I don't mind blabbing

Yes, it was primarily a return of the libido, along with erectile function and ejaculatory function.

I was beginning to feel a compulsion from the libido again, and I didn't like it.

I also was dealing with a constant erection, one that was present for the majority of the day. I felt no pleasure in it, only pressure and pain. That may have changed with more time, but the idea of it active all the time didn't thrill me regardless.

Also, I was surprised to discover ejaculatory function to suddenly return in full force. I didn't really like the liquidy mess it greeted me with.

The majority of men enjoy libido and erections, so one might ask why I am not able to at least tolerate it?

Yes, I can understand every ounce of your hurt and feeling. I love being a Eunuch myself even though it's only a chemical Eunuch right now. But hard on's are painful, I agree entirely.

plix (imported) wrote: Fri Sep 08, 2006 9:05 pm There's been a change of plans.

I know, no surprise.

Basically, in between my last post and this one, the T really started to work, and I became extremely uncomfortable with the effects. I did not realize how happy I was as a eunuch until I experienced those effects. They felt wrong and I wanted them gone asap. Unfortunately they still linger, but I know I am back on track to where I was until just recently.

I won't look my age for a long time, and I have the risk of severe health problems, but those are prices I am willing to pay for the comfort of eunuchdom.

And of course I could always change my mind yet again and go back on it. If so, I will have a doctor who understands and is willing to help. But for now, I was wrong about wanting to go back on T and I learned a valuable lesson.

Let's see how long until I yet again swing in another direction

Dear Plix:

I don't know if this helps or not but when I started on HRT I felt weird. Alien. Not myself. But in a very short time I felt the "new" me was normal and ok. There were some nice improvments in my life. My almost constant anxiety attacks were gone. My mental focus was clear. My energy was strong again and I was able to get up and do things. To finish things. Plus I got a "normal" sex drive. The sexual urges etc were there again and for me this was good for my relationship and life in general. I know how odd this must feel but please give it a chance. Life IS good on this side of the fence.

Best Regards!

Plix.

It is very interesting to see how different people react to the same thing. I am not sure how old you are and what other medications you take but

thanks to this forum we can be made aware of this.

Keep working on it and hopefully you'll find a solution.Too bad we cannot exchange some of the side effects. H.

I find this thread very enlightening and mostly because it evidences our varied responses to the same phenomenon - erections, orgasms, ejaculations and cum. For me it's just part of being male, and I've usually sought all of these. Even more than most men, I celebrate the latter and can't get enough of it.

I was initially quite shaken when a urologist suggested I consider castration. He explained that that the testicular pain I often felt would only grow worse with age. He could do nothing except treat the symptoms. I was 24 y.o. at the time. However, he also explained that my virility could be maintained - with external testosterone. It was basically on this promise that I grew used to the idea and eventually approached the solution positively. I knew there was a limited window for procreation and used it. My reproductive organs were used for their function and then severed. I've had no regrets since. I understand I'm in a minority on this board.

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JeffEunuch (imported) wrote: Sun Sep 10, 2006 5:30 am I understand I'm in a minority on this board.

Just curious why you say that you are in a minority on this board? I am not aware of what the majority has as a profile....

Just curious.

(P.S., edited this morning to correct a grammatical error.)

JeffEunuch (imported) wrote: Sun Sep 10, 2006 5:30 am I find this thread very enlightening and mostly because it evidences our varied responses to the same phenomenon - erections, orgasms, ejaculations and cum. For me it's just part of being male, and I've usually sought all of these. Even more than most men, I celebrate the latter and can't get enough of it.

I was initially quite shaken when a urologist suggested I consider castration. He explained that that the testicular pain I often felt would only grow worse with age. He could do nothing except treat the symptoms. I was 24 y.o. at the time. However, he also explained that my virility could be maintained - with external testosterone. It was basically on this promise that I grew used to the idea and eventually approached the solution positively. I knew there was a limited window for procreation and used it. My reproductive organs were used for their function and then severed. I've had no regrets since. I understand I'm in a minority on this board.

Hey your not alone! I'm here in a similiar way. I'm going into this a bit backward. My testes are fried from a virus. *We think. I had to go on HRT when my Doctor diagnosed this. Thank God btw. I was close to being pumped full of Mental Health meds. Now, I've got a pair that are shrinking down to nothing and aching almost all the time. I wanted to talk to some guys who have had "it" (Removals/castration/implants) done to see if there are other side effects. BTW so far everyone seems to think its quick, relativly painless and life afterwards with HRT is good. Jeff - did you opt for "replacements?" And if so could you talk about that?

plix (imported) wrote: Fri Sep 08, 2006 9:05 pm There's been a change of plans.

I know, no surprise.

Basically, in between my last post and this one, the T really started to work, and I became extremely uncomfortable with the effects. I did not realize how happy I was as a eunuch until I experienced those effects. They felt wrong and I wanted them gone asap. Unfortunately they still linger, but I know I am back on track to where I was until just recently.

I won't look my age for a long time, and I have the risk of , but those are prices I am willing to pay for the comfort of eunuchdom.

And of course I could always change my mind yet again and

severe health problems

plix (imported) wrote: Fri Sep 08, 2006 9:05 pm go back on it. If so, I will have a doctor who understands and is willing to help. But for now, I was wrong about wanting to go back on T and I learned a valuable lesson.

Let's see how long until I yet again swing in another direction

Plix, there are definitely no "severe health problems" associated with castration. There are some associated with HRT, though..

Basically, the main issue with castration is psychological. If you can handle it (and it seems it's not an issue for you), then frankly, I can not see any reason doing HRT. The simple fact is that, as a eunuch, it only tends to get better with time, as your body adjusts to the new hormonal milieu.

Throughout history, eunuchs were known for their longevity and good health. Some of the eunuch generals and officials were fully capable of delivering their duties at very old ages; and the theoretical risk of osteoporosis does not appear to have been mentioned in historical sources, apparently, it was insignificant.

Although only a case report, a "modern" and a particularly stunning example is that of Junius Wilson, an African American castrated at the age of 28 on grounds of rape, and still reported living in 1994 (and physically active) at the age of 96 (considering that the average life expectancy for black males is significantly lower in the U.S.):

http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.h ... A962958260