hello

very rarely do i surf these rooms or archives i tend to muddle along on my own, I am a eunuch who tries to be positive about it and open and honest about it too

I am a reluctant eunuch-partially

My story is simple in that i had pain from hell in my testicles, i went to a urologist who said i was hypogonadal and they would have to come out sooner or later- shock to say the least, never in my wildest dreams did i ever think this was an option

reason for being hypogonadal-well I was told by my urologist, a shock to them or missue( what did he mean ), well was that rugger playing to intense or was he refering to CBT or when i had my accident( car ) and they swelled up was that what did it-who knows who can say, except that it happened

So i had them out- easy choice the pain stopped , hurrah, but that was only the begining of a long journey. Its funny how exceting i was of this and how unexcepting my friends were , my lover, guys having sex with me just to see my crotch- the list goes on.

i had implants put in, others view of you is so powerful to how you feel, or percieve how you feel, anyway the implants were a mistake, I loathed them, they werent me, and I decided to have them out, being castrated again, but this time a serious choice

So for anyone whos been there or thinking of going there learn how to cope with anger, and thank your friends for understanding your pain, mental not physical

I am now balless agin and a better person for it, i am learning to like myself, which i dont think i ever did when i had balls, i was totally intolerant of others, I try not to be now

i met a wonderful transgendered male who pointed out to me that, being male wasnt about having balls, its about how you are, not anyone else

for the first time in my life i had to consider my sexuality, i have always known, i am gay and its never been an issue- a supportive and accepting family- the reason for that someone in my life discribed being a castrated male as the lwest of the low an it not a person

other people are cruel, yes i am balless, not everything about me revloves around my sexuality, I am male, i am a gay male, sometimes I like bdsm sometimes i like to garden -so what.

i was a reluctant eunuch- now i am learning to be a positive eunuch, a public eunuch

oh and if anyone requires to post to me this is my home email

paulthompson@spv4.fsnet.co.uk

many regards paul

Welcome to the Archive, I think if you read the posts of others you will find that your not alone in here. We also have a chat room where you can chat with other eunuchs.

River

ukeunuch (imported) wrote: Sun Apr 04, 2004 7:24 pm I am a eunuch who tries to be positive about it and open and honest about it too....

I am a reluctant eunuch-partially.....

ukeunuch (imported) wrote: Sun Apr 04, 2004 7:24 pm My story is simple in that i had pain from hell in my testicles, i went to a urologist who said i was hypogonadal and they would have to come out sooner or later- shock to say the least, never in my wildest dreams did i ever think this was an option......So i had them out- easy choice the pain stopped , hurrah, but that was only the begining of a long journey. Its funny how exceting i was of this and how unexcepting my friends were , my lover, guys having sex with me just to see my crotch- the list goes on....i had implants put in, others view of you is so powerful to how you feel,.... anyway the implants were a mistake, I loathed them, they werent me, and I decided to have them out, being castrated again, but this time a serious choice....I am now balless agin and a better person for it, i am learning to like myself, which i dont think i ever did when i had balls, i was totally intolerant of others, I try not to be now.....I met a wonderful transgendered male who pointed out to me that, being male wasnt about having balls,....I was a reluctant eunuch- now i am learning to be a positive eunuch, a public eunuch.

Thanks for dropping in. I certainly welcome someone who comes to this place in life much as I did. I was told in my 20s by a urologist that I'd be having a lot o' discomfort by my 50s. I never thought a lot about it 'til I started to have the problems he predicted in my late 40s. I had what the docs described as a congenital in which the testicles were very tight and prone to periodic infections from living much of their lives in my inguinal canals. One was almost totally dead and quite shriveled prior to removal. I also became hypogonadic. I was also in discomfort much of the time from the pain from the scar tissue that developed.

Although it was hard, finally making the decision to have them off was one of the best decisions I ever made. Never having pain in my crotch, as well as having no balls, is quite liberating. I've had the same experiences with respect to others. Some, including my BF, are very accepting. Some guys are my sexual partners mostly because they like seeing my vacant crotch and/or fondling my empty sac. Some probably aren't. I'm public about it to the extent that I'm not shy about being nude in front of others. I'm lucky to have found a group of guys with whom I can discuss the sexuality of choosing to be castrated and being ballless, but also remaining masculine.

JeffEunuch (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 05, 2004 7:08 am Thanks for dropping in. I certainly welcome someone who comes to this place in life much as I did. I was told in my 20s by a urologist that I'd be having a lot o' discomfort by my 50s. I never thought a lot about it 'til I started to have the problems he predicted in my late 40s. I had what the docs described as a congenital in which the testicles were very tight and prone to periodic infections from living much of their lives in my inguinal canals. One was almost totally dead and quite shriveled prior to removal. I also became hypogonadic. I was also in discomfort much of the time from the pain from the scar tissue that developed.

Although it was hard, finally making the decision to have them off was one of the best decisions I ever made. Never having pain in my crotch, as well as having no balls, is quite liberating. I've had the same experiences with respect to others. Some, including my BF, are very accepting. Some guys are my sexual partners mostly because they like seeing my vacant crotch and/or fondling my empty sac. Some probably aren't. I'm public about it to the extent that I'm not shy about being nude in front of others. I'm lucky to have found a group of guys with whom I can discuss the sexuality of choosing to be castrated and being ballless, but also remaining masculine.

Eunuch Archive really is family both for guys who have actually gone the castration route and wannabes like myself. Good luck for many years in your castrated life!

Yeah I have found a lot of good friends on The Eunuch Archive and BME. In fact my BoyFriend who is on here and BME is the best person to ever happen to me. Wanting castration or nullofication is hard to do and find good Doctors or skilled cutters to do. And even before and after gatting things done there are tons of people that just look down on you for wanting that or having it done no matter what the reason.

It is definitely even harder for Me and my BF as we also enjoy all sorts of extreme body modifications. I love piercings and working on getting more and more tattoos. I also like finding ways to modify the body to express my feelings and interests.

It will take me a long time to finally have all the modifications I want but I know someday I will be there. In the next few weeks my BF and I will be even close to our goals, and will have to deal with the treatment of becoming eunuchs. But I know with him I can handle just about any comments people can make.

luvpain (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 05, 2004 8:42 pm It will take me a long time to finally have all the modifications I want but I know someday I will be there. In the next few weeks my BF and I will be even close to our goals, and will have to deal with the treatment of becoming eunuchs. But I know with him I can handle just about any comments people can make.

Congratulations on finding a BF with some of the same objectives and desires you have. It'll be much better adjusting together than alone for both of you. I hope you find a lot o' other accepting people, and my experience is that you will. It's your body, and as long as the consequences are well thought out, I feel it's your right to modify it as you wish.