foxytaur (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 12, 2013 10:51 pm I know you guys are all trying to help as best you can and really i appreciate it but today I ended up fighting with my mom. She threatens me whenever I say stuff like :

"I can't wait to leave the house and start living my life"

Her reponse : "If I think it's what it is, youv've been warned I don't accept faggots in the house.

Come on, tell me , tell me and I'll kick your sorry unemployed ass out in the cold streets. A prodigal son case is not welcomed in my home.You stay, obey me , follow my orders if you know whats best for you."(spanish of course)

NB = deep down I want her to drop dead sometimes.

Oh it's hopeless I am cinderella

It is all about growing up and accepting responsibility. Someday you may come to realize that your mother only wanted the best for you as she sees it. However, some never reach that point of realization. Hang in there and don't create an atmosphere of anger and disrespect.

YOU DON'T REALLY WANT HER TO DROP DEAD!

First Happy Birthday furry friend,

Next, having raised a couple kids with ADHD and severally dyslexic, I understand what your going through, the world only wants those who are normal in every way but your better then that and in time that will shine through.

As for your Mom, I can only say this a parent loves their child unconditionally, anything less is abuse. Remember at some point you will move on and if your Mom is part of your life or not is up to her. My youngest son has not talked to his mom in several years and its her fault.

Have a great day.

River

From my son, 'those who mind don't mater, those who mater don't mind.'

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!! --FLO--

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sisyphus#section_1

I'm just tired of going through life like the greek mythos "Sisyphus". Condemned to carry a boulder up a large steep hill in Tartaros only to watch it roll back down hill and repeat again.

I am not dumb, I am very smart. I recently got a 98% on AC circuits(2nd time repeating it btw)

but semiconductors is now the 2nd attempt and falling way behind. I may need to attempt carrying the stone a third time up that long hill.

By then who know im probably too late a candidate to pass for hrt.

Given my circumstances I can't see myself transitioning at 26 but 28.

Riverwind (imported) wrote: Wed Mar 13, 2013 9:51 am First Happy Birthday furry friend,

Next, having raised a couple kids with ADHD and severally dyslexic, I understand what your going through, the world only wants those who are normal in every way but your better then that and in time that will shine through.

As for your Mom, I can only say this a parent loves their child unconditionally, anything less is abuse. Remember at some point you will move on and if your Mom is part of your life or not is up to her. My youngest son has not talked to his mom in several years and its her fault.

Have a great day.

River

From my son, 'those who mind don't mater, those who mater don't mind.'

But yeah If I end up seeing any outwardly super masculine traits in next few yrs I might as well consider not transitioning. Life is life. Its there for others to shit on you I suppose.

I'll never forgive my mother. May she face her judgement if a god exists.

I'll say this River my life has not been a happy one. Mom has effectively stripped my youthful 20's from me.

This is the period where a mtf can transition to become gorgeous.

ATM I painstakingly go through several natural(non sythetic treatments behind my moms back), do everything that's healthy and yet sigh.... there it is signs of wrinkles when I frown.

I'm sorry but this whole bullshit that it get's better is a mere contempt to try to make others feel happy but the stark reality of it is it does not get better.

Not when you have a ogre living behind your back, not when they control your life lines.

I'm so angry it boils my inner core. And im desperatly trying to change this

She even said she'll love me but throw me out to the dogs if it ain't her way!

Fuck that bitch!

die, just die already you ungrateful scum

I want her dead river of natural causes. The sooner the better

I'm sorry River but if a god were to exist I would still never have the strength to forgive that cunt. I don't have it within me to do it. She's unworthy of it.

This is partially the reason im agnostic. Where's the fucking justice when it's most needed?

My hopes are clinging into there being a divine quantum force out there, one's that has a collective proto consciencness, but yeah if it doesn't then fuck myself.

Oh life, how easily our timelines may actually be predetermined for us.

So far Ive foreshadowed everything I knew was gonna happen since 19.

Why is that so?:meanfa ce:realpisse:realpisse

sorry about temper tandrums. I get very emotional like a fire breathing dragon.

Funny thing also my zodiac symbol is the dragon. (mom falls under exact same symbol)

Both sis and pops are rabbits

No problem, my son has not talked to his mother in several years, she has asked me to tell him so and so and I do but he will not talk to her even to give her the wrong time of day. So your not alone and there are those who do

Riverwind (imported) wrote: Wed Mar 13, 2013 9:51 am understand what your going through,

just have a bit of patience and soon you will be out on your own then you can and will deal with her on your terms, something that she will likely not understand but that's OK its not about her, never was.

Note: Last time my son talked to his mother the chat went like this, it was when his wife was 6 months along with their first kid.

MOM: when were you going to tell me that Anna was PG?

Son: I was not going to tell you.

Mom: Don't you think I might like to know?

Son: What you would like does not concern me.

Mom: I am your mother!

Son: you stopped being my mother at about age 5 and I have not had a mother sense.

After the baby was born, I called my ex's mother, to tell her she had a new great grandchild, my ex was there.

ME: Mom you are a grandmother again,

Mom: Oh how wonderful, do you want to talk to your ex.

Me: no,

Mom: well here she is anyway,

Ex: so the son has had a baby, whats his name etc.

Me: I am not authorized to tell you, you will need to ask the Son.

ANGER

Ex: Well will you tell him to call me?

Me: I will tell him but don't expect a call.

Ex: Why is he mad at me?

Me: You will need to ask him.

Ex: He wont talk to me.

Me: don't know what to tell you.

That was three years ago. So hang in there, your time will come and when it does the best way to get even is to say nothing to her ever again. It will drive her nuts.

River

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foxytaur (imported) wrote: Wed Mar 13, 2013 12:03 pm I want her dead river of natural causes. The sooner the better

I'm sorry River but if a god were to exist I would still never have the strength to forgive that cunt. I don't have it within me to do it. She's unworthy of it.

This is partially the reason im agnostic. Where's the fucking justice when it's most needed?

My hopes are clinging into there being a divine quantum force out there, one's that has a collective proto consciencness, but yeah if it doesn't then fuck myself.

Oh life, how easily our timelines may actually be predetermined for us.

So far Ive foreshadowed everything I knew was gonna happen since 19.

Why is that so?:meanfa ce:realpisse:realpisse

Your hate is more harmful to you than it is to her. If you continue to allow it to fester it will definately destroy you.

Happy Birthday

Belated happy birthday, Foxy.