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mental lust my biggest obstacle

Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2012 12:08 pm
by knightbird111 (imported)
When testosterone is removed from the heterosexual male, will the mind stop generating sexual thoughts on women? I get thoughts about having intercourse, porn movies play in my mind, I undress every female I see in public. Every moment in my life is twisted into some kind of porn scene within my sad mind.

For instance when I was a kid I did not really have sexual thoughts about women showing up in my mind constantly. As I got older my mind just started to generate these thoughts on sex all day long. I have no control over these perverted thoughts and they interfere with me thinking clearly

In fact I never had one girlfriend. My problem is I would sit and watch porn all day and masturbate all day. Slowly this developed into a problem because everywhere I go I am like a dog in heat, its pathetic. I cannot even keep up a normal conversation without natural manly urges getting in the way. Plus my anger shot up because here I am not getting a single woman yet I am addicted to fantasy sex land.

Another problem I have is after I indulge in masturbation and porn I get really aggressive. I have fear when I run into other men. Like I get into some kind of paranoid fighter ego protection mode. Again this is all in my mind, like I will pass a random guy in the street and make the assumption that this guy wants to start a fight with me. This is all being generated in my mind automatically. I have no control over these aimless thoughts. But I can see how they can be dangerous if I ever act on them.

I seek castration because my sex drive is out of control. I do not have sex with a single woman and women seem to avoid me even though I am attractive yet my height is 5'7".

I even had a couple of close calls because my anger made me want to start fist fights with people. Maybe its my testicles causing these problems, idk.

I do not care if I turn into a lady man I just do not want to be a danger to society with my male urges which do not seem to ever get satisfied. I find myself always rushing around and cursing but getting not a single thing done. I look at my father and grandfather on my moms side and they both act the same, totally out of control, always pissed, cursing and very paranoid and rushy. My dad when speaking always relates everything to sex, hot babes etc......yet the guy is no don juan. Then I see other guys and they act pretty regular. They can walk with a woman calmly and have a normal relationship. I do not want to be one of these dudes where their package controls their whole life and they constantly obsesses on women yet make no progress in real life. Now I have made much attempts to make progress only bringing me to frustration because even if I were to meet a girl once I left I would be back on porn and back to the same old stupid business.

Surprisingly after a couple of vodka injections I can sit with a woman and talk regular and view her as a human being. I mean I did like the pleasure of sexual fantasy but it is just making me into a violence machine. I do not want to be plagued by these urges.

Many of you might be like oh everything I am experiencing is typical and normal for a guy but I do not want to have these thoughts anymore.

If I was a 6ft tall gym rat guy and women were throwing themselves at me, then I guess my mind would complement the situation. But when you are not that type of guy and women tease you with the whole "you cant ever have my beautiful body or your a nice guy that I wont date" then my craving turns into a violent cycle of getting nowhere with women and indulging in fantasy porn with masturbation. I have done both for so many years that I just do want that crap in my life anymore even if it means castration.

I also went to the extent on changing my views on women but this only led me to headaches and just reverting back to my old though process of lust and perversion.

My mind just generates random porn thoughts on its own at all times. I could be reading a page with about 10 paragraphs. After each paragraph I will get the urge to masturbate, so 10 paragraphs is 10 jerkoffs. I can be sitting next to a random woman, even an older attractive woman and my mind just goes off and thinks about sex with her. Even when sleeping, same problem. My mind just keeps generating sex thoughts even if you do not feed it porn or cut away from all media. My mind has had a few homosexual thoughts but the heterosexual thoughts outweigh them and the homosexual thoughts generally involve a guy and another woman.

If I try to force my mind not to do this I get major head pains, migraines. My mind is just craving pleasure all the time.

Guys, what is your take on all of this?

Re: mental lust my biggest obstacle

Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2012 3:43 pm
by nullorchis (imported)
There are no 100% guaranteed exact answers, but generally, low, or no testosterone will reduce or eliminate your interest in all things sexual.

Porn, masturbation, intercourse, erections, ejaculation, and even anger issues.

How much is relative to the individual, but fair to say significantly reduced in all areas, if not almost completely reduced.

On the one hand, it gives you the opportunity to interact with people without the interference of sexual desires.

If you find you don't like being sexless, you can always take testosterone replacement therapy, although it will not provide the kind of feelings and activities that are exactly like those you had with natural testosterone.

But its not the kind of thing you tinker around with. You either have an undeniable craving need to get rid of testosterone, or leave well enough alone and seek other remedies for any sexual or hormonal problems.