Since 2003 I have tried chemical castration in different ways, all ordinated by my doctor. First two times I tried Androcur, up to 300 mg a day orally, and each period lasted for about 5-6 months.

Those periods never took out my libido entirely, rather it got diminished and I still got aroused and enjoyed sex somewhat.

Then last year after a major relapse in my sexaddiction I tried triptorelin, but together with testosterone replacement, because my doctor thought I should not be totally without testosterone.

I was on triptorelin for 6 months, and the last month I used no testosterone replacemant at all, and for the first time I had true castration levels of testosterone. It was nice, but I could still have erections and very empty and annoying orgasm. They made me leave the treatment.

I also got mood problems, especially when I started on triptorelin.

This time I am going much further. I have started with Triptorelin injection, so I will reach castration levels in 2-4 weeks.

I have no testosterone replacement this time.

I have at the same time also started with paroxetine wich is a SSRI anti-depressant that causes the most severe side-effects in terms of libido.

It is said to lead to erectile failure aswell as anorgasmia (inabilitity to achieve orgasm).

This might suit me the best I think.

With paroxetine I will not get depressed while I at the same time fight my libido and orgasm even further.

Because I am married I want to maintain a sex-life, that is , I want to satisfy my wife, but without getting any satisfaction for myself when I am on treatment.

Because it is far worse to get an annoying flat orgasm than to not get any at all.

Last year when I was on castration levels it was alright to have sex with my wife, to satisfy her, until the orgasm came.

That was the point when I really felt bad about my castration and everything.

With paroxetine I hope that this will not happen, and maybe I now can learn to continously live without my libido that otherwise always makes my marriage and life bad (I constantly look for other women and prostitutes and masturbates and get irritated and dissatisfiaed and angry and it really sucks in all ways).

And being on low libido is as I said even worse than normal, because it frustrates me so much.

No libido on the other hand, is quite pleasurable. It is calm and nice.

And having sex with my wife with no libido is quite nice.

I enjoy seeing her getting satisfaction, and it is fascinating being part of sex without "understanding" what is all about.

Because on no libido I can't even remember what sex is or what it is for.

I can get erections but I feel nothing.

So it was at least in september last year.

But then I also got these very empty orgasm, and got annoyed.

But this time, with the paroxetine I think I am much better prepared.

Now it is some 2-3 annoying weeks until testosterone levels decrease to castration levels and then I might be REALLY FREE for the first time.

Maybe I will not even get erections (in case I might have to just special cream to get them if my wife needs them).

Whatever I really hope and look forward to loose and forget my libido.

To get to the point where I really feel that I don't understand, don't feel what sex is and what it is for.

To the point where I can see half-nude or even nude women making out without any reaction.

I will be safe and happy. I hope!

sounds interesting! I have tried using androcur in past and didn't like the side effects, as I am into bodybuilding. The usage of an ssri sounds more appealing to me, As I have never been diagnosed with hypersexuality, I feel like I have a compulsive behavior when it comes to sex. I go through periods where I feel addicted to masterbating compulsively. I would like to try for that eunuch calm I achieved with androcur, but w/out the severe loss of testosterone.

Has anyone had past experiences with Paxil? Triptorelin in combination w/androcur? That seems awful strong to me....but I am no doctor- just don't want to see something horrible happen to you.

After this posting I am going to read up on the SSRI's mentioned here, and bring them to the attention of my doc.

Triptorelin is I guess worse for you, because it will leave you with hardly no T.

But it has fewer other side effects than Androcur, for example less incidence of gynecomastia.

SSRI's will not affect your T levels, so it might be interesting for you.

Shit I feel bad!

When you start with Triptorelin it will cause a "flare up" initially, that is T levels will quickly rise before they go down.

For cancer patients this is not acceptable so they use a drug called Flutamide, which I also have eaten for some days now (I took the triptorelin injection yesterday).

This night I felt slighty in bad mood, which was a sign for me that I have eaten to much flutamide (it can makes you real depressed).

