thankful I am here.

[sweatpea (imported)]

thank you for having such a great site and resource. for the last few hours I've been engrossed in the stories and information and experiences on here. I have been mostly engrossed in the posts of tugon. I feel very connected to his experience as it is something I've similarly experienced. I am much to his junior but cannot wait to be sound enough emotionally and physically to make the step made by so many others here.

I am a recovering sex addict and drug addict (6 years no hard drugs, but an occasional beer with friends) and victim to severe emotional and physical abuse for msot of my childhood.

I recently made the conscience decision to step forward and move forward to becoming eunuch. It will be some time before i commit to the actual removal of my testicles and scrotum but at least now I would like to research and talk to others and form a moderate support network of people who have experienced the sexual abuse, emotional and physical abuse that is leading to this decision. I don't want to just remove them and not have any resolution to the emotional devastations I've endured.

Recently, I lost a close loved one due to the trauma I've endured. I swore I would stop sleeping around when I found someone who would treat me as if I was a human rather than my throbbing cock. well, I got close, I've gone 9-10 months with one person but the battle inside has been endless. she turned away when she lost faith that I wouldn't be there as i promised. i never stepped out but the promises were difficult to follow and i broke one but never violated us. with all she knows of my troubled life and sees how my soul cries so loudly, we had to part ways. for the better i guess but we'll see. I've spent nearly all this time kicking myself in the head trying to step back and get past it. but I can't.

so over the next few months, i hope to get to know more of you who share the same feelings I've felt and endured. I hope you are all able to help influence my next journey as I hope to help the best way I can.

-love you like the needle loves flesh.

sweatpea

[tugon (imported)]

Sweatpea welcome to the EA. This is a good place to share, explore and heal. I certainly can relate to that inner driving force of sexual addiction. I can also share the joys of being free from it. Like many here we will be glad to give what advice we can. You are welcome to pm me if you have any direct questions for me. Of course I have few secrets left and am willing to discuss anything in your thread.

I am glad you are not rushing to become a eunuch. In the mean time there are many members who have used chemical castration drugs to road test being a eunuch and they will share their stories. The EA is full of good information some by reading and some by asking questions of members. I am glad you are here.