spinwindy (imported) wrote: Fri Dec 27, 2013 2:29 pm Definitely get yourself back to the doctors mate and tell them "I want a referal as soon as possible" Don't be fobbed off.

I second this advice and be sure and point out that having suicidal thoughts is clearly an adverse reaction that calls for some real intervention and to ignore it would constitute medical malpractice, a point many lawyers would be quite happy to explain to a judge in formal legal proceedings.

I will make sure book a doctors appointment ASAP after new years and hope the doctor will help me. If he wont then I can just give it time. Today I spent hours researching suicide methods on google page after page and I am questioning my own thoughts and trying be more logical and rational about it. I also get over filled with lots of thoughts and this becomes headache after awhile. What troubles me is that I actually am starting to want to end my life. I am simply going stop researching this topic further and do something else.. Maybe it will get better in time and hopefully the doctor will support me I will keep trying. Losing all interest in everything. Unable enjoy hobbies like I used to and sit around over-thinking (if that makes sense)