For The Love Of Yoli

[moi621 (imported)]

It is beyond my ability to put in words the comfort of knowing

Yoli - only via messaging, gave me in some very rough times over these last years.

Wife became mentally ill + alcohol and it was affecting my health. Wife is living with her parents & my support. I had acquired an alcohol problem, not alcoholism, because after some months of sobriety I manage a beer occasionally without the need for more and more. Yoli was also there for me at the loss of an adopted brother (42 years) via criminal negligence on the part of Kaiser Hospital.

Her messages were not one's of insipid hope but a great diversion for Moi into a sharing with a sympathetic, kind individual who also happens to be extremely talented with natural gifts, intelligent and well educated in the most classic of what would be considered a broad education in the '50's and thus provided me an intellectual diversion.

I know we will never meet, per her <sniff> but, I value her above many I know socially now. And that ain't many.

So if anyone, does anything to criticize our dear Yoli, aka Landa of Espania, and the playful creativity she offers, ie pee-pee

Gotta stop here or I will get myself banned.

And know she does not accept new e-buddies, so find your's somewhere else.

Lucky Moi

Other members are invited to express their appreciation of a unique and kind member who spices up our Board.

This appreciation was expressed on a hidden thread. If one must be deleted, please delete the other.

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Dear Moi,

For the love of Yoli, I pray Kristoff on my knees not to ban you, nor delete your message.

I do understand what she means to you, and yes you are the lucky one.

But could you please wake up, how old are you. This is not an internet game.

A shoulder to cry on, should be a two way ticket you hear. You are the lucky one, then please prove that you are worth it, that you deserve it.

I have showed that I care about Yoli, that was not a part of YOUR game.

But I expect you, to take very very good care about our Yoli you hear. I am not in a position that I can be a e-buddy. You are.

This is not a competition. In the world of your game, I belong (I am owned) by loverboy. I am pretty sure that one day in the future we will really meet as this world is just a small clod of earth. Last sunday, I had a real rendezvous with a real member, and we visited "my grave" It was a great feeling, to go there for the first time in my life with some-one who knows and understand about the story

Do you understand? My world is real, my concerns for your Yoli were real.

I have told you before that the words "loveUall" are real and that you will not find a way to destroy them

But I want you to be a real friend to Yoli if she needs you. If not, you may have found your way to destroy my love for you, and I may want to kick your ass.

So wake up please, stop this childish game and use your brains

Oh and don't forget:

I still do love you

loveUall

Jean

sorry Kristoff if this is out of the line. And I may have broken a promise to you. But this is not playing time. Have a look inside your heart please..

[FianceeUvBigGuy (imported)]

Yoli here,

I don't know what to make of all this but I too hope that no bannings result therefrom. I don't feel that I've been attacked, either in open forum OR via PM, and I implore the powers-that-be to treat this as just another day at the EA.

Frankly, if some acrimonious tit-for-tat has taken place between any two EA members, with me being the catalyst, I find that regrettable. After all, being the cause of unhappiness or controversy is not a burden I wish to bear.

I don't know why Moi felt the need to elevate me to Demigoddess status here for all to see but I don't doubt his intentions and I can say that if I've been a source of comfort to him during some troubling times I am grateful for both the opportunity and whatever success I've achieved in that endeavor.

If Jean has some issues with me, regardless of cause, then I regret whatever I may have done to create or aggravate them. Let it be known to all that, thus far, I have NO issues with Jean and hope never to have so much as one.

To Kristoff and others within the power circle I say; I see no cause for banning of either party previously posting in this thread and I hope it is all a tempest in a small teapot and will pass without creating a Tsunami.

As for being a goddess; demi, semi, hemi, or otherwise, well, thanks but no thanks (Unless I get a tax break or substantial discount on all retail purchases as part of the goddess-perk package.)

I'm just me and most folks I know seem to accept me as I am...no frills...no evil intent...just a woman who has a gift for gab, albeit excessive at times, and a certain kink (or several) that some in the "outside world" would find disturbing to say the least.

Moi, since you chose to shock the pewp out of me with your tribute in open forum it falls to me to respond with both a sincere thanks and wonderment at why you did so. Surely you must, upon reflection, realize that you may have started a firestorm or sniping session that might cause me to withdraw from the EA for fear that my continued tenure here might result in some sort of disturbance that will result in harm to the EA or anyone participatory herein.

Jean, IF I'm the center of some squabble between you and Moi I can only say I'm so very sorry. I had no clue that such a problem was brewing or existed. Of course, if I've misread or misunderstood and there IS no problem, please pass me a napkin so I can wipe the egg off my face. In this case, I'd much rather be wrong in my assessment of all this.

