Once in a while, I can't get a good solid boner unless I think about chopping it off. Sometimes, I actually have to have a knife in hand to really get the blood pumped into my cock. I usually can get it up for all the "normal" reasons, but these episodes make me wonder. Any theories out there? Am I destined to actually cut it off someday, or will my fantasy remain just that?

What it means is that you have a full blown paraphilia (to get technical about it). Be very careful not to go to far - if you do cut it off, you will regret it immediately for a variety of reasons, the least of which is that you might bleed to death on the spot.

Kangan (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 19, 2007 1:14 pm What it means is that you have a full blown paraphilia (to get technical about it). Be very careful not to go to far - if you do cut it off, you will regret it immediately for a variety of reasons, the least of which is that you might bleed to death on the spot.

Is it really "full-blown" if it only occurs once in a while? It doesn't happen often, but when it does, the thrill is intense. I don't really want to lose my cock, but the fear that I could lose control for a split second and chop it off is sometimes just the thing to get my cock throbbing.

stewie69 (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 19, 2007 1:22 pm Is it really "full-blown" if it only occurs once in a while? It doesn't happen often, but when it does, the thrill is intense. I don't really want to lose my cock, but the fear that I could lose control for a split second and chop it off is sometimes just the thing to get my cock throbbing.

When you cannot get hard EXCEPT by thinking about chopping it off - go get professional help. For now - enjoy!

Thanks for your input, Kangan. Anybody else have an opinion in this or, better yet, have similar penectomy fantasy-fueled boners? Please PM me if you'd rather not share it here.

I can't say that I get a boner when I think of chopping mine off.

I would rather not have a boner at all.

genderless (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 19, 2007 4:59 pm I can't say that I get a boner when I think of chopping mine off.

I would rather not have a boner at all.

So, maybe that's the key - The truly serious simply want their genitals gone, while the fantasizers (like me) get off on the idea of the act of losing them. I've always been a bit confused, yet fascinated, by the irony of my cock getting excited at the prospect of being removed. Maybe it just wants one last hurrah before the chop...

Stewie,

That's a detail I put into a story now and then: the owner of the penis knows he's helpless, is being threatened with its violent removal, and then ... perversely, he gets the hardest erection of his life:

"... his penis rose, as if to meet the blade ..."

Yes for me too, this is a hot fantasy.

Last night there was a PBS story on Democracy in Athens. There's a hot-looking and totally intoxicating woman doing the narration, walking around the ruins, etc., lovely British accent.

Just prior to the Athens decision to attack Sicily, there is a city-wide scandal: someone has attacked and mutilated hundreds of statues of Hermes, which were installed at street corners all over the city. These statues always portray Hermes with an erection (imagine how that would go down today!).

She doesn't say the noses and penii of the statues were simply smashed (although that's surely what was done, since they're carved from stone). No, she says "... the erect phalluses of the statues were cut off"! This definitely got me hot, just hearing her say it in that sweet proper British voice. I wonder if she decided on that choice of words, or someone else wrote them ...

- Finder

... for me it's strictly a fantasy. If a female partner goes far enough with her penis abuse to actually cause me serious pain, the eroticism goes down in a hurry - although it's true that my pain threshold goes up substantially when I get into that intense "fever" of very high arousal, and very hard erection while she's working on it.

Similarly, we never did anything to draw blood, although I've had at least one intense masturbation session where that happened. Once I had a brand new kitchen knife that was very sharp - just let the blade drop lightly onto the upper skin of the hard shaft - it left little straight lines of blood, like a paper cut, that did not hurt and healed very quickly (skin there is very thin). And, a long time ago, after intense biting session, a little blood was visible at end of urethra - I never told her about that, she's quite squeamish about such things. For play, we use a plain old table knife, dull as a spoon. So yes, I want to run this fantasy forever, in myriad variations, but not actually do it.

In the perfect fantasy, the super-erect penis is simply cut / chopped / severed by any one of a number of means (points awarded for unique new methods of doing same); the owner is so aroused he barely notices the pain (ideally, he's actually ejaculating at the instant of removal); and almost magically, there's very little blood. His erect penis drops to the floor / into a bowl, somehow staying hard; the arteries in the remaining stump of his penis spurt blood, along with semen still squirting from his severed urethra, and the severed cock ends look like cleanly-cut anatomical photos of a penis cross-section.

Yes, I have a collection of penis cross-sections and many other anatomical images. "Cross-section" is perversely a hot concept for me, because it means that a penis somewhere was cut off, and then sliced into many thin sections which were then sent all over the country to medical schools where curious (aroused) young women can look at them under a microscope. Yes, I admit I used to lurk harmlessly in the libraries of medical schools ... of course, with MRI there is a new opportunity to view penis cross-sections without actually removing it. And there is, in fact, the unique opportunity to view its cross-section in the fully erect state (which has been done in fact). Would have loved to be the guy in the MRI machine knowing the folks outside are looking at cross-sections of my erect penis, real-time. Ultimate medical exhibitionism scenario.

OK enough fantasizing. Let me know if you share any of these kinks, or similar.

Finder

I personally truly detest my penis. That's why I have an attraction to CBT, play cutting, etc. But for me, it is only a bridge to removal. I've spoken to a few psychologists about this who confirmed a deep seated desire to be penectomised and possible a gender disorder leading to this desire. Long term plan is to get rid of it. Why long-term? Simply because I would like it done in a medical facility, which takes time to find and even more to arrange.