering needle. I guess there may be other reasons for this pain.

Maybe you wank less, and they were use to the massage. Maybe you have to work a lot harder to reach your goal, and you are not careful with them. I don't know, but please, why not ask your doctor

There might be another result of the androcur, we can all see here on the board. This is your first normal posting, asking a question and not showing of with the problem

What is happening my friend, are you changing??? I told you before, have that stuff a chance, calm down and take it easy

For me, it took Androcur over a year to start any result,

this changing is Great

I am just so afraid to bring down the dose to normal. I don't want to return into the old ME

loveUall

Jean

Been on androcur not for alittle under 3 month and admit my sex drive as reduced alittle but im still able to get hard, masturbate and cum, but when i cum i cant like shoot if that makes sence !, so was wondering how long it take to completly loose my sex drive !, also had a few side effect hot flushs, short of puff esp when i do somethink and achin pains in my balls, the doctor also put my on prozac so if anyone as use this drug whats the side effects etc.

Thx

MaleVirgin (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 09, 2009 9:38 am Been on androcur not for alittle under 3 month and admit my sex drive as reduced alittle but im still able to get hard, masturbate and cum, but when i cum i cant like shoot if that makes sence !, so was wondering how long it take to completly loose my sex drive !, also had a few side effect hot flushs, short of puff esp when i do somethink and achin pains in my balls, the doctor also put my on prozac so if anyone as use this drug whats the side effects etc.

Thx

You may never loose all of your sex drive. You may still get some form of an erection and even come a little. That can be true even with castration. Your body will still be making some male hormone in the adrenal gland witch may be just enough to have effect. The effect you get is not what the next guy will get. Each will be different. You dose of androcur may not be enough to fully stop your hormones. Try increasing the dose by 50 mg a day for a few weeks to see if there is any change.

Wish you luck

We're getting to the point here of subjective interpetations of how complete your chemical castration is. Short of being absolutely impotent and with no sexual urges, you have no idea of your actual testosterone level unless you have a blood/saliva test to find your actual number. While it sounds easy to take so much Androcur, you really don't know how much your T level has dropped. You can feel it is lower than before but you can't tell if it has been lowered by 10%, 50% or what? You can play around all you want but without facts, you won't know for sure where you are.

And yes, I realize that this may not be easy to obtain depending on your situation.