Mods, I've tried to be open, truthful, entertaining, and kind during my stay here at the EA. If I've somehow caused dissent, well, I can only apologize and try to be more careful. I know one person cannot be all things to all others, or even presume that she will please all others...but I've certainly tried, within the bounds of honesty and fidelity to self and my beliefs.

For some reason I want another pastry but NOT with more "kawfee"...Unless it's Irish Coffee...heavy on the Irish!

Peace and Love to All.

Yolanda

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Yoli, thanks for posting.

NO, I see no problem between the two of us

My concern for you, reading about what happened to you (by that creep) was real, and you sure know that I have a reason to make a deep bow, even if it wasn't me who did it.

In fact, my concerns for you are still real. Can you understand? A thirteen year old girl, nearly raped (your integrity raped 100%) and then landing with her nose in such books. I do have my questions Yoli, questions of real concern

It is not up to me to formulate the answers for you. That was why I asked you to be very very careful with yourself (this idiot understands to well how long one can go on with a lie)

You are grown up, you are smart and well respected at this board. You deserve my respect, and I am not scared to show it to you.

But I still do have my concerns toward you, and they are a part of real love for people.

I didn't like the disrespect of some-one who wanted to play a "you are not going to get her" game. I really told him before that I love him. But I couldn't resist to tell him that real life is not an internet game, and you are not a toy, at least not to me.

Yoli, please don't worry, I really do love him, and with a posting like his, he cannot harm me, I hope he didn't harm himself to much. And I hope that one day he is going to understand what he finds at the end of my postings:

loveUall

Jean

[kristoff]

All I can say is knock off all the over-dramatization, y'all. As for personal matters, keep them in PM. I have not been entertaining the banning button, but I hate poor drama....

[FianceeUvBigGuy (imported)]

All I can say is knock off all the over-dramatization, y'all. As for personal matters, keep them in PM. I have not been entertaining the banning button, but I hate poor drama....

Right you are, Kristoff.

I only answered in open forum in order to make clear MY position and try to assure peace rather than leave others to speculate.

And now, "y'all" (Texanese!) I'm going to take a sabbatical from here for a while. I need a break and I suspect there may be some that need a break from me whether they realize it or not.

I'm not making a dramatic exit...Just cooling the jets while I attend to other matters in my life. Other members have done the same and I now better appreciate their actions.

Happily, though it's hellishly hot and rain is a distant memory, I can now take my longed-for retreat at the West Texas place, bordering Big Bend National Park, and enjoy quietude, stars and moon, the howl of coyotes and the clip-clop of a horse's hooves. We're even towing the Beast (Bassboat) so we can slip down to Lake Amistad a couple of times over the next few weeks to annoy the bass.

Of course, I'll have to keep contact with the office, sniffle.

Love to all, and I hope to return soonish. Don't blow the place up while I'm out wandering the outback.

Yolanda

PS: I won't be without adult company. I'm not THAT stupid.

[moi621 (imported)]

I have not read a PM or post by Jean for several months.

Thus, Jean is now incapable of irritating me in any fashion.

So, reading "Landa's" post I take it, Jean felt the need to

express himself. I can't imagine why.

And I avoided reading more of those sections .

A very effective way not to be irritated by irritating members.

Jean may go his way in Peace, I hope for the same from Jean - lately unfulfilled.

Yoli, Sweetie.

Please do not leave us, or Moi.

I just get so tired of doubters as drive some away.

It is recommended we just enjoy what is offered, on the terms they are offered and if proof is needed, Please move on.

On other Blogs in my experience, enjoyable participants have left because of repetitious doubts. And here - no member has had their authenticity doubted more often then our / Moi's "Landa of Espania".

So, Moi asks all to enjoy and love what members offer and just avoid those that "irritate".

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Kristoff,

I have asked for your patient this time, and I like to say thanks

After this, if I need your help, I still dare to ask, if I need your patient, I will say please, and if I make mistakes.....I can only hope for your patient.

So please allow me another bow to you and the members:

As I became member of this board, I had changed a lot. (and still changing)

I have showed who I was, and I ask again, please don't forget and don't forgive. This means that if now I want to talk about me, and how I changed, I have something to prove. I am not in a favorite starting position. So what? Was this clever? I don't care that much anymore about being clever. Maybe it is more wise to follow once feelings then to play it smart. And this situation, that you know about me, and that I have to prove who I really am, fits far better with my feeling of what is fair, then just walking in and presenting the nice guy. So I can only ask for more patient. Time will learn if I can make and keep friends, if I am worth having friends.

loveUall

Jean