john is about 3 1/2 years old in his powers of deliberation, but he has the life experience of a 20 year old, that is to say he knows of many things. He is dexterous and can figure out how to use VCR and computer, how to help move a couch, how to do dishes, but he lack to ability to comprehend things we all take for granted.
He cannot read, though he recognizes a few words. He knows almost nothing of numbers and can barely understand the concept of three. John can speak, he has alot to say, though, because of the malformations in his cerebral structures, his speach is very difficult to understand, as if he cannot find the right way to say words so he modifies them so as he can speak them, meaning words come out of his mouth sometimes very different than he sees them in his mind or as I say them. He nearly has a language of his own, it's as if some of the parts of his speach are mixed up and can sound like gibberish to anyone who doesn't know John. It took me almost a year to finally master it and to understand nearly all of what John says, though sometimes he will say a word I've never heard him say before and I will have him repeat it or I will guess.
John usually greets me with a "What's up, dude? How are you? Did you come in your Jeep? Did you park it out front? Where is your house? How's your cat? What's up, dude? I got in trouble on the bus, Jesse." John will then talk to me and ask me questions the whole time I am there. He seems to have little understanding that it is not right to talk over people, as he does all the time, no matter how many times he is corrected. It seems very likely, that he views the world in such a way as he is the center of it, much like a small child. John and I hang out often, I take him with me places and do things with him, as male friends, and he just adores me. I am his hero.
John has an issue with getting angry and telling me to shut up and leave him alone. He will do it even if I are not talking to him or sometimes not even in the same room. I believe he has a skewed perception of time and that he remembers things and, to him, they are happening now, or perhaps he thinks people know everything he knows and thinks and that they know what he is angry over. Like a child does. He will close his eyes, he has a big issue with eye contact, I believe it is like an overload of information for him. He will close his eyes and point at me, and tell me to shut up, and to leave him alone, repeatedly, usually until I touch him, or scold him, which I hate to do, but I must remember that it is in HIS best interest if I can teach him to not do those things. It seems as if he closes himself off, with eyes closed, and talks real loud, violently pointing his finger at me. But, I am his friend, and I love him so I must treat him as he is, some of the time, a child, forever.
I see the looks people in public often give him, and people with him, like he is diseased and catchy, or they fear him, or completely ignore him. I pity those people for they will never know a person like John, he is so wonderfully special.
There is something more to John. A light that is so different than that of the rest of us. It is so hard to put into words. Almost a glow, but not light, a feeling, like he is touching my soul. And he knows things, things that seem to be more than the information he has been given. Such as, John likes to come to my house and watch movies, this one day he came over, and for some reason he because obsessed with my lamp near my couch, it had been there many times he was here, but he just would not leave it alone, kept wanting to turn it on and off, and he got moody when I told him to leave it alone. He didn't, and the lamp fell off the table, it broke a bit so I just decided to unplug it and put it somewhere else. Well, fact of the matter is, the cord was broken and frayed, with copper wire showing, alot. I was surprised it did not catch fire, and I know about electricity, it probably should have, and most likely would have very soon. He knew, I know he knew, somehow, he was given a vision or something and could not communicate it so it came out in a round about way. Chills. Chills.
Anyway, I wish people would just care more, open up more to the beauty which is all around them, instead of being so bend on finding faults and judging others by petty and ignorant views.
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