What makes me want to do it?

[jako9999 (imported)]

What makes me want to do it? If I say I dont rely know that sound stupid but for years I have looked at photos of men with their penis but then smooth below no balls no sack it just looks so good. I am married with children. I have been circumcised that was 12 years ago out of choice and I have to say that was great I love it. Then 7 years ago I had a vasectomy that wasn't so great almost from day one my sex drive went way down I still enjoy sex and masturbation its for that reason that I think I may try chemical first if I can work out what tablets to buy and where from. The thing is I dot think I would mind I know you can have an injection to get erect or a pump fitted the thought of either turn me on. I have been getting hot flushes for the past year but my GP says everything is fine. What I have now started to say to the doctor is that I having more pains then normal in my testicles that way I have sewed the sead. As for my wife the flushes are very vissable but I have also told her I have the made up pains and that I think there may be a problem I joke with her about my nut dieing but I have told her that this does just happen in some men just to get her thinking a little about it in advance in case I do it.

Loosing my sack and being smooth is the real big one for me but you cant have one without the other as no one will do that for no reason so its all or nothing.

Thanks for reading

[curious19 (imported)]

I'm new here. Don't know why do i think about being castrated. It started very soon and I ever felt myself a bit odd about that.