So I decided to go down on it a little.

Then today I have felt good, until I in the afternoon took a major masturbation with castration fantasies.

I thought I would be unable to get orgasm, it felt so for awhile, and I thought it was because of paroxetine and was content, but then I got a major orgasm.

It was a real good one, but then afterwards I started to feel real bad.

It feels that my desicion to castrate myself has not been a sober decision, but heavily influenced by my sexual fantasies of getting castrated.

As many times before.

But now I am stuck for 3 months minimum getting almost zero T levels.

But then I don't know if it was a sober desicion (how do you spell that word?!) or not.

If I was doing because of my sex drive, then maybe it was correct after all, because if I can do things like that just because of my sex drive then it might be good for me to take a pause from it to see things clearly.

My marriage almost cracked up this spring. We had more and heavier fights, and it seems they always came after periods when I hade consumed a lot of porno and been fantasising about prostitutes.

So that is a good argument to deal with the situation.

I hope this will be good for me, but just for the second it feels like I have removed much of the taste of life for a long time maybe unnecessarily.

And how will it affect my marriage when I have no sex drive?

Will it work as I have planned that I satisfy my wife unselfishly?

Well well, I just have to go this path now and take the next day as it comes.

I am in a similar situation with regards to a sex addiction. Rather than using chemicals, I have opted for a bloodless clamping technique to reduce my libido. It seems to be working. My wife is easily satisfied by means other than penetration, so providing for her needs is not a problem.

min_johnson (imported) wrote: Thu Jul 05, 2007 6:52 am sounds interesting! I have tried using androcur in past and didn't like the side effects, as I am into bodybuilding. The usage of an ssri sounds more appealing to me, As I have never been diagnosed with hypersexuality, I feel like I have a compulsive behavior when it comes to sex. I go through periods where I feel addicted to masterbating compulsively. I would like to try for that eunuch calm I achieved with androcur, but w/out the severe loss of testosterone.

Has anyone had past experiences with Paxil? Triptorelin in combination w/androcur? That seems awful strong to me....but I am no doctor- just don't want to see something horrible happen to you.

After this posting I am going to read up on the SSRI's mentioned here, and bring them to the attention of my doc.

In my experience with SSRIs over the last 2 years it seems to me that they really aren't very helpful in respect to these kinds of problems. They remove the ability, not the desire, I do believe. Some may make it difficult to orgasm, while other may make it impossible to orgasm or even achieve an erection -- which when you are horny is extraordinarily frustrating.

Well with Triptorelin and Paroxetin (the SSRI) I will neither have the desire or ability.

Today it feels better. This might be the right path for me.

At least I will try for the first time to be really without any desire for a extended period of time.

Last time I did this i supplemented with some testosterone, but this time I will not.

I rather be totally without of desire then just feeling a little.

All or nothing so to speak.

And if I find this is comfortable then maybe I stay this way and continue my life as a Eunuch.

In many ways I have had my share of sex in life anyway, no desperate need to ask for more really.

Especially not since all troubles it creates.

Thank you for reading and understanding, if you do.

Now I am on preburtal T levels and well with the paroxetin.

My mood swings are totally gone and my wife and kids think I have been much nicer lately. I feel calm and at ease with everything and constantly good. I endure hard work much better and I feel very positive.

I have no strong feelings in any directions but I don't mind.

I hardly have any sex drive, but I still can get erections, but no orgasms, whoever hard I try.

Maybe this is the way I shall continue to live.

The result so far is better beyond any expectance I had.

Really interesting and great!

Kangan (imported) wrote: Thu Jul 05, 2007 8:33 am I am in a similar situation with regards to a sex addiction. Rather than using chemicals, I have opted for a bloodless clamping technique to reduce my libido. It seems to be working. My wife is easily satisfied by means other than penetration, so providing for her needs is not a problem.

Can you describe this technique ? "bloodless clamping" What it is, and how it works ?