first of all, hi everyone. this comunity (and it's size) is something that i never thought existed.

well, i am brasilian, 24 years old. so, excuse me for my bad english

i don't know if this is the forum to ask or if you will be angry with it, but here it goes:

during my life i found only one thing that really justify my breathing; learning 3d.

i haven't had sex for.. i don't know, 4 years? maybe more. but i only accomplish that because of my isolation. i still feel desire, still masturbate.

masturbation is not so much a problem. though i don't like the time a spend with it, no matter how little it is. but desire, when i am outside is a serious problem. it makes me fragile, makes me stupid. i can't get isolated all the time, so i must solve my sexual problem by erasing it.

this is the situation, the reasons why i wanna do it. sex is useless. i must not want something useless.

but what i studied about castration doesn't help me. it deacreses memory (wich i already have very little eheh) and cognition capacity. beside the unwanted physical problems and de possible depression (more time wasted).

so... does anyone knows of a way of erase, or at least, decrease my sexual interest so i can concentrate more? maybe there are some level of castration that does it. i don't know

ow, and money is a REAL problem. but... i consider it an investiment. if it works, i may spend some years putting money on a bank so i can do it.

well. sory if someone read all of it hoping to se something usefull. but if anyone can help me i would be really really thankfull. since i have noone ore where else to ask it