Hello everyone , firstly I want to thank my friend for allowing me to post ( I dont have a computer or internet at home) ,also I dont have "castration fantasies per se , testicles arent the only bodypart of mine that disgust the life from me but I noticed that there must be some other TS ( noticed the relative drugs used in feminization regimes ) that come here so I will ask my question and hopefully someone will be able to enlighten me..and relieve me of this burden that has me floating between wanting to live and ending it all

Basically.. during my denial years , I turned to drugs. At firstly found heroin gave me the courage to open up to my then girlfriend about who I am/how I felt... then , dare I say it a pleasant surprise was that after a while it actually served as a very effective libido suppressant which is quite handy when you feel like a woman and have this bastardly thing between your legs with a mind of its own, trying to brainwash you that you aren't

So that and also the fact that I longed to be a parent and was hoping she would fall pregnant and I could become the loving mother I never had

had me procrastinate ,and try to push transitionning out of my head ( at least till I held that bundle of joy in my loving arms

It wasnt meant to be and I am no longer with my ex-girlfriend, though am happy to let you know we are still very close friends.

Anyway, funny what a morbid sense of humor life has

I fear I may have contracted Hepatitis a , b or c or all of them ( hand me a gun) during my years of drug use/abuse ( I am too scared to receive the bad news if this is the case/the implications that may mean regarding being able to transition)

and being a transsexual who is finally free of all ties which may in the past have been presenting themselves as obstacles to my one true need,

Now would love some advice on what I can possibly do

to maximise feminization/minimize potential liver problems, should I infact be Hep+

I have researched the issue..and according to some sources the quickest way to needing a liver transplant, would be for me to take the oral forms of the drugs... like Premarin ..all the pill form estrogens/progesterones

I also came across an interesting article saying that women have better health than afftected men and that apparently estrogen is a liver protectant

confused? me too ( google Dr Martino +Paris +estrogen beneficial to liver)

Can someone please give me some good news and also perhaps point me in the right direction as to where I may be able to gather relevant info

I am contemplating orchiectomy irrespective , what I mean is I dont really care ,I thought I'd get rid of all "3 warts" at once but it may well be necessary to eliminate 2 asap so the levels of estrogen/progesterone required to induce feminization are lower and potentially less toxic on the liver /kidneys

If you can help point me in the right medical direction...

see here:

http://www.transgendercare.com/medical/ ... gimens.asp

and you can get your hormones and anti-androgens here:

http://www.inhousepharmacy.com/

Please, however, consider going to a gender identity clinic. You are not alone in this, there are thousands of people like you. The use of hormones can hurt you if you dont have proper medical supervision. You can transition even with hepatitis, but this causes you to need to be under medical supervision even more.

If you do have hepatitis, there are new treatments that are on the verge of being called a cure. You should get tested to be sure if you have it and if it's a,b or c. Good luck with your journey and know that there are MANY others that can relate to your situation.

ramses (imported) wrote: Mon Jul 23, 2007 5:57 pm If you do have hepatitis, there are new treatments that are on the verge of being called a cure. You should get tested to be sure if you have it and if it's a,b or c. Good luck with your journey and know that there are MANY others that can relate to your situation.

Well said! May I add that self medicating when you have liver problems IS insane. The last thing you need is to have to deal with liver failure. Even with a transplant (IF you get one in time) your life expectancy is not great. PLEASE Seek an MD. You might want to phone the Triage nurse and ask if the Doctor is "tuned into" gender issues and hormones. Then get an appointment and sit down and have a good long talk. You might ask for the last appointment of the day and say this might take a while. Be ASSURED that what you say stays in there. Your doctor and her (or his) nurse will not be talking to anyone - NOT even other doctors in the building if mine is the norm. Get your hepatitis issue squared away and make sure that you have the opiates problem dealt with so that it won't come back to be an issue. MDs know about these things. Then ask for a referal to a gender issues doctor and a good mental health expert. Its not insane to need this but the doctors need this to weed out people who should not be getting surgery done.

Buying "iffy" drugs from overseas and self medicating is (my opinion) a really bad idea. Get under the care of a professional and get it taken care of safetly and right... Good luck to you!

Check your local health department. There is a good chance they have free resources in regards to Hepatitis testing and treatment. You do not want to go the transplant route if you can avoid it.

No one seems to have checked asdf's profile. She is in Brazil and, while there are many there who are t/g, the health care system is much different from that of the U.S. or the UK. Does anyone have any information that might be useful there?