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Almost castrated
Posted: Tue Jul 08, 2003 8:42 am
by Hash (imported)
It's been a tough time adjusting to my new self. Five years ago my left testicle was removed and my testosterone plunged. I'm not sure from where, but it settled at around 224mg's? Average being 300-1000 I'm told. I started using "Tribulus Terrestis?" 750mg per day and it gave me a great boost for years. My remaining testicle never did make up for what I lost, though I was told that it would. I think it sustained enough damage from years of self abuse that it couldn't compensate. But my sexuality almost got back to where it was with Tribulus and I was satis-fied. My castration fantasy also resumed and in April 03 I went too far and damaged my remaining testicle further. My testosterone plunged, my penis shrank and became useless, no erections. I thought I had really castrated myself, which is what I wanted, or at least I thought it was what I wanted. I went to my endocrinologist from Wellspan in York, Pa. Got a blood test and my testosterone is around 200mg, go figure. She put me on Testosterone gel and didn't ask me many questions. The gel made my lone testicle hard and even smaller, I look castrated, and feel castrated, but there's still a small testicle producing some testos-terone. I stopped using the gel and wondered if the Tribulus would again do it's magic, it hasn't and doesn't appear to help. If I continue using the Testosterone gel, my testicle might atrophy and die, if I don't, I'll lose all sexual feelings. My female endo doc said there's no alter-native and she doesn't suggest any herbal remedies to boost testosterone.
My question is this: Is there anything that can restore the function of an atrophied organ, especially a testicle. I know that they've done some amazing things to help increase the function of livers and kidneys, but my endo doc seems ignorant of anything that will restore the function of a testicle. Maybe I should become the castrated man I've always wanted to be? But now that I've almost arrived, I'm not quite ready for it, is this normal. Regrets? Joys? Hash.
Re: Almost castrated
Posted: Tue Jul 08, 2003 9:25 am
by Andrew (imported)
Hash (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 08, 2003 8:42 am
My question is this: Is there anything that can restore the function of an atrophied organ, especially a testicle. I know that they've done some amazing things to help increase the function of livers and kidneys, but my endo doc seems ignorant of anything that will restore the function of a testicle. Maybe I should become the castrated man I've always wanted to be? But now that I've almost arrived, I'm not quite ready for it, is this normal. Regrets? Joys? Hash.
I haven't heard of anything reliable that would restore the functioning of your testicle.
Of course, there are a lot of over-the counter formulas making fantastic claims for suckers like you with desire and money, but there isn't a shred of evidence that any of thease are better then placebos.
As far as I can tell, your Endo has it right. You can take testosterone, or settle into life as a eunuch. You may want to consider professional therapy to help you decide, and the help you to accept the consequences of what you decide.
In my case, I wanted to be a eunuch to remove my libido, this has happened, and I have no regrets and a lot of joy in my life. But I was never into fantasies about castration, as you seem to have been.
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Re: Almost castrated
Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2007 11:18 am
by George65 (imported)
Re:almost castrated
As an interested reader of all stories in the eunuch archive, I am a little surprised that you did not consider the result of your "castration games". I mean if you band or beat your balls long enough, they will give up their function sooner or later. And a man without functional testis is commonly called an eunuch. Even if you start with hrt, they do not restart their production of testosteron. I for myself know that I will end up as an eunuch, if my games will be successful.
Re: Almost castrated
Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2007 11:57 am
by jemagirl (imported)
George65 (imported) wrote: Sat Sep 01, 2007 11:18 am
Re:almost castrated
As an interested reader of all stories in the eunuch archive, I am a little surprised that you did not consider the result of your "castration games". I mean if you band or beat your balls long enough, they will give up their function sooner or later. And a man without functional testis is commonly called an eunuch. Even if you start with hrt, they do not restart their production of testosteron. I for myself know that I will end up as an eunuch, if my games will be successful.
George,
Even having considered all the likely ramifications of ones actions there will always be room for regret, when reality doesn't jibe with what one had fantasized. Also this was a very old thread from 2003.
Re: Almost castrated
Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2007 12:23 pm
by mrt (imported)
Hash (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 08, 2003 8:42 am
It's been a tough time adjusting to my new self. Five years ago my left testicle was removed and my testosterone plunged. I'm not sure from where, but it settled at around 224mg's? Average being 300-1000 I'm told. I started using "Tribulus Terrestis?" 750mg per day and it gave me a great boost for years. My remaining testicle never did make up for what I lost, though I was told that it would. I think it sustained enough damage from years of self abuse that it couldn't compensate. But my sexuality almost got back to where it was with Tribulus and I was satis-fied. My castration fantasy also resumed and in April 03 I went too far and damaged my remaining testicle further. My testosterone plunged, my penis shrank and became useless, no erections. I thought I had really castrated myself, which is what I wanted, or at least I thought it was what I wanted. I went to my endocrinologist from Wellspan in York, Pa. Got a blood test and my testosterone is around 200mg, go figure. She put me on Testosterone gel and didn't ask me many questions. The gel made my lone testicle hard and even smaller, I look castrated, and feel castrated, but there's still a small testicle producing some testos-terone. I stopped using the gel and wondered if the Tribulus would again do it's magic, it hasn't and doesn't appear to help. If I continue using the Testosterone gel, my testicle might atrophy and die, if I don't, I'll lose all sexual feelings. My female endo doc said there's no alter-native and she doesn't suggest any herbal remedies to boost testosterone.
My question is this: Is there anything that can restore the function of an atrophied organ, especially a testicle. I know that they've done some amazing things to help increase the function of livers and kidneys, but my endo doc seems ignorant of anything that will restore the function of a testicle. Maybe I should become the castrated man I've always wanted to be? But now that I've almost arrived, I'm not quite ready for it, is this normal. Regrets? Joys? Hash.
Well I'm in a similar boat. When the doctor tells you that your on HRT for life its "probably" that this is what you have to look forward to. More later on that. "If" you want to try to jump start your testicle talk to her about trying a run of Clomid and or HCG. This increases the signals to the testicles to tell them to go into overdrive. "IF" there is any chance of it working again that would be it. If it does work Bank Sperm on the chance you may wish to father a child some day. These drugs may or may not work but they are (probably) dangerous if used for more then 6 months shots.
Ok, if your on HRT life can be pretty good. You do need to get your dose int he right range. Report back (and list) all your symptoms. I've had Hypogonadism for a long time and on HRT I feel GREAT! But it took lots of juggling to get my dose right. Yours maybe just as difficult.
After ANY dose change redo your labs after two weeks. Report ALL changes you feel. Mental fog, depression, Hot flashes, mood, sex drive, energy, anxiety etc.
Re: Almost castrated
Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2007 1:23 pm
by Paolo
Note the initial post was in 2003.
