I’m a man now, a whole man and I’m very happy.

[vesal_mas (imported)]

Dear all,

I have a little life story want to write down for everyone being interested.

It’s about a threefold experience with androcur.

As far as I remember I had a twisted relationship with my genitals. I don’t know how old I exactly was, but at the age of 8 to 10 self abuse of my then little penis and testicles were very common.

At home we had some chemical aerosol. I loved to spray it on my scrotum. It provoked some tingling feeling, but above all the skin began to move in a very odd, wavelike form.

My mom was a vet, so very soon I knew all about sex, anatomy and also castrations. There was a surgical tool that fitted neatly around my then little balls. I still have the instrument. When I see it now, I know how little they must have been. If want to see it: http://www.medema.co.uk/Dental_Surgical ... cal_Instru ments_COLLIN_and_YOUNG_Tounge_Holding_Froceps~3~85 ~0.htm . I still know it was possible to click it 3 times, 4 was also possible, but then it became quite painful.

Electricity was always my great friend. After becoming of age to masturbate, I wanted to go a bit further. A train transformator could be used to stimulate my penis. Although the current was not pleasant, I often reached orgasm and ejaculation. Once I misplaced the connections and made a nasty, painful burn at the frenulum. This hurts. It only took the time to heal before I went on with it, but a bit better. At that time I had a commodore 64 with matrixprinter. I made an electrical contact with two wires and some tape onto the printer head. So the computer stimulated me. I only had control over the amplitude. This was more funny, and easier. Recently I connected the same transformator to my penis. It is not pleasurable. But at 14-15 years every stimulation can make a boy ejaculate, I think. I then also learned sperm is reasonable good conductor

I know my father took me once into the bathroom and approached me in a not good way. Maybe this could have interfered with a normal puberty ?

This genital abuse went on for years and years. Having a good knowledge of anatomy I even once cut open the scrotum to see one of my testicles and cord. It did hurt, but not that much. I managed to make a skin incision of approximately 1,5 cm. I only reaches through the dartos at one little spot, just to see the gray-bluish color of the right testicle. At that moment I was shaking that much I could not continue. I did not stitch the wound, so it lasted some time to heal but it did, almost without scar.

All right. I will not take this longer than necessary. Abuse went further on. I tested many surgical instruments on penis, scrotum, testicles and cords. Often with very painful episodes. Elastration was the more serious work. It gave me the most intense masturbation sessions ever, especially in combination with electrostimulation (smartstim software).

In 2006 I did my first test run of one month of androcur. This was a very, very interesting, and also a very positive experience for me. Although I did not make a special topic of it, you can read some of my notes here: http://www.eunuch.org/vbulletin/showpos ... stcount=20.

At that time I thought castration could be a valuable option for me. A longer test run would be necessary. I still think I did not recover 100%, but some 98%. Maybe this is the reason why I postponed a second test run to this year.

The second test period was not good, was bad: http://www.eunuch.org/vbulletin/showthr ... post109040

I did only take the drug for 2 weeks.

Now I took another 2 weeks of 2x50 mg. I felt lazy, had lots of fatigue, lack of initiative and so on. On the other side, I did not taken the drug long enough to kill my sexual hunger. It was not good.

Now I almost recovered for the third time, and I think I’m happy. I feel as a man again, I can do sport, work well, and also have some sex now and then.

I came in peace with myself. I again want to my have daily ejaculation, I love my body, I love my penis, I love my testicles.

I do not want to be castrated anymore. Three test runs of androcur learned me this.

I wanted to write this down for everyone that wants to read a threefold experience with androcur.

Take Care !!

Vesal !

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

Thank you for posting your most enlightening experience. --FLO--

[vesal_mas (imported)]

I’m a man now, a whole man and I’m very happy, sequel.

As you can read in my first post,

I had a twisted relationship with my genitals.

Abuse, torture and chemical castration were all there. In 2008 I quit.

Some say chemical castration can have long term consequences. I’m afraid I have to confirm this, although my antiandrogen periods were very brief. Now, at 36 years, I masturbate, but in general I like electromasturbation. High settings are required to push me over the edge. Everything together not bad, but

I recently met a girl. In fact I know her for many years, but we had the common click. We really feel good together. It’s very nice. However I do worry.

In love being in bed with her. We had wonderful hours. Long-lasting erections are no problem. But, even after having fun for some hours (!) She always comes first and then she helps me over the edge. That said, this is not bad. But don’t dare thinking about kids.

I do write this account for all members of this forum seeking fulfillment in castration and being a eunuch. It is well known chemical castration can lead to permanent changes. These changes are not solely sexually. Chemical castration is a very good way to see if one can live without testosterone. However, drugs like androcur are very, very potent. They only have their full effect after several weeks to months, but in the end they do work. And the effect can be very drastic. Today I read about a member taking androcur for two weeks, asking himself why he is still potent. With all respect: please read, ask and look for as much as information as possible. Then don't think twice, but a 100 times before beginning the journey !

I’m convinced most of the seeking for castration relation matters stems from sexual frustration and, above all, fantasy. Let’s keep in mind only a minute minority can permanently live without hormones. Most of castrated man take HRT not only to avoid osteoporosis. Depression and psychological well-feeling is a major concern.

This all said, I am immensely grateful to this forum and its members. Many of you laid me through a difficult way of finding myself. Without this site I would probably have hurt myself much more. Now I embrace health and girlfriend. They are invaluable.

Please take care,

Vesal.

[tugon (imported)]

Thank you for posting. I am glad you are happy and found the right path for you. Long life and much happiness.