I can count the hours now until I am going to miss him.

He is still sleeping with his baby-blanket, it is worn-out as can be.Some weeks ago, it became two parts, almost the same size.

I know, I should have told him that he is far to old to sleep with that awful thing, but somehow I couldn't. It looks so cute.

I offered him a deal. I wanted one of those parts in exchange for a handphone.

I wanted him to have one, so I can wake him up in the morning sometimes as he needs to get up. Whaa, I didn't expect that it was that hard for him to offers one of those parts. As I promised him, he could find himself a real good one, with MP3 and so on, he finaly agreed.

Having him an expensive phone, I couldn't be hard on his brother, leaving him empty-handed....

Shit happens every-where, and if mom didn't have a good phone, the two of them wouldn't be safe as soon as I would leave.....

And that left me with Ph****, the last one of the family, with an old nearly broken GSM

All together this 50% baby blanket cost me about 500usd

The first nice and private moment back at NL, I will take it, and realizing that it will take at least seven months before I can hold him in my arms again, I am going to cry. If he isn't to old to sleep with it, why should I be to old to use it for a nice cry

I know for several years now, that these (controlled) tears are the best cure against a depression.

I think that 500usd is a fair price for a treatment against depressions, and as I know them, and how hard they are to fight, this is really cheap

loveUall

Jean