My journey is probley much like so many in here and thats what made me want to share it with you.At a young age I found masterbation to be a way to escape in my mind and have fun doing it.But as I got older it consumed my life and each escape had to be better then to last and I found just as in drug addiction sex can be just as bad.My marrage suffered and I found I was getting mad and upset at things more often and I hated myself.Things got so bad I would pray that God would just take my life I hated myself so much and I know my wife wasent to pleased with me eather.I remember when I found the Archive that I had found a place were I could be me as most in here were like me they had a need for castration.I remember seeing Riverwinds thread on chemical castration and I knew and my body was telling me that I needed to do this or frankly I would do harm to myself if I didnt get this testosterone out of my system.I remember getting that Depo Provera shot in the mail and taking that first shot and the wait.After about two weeks taking that other shot and then week three and the feeling of relief and feeling normal for the first time in my life it seamed.As I got the courage to speak to my doctor about this and the relief of him telling me testosterone wasent good for everyone and getting that shot once a month in the doctors office what a great feeling that was.And then after two years having my uralgest telling me he would perform the surgery in the hospital and under the best of care.My wife has always suported me and been by my side and I do thank her for that.the surgery was done at Kaiser hospital and of all days June 17th our wedding anerversy what a day for castration.It has been about four years now and I havent regretted one day as I can concentrate on my life for the first time in my life and sex and abuse dosent distract me.I have been honest here and I hope others will see they dont have to live this life if it is like mine as I wouldent wish that on anyone.Life is a journey but its not the destenation it is the journey itself that is the exciting part for me.I have since found just how submissive I realey am and have been......... well I dont think a Dom would ever get castrated so yes I am a submissive and enjoy this new life as well.If anyone else has a journey they would like to share please let us know because we learn from others and their mistakes so take care and thank God for BBoy and the Archive that has helped so many.

Thank you for sharing. I also shared in those out of control feelings that turned to addiction. I also hated that part of myself that was obsessed with sex and the problems created by it. Like you I am much happier and able to be my true self.

This is why I wanted to share my story as I realey feel their are many just like you and me who needs to here they are not alone.

Congrats on a good outcome, but remember only mankind cares about your sex drive!

Thank you - good to hear - I had a post where I was looking for htis information as I am beginning to think about scheduling to have this done in Pennsylvania if necessary.

May I ask, are you and your wife still able to have sex occasionally?

Thanks,

Scottie

My wife still enjoys sex but I dont so I take care of her when she needs it.

I wonder if it is even wirth staying on Testosterone.

Pregenelone, DHEA, GHRP, Arimidex and another compound that is not in yet should be fine.

I feel relaxed thoughm not hyper feel very calm like, it is a trip like someone would feel stoned all the time from an herb or something.

I do not even need my Xanax or Benzos I am so relaxed, I use them less.

It is easier to sleep.

I still get semi hard errections in the AM, I was about 8" I am down to 6.5" hard now.

When I am soft though I still feel semi hard as normal, however it is not as intense as it was prior to having the subscapular Orchi.

I am taking a very small dose of T just to keep me active when I need it I feel pretty good but my family say I still get wound up and shout I don't get aggressive but I wish I could be a little more horizontal my orchectomy has made me so happy.

Thanks

Members - This is a six year old thread. As valuable as the thread was in 2007, and as an archived thread, I think someone should start another one if you wish to continue this discussion. --FLO--

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