Hello all,

I've just registered here and I thought I would write a bit about why I want to be castrated.

When I was a child I didn't want to become an adult. The idea of being a large, hairy, smelly man just didn't appeal; I wanted to keep my high voice and smooth, hairless body. I recall putting elastic bands around my testicles on many occasions in the hope that I'd damage them and I'd never go through puberty.

Of course, I did go through puberty. I found it quite difficult. I didn't like how my body developed and I didn't like the new thoughts I found myself having. My body became really rather hairy and my testicles grew very big indeed. I have never got used to my big testicles, they disgust me; I shudder when I touch them. I also don't like having body hair, it just seems completely removed from my self-image.

The worst thing I found, and still find, is the thoughts of sex. I have very intrusive thoughts about sex which I find distressing and unsavoury. I want to get on with my life in a calm, relaxed manner, untroubled by urges to masturbate or have sex. I feel dreadful before, during and after sex, it feels so alien to my psyche and yet I cannot get rid of the urges. I want my mind to be clean of these nasty thoughts and have the calm I felt as a little boy.

From my teenage years I have often thought about castration and how I would like to be a eunuch, it has always seemed like a good solution to my unwanted sexual urges. I'm now 33 and live a good life beyond being plagued by testosterone, so it seems like a good time to have that one problem fixed.

I am going to try chemical castration for a while, and if that is successful I'll seek to have my testicles cut off. Of course, I realise I can never really be a little boy again, but it would be nice to have some of that calm back.

Pinot.

I like your message and i hope you get the calm back in your life

Thanks, truly.

I've got anti-androgens in the post so I'll soon know if this is right for me.

Pinot.

Pinot,

I second Truly Committed's sentiments. Hope you achieve your desires, because your heart is certainly in the right place.

If I had known/realized as a teenager the role testosterone had on me in terms of sexual thoughts, and the problems it was going to cause me throughout life, I think I would have sought castration back then.

Terri

I know how you feel about testosterone i hated it and feel soooooooo much better now that it is gone.As for growing up i am told i never did and i think everyone who has told me that is right

Thanks Terri and sag111 for your supportive words.

Much as I look forward to positive results, I am sure you all understand that starting off on a road like this is a tad unsettling. I suppose my only real worry is depression, but I like to think I am a relatively resilient fellow so I hope this isn't a problem.

My body grew up against my will, but soon I'll have help to stop the effects of that!

Cheers,

Pinot.

Ack.. I know what you mean. I really wish I was successful with my castration attempts/desires back at age 12 so I could have skipped puberty altogether.

Just so you realize that castration will NOT undo adulthood or puberty. It's no cure for "Peter Pan Syndrome," as I call it.

We can all say that looking back, we'd have preferred to

twaddler (imported) wrote: Fri Apr 27, 2007 11:52 am have skipped puberty altogether,

but what's done cannot be undone.

Not to turn this into an "educated boy" thread on whether or not a young boy could rationally choose castration. We've hammered that one to death already several times.

Hi Paolo,

Oh I am very much aware of that. But clearly a point worth making.

Educated boys? What we need are time machines so we can go back and explain it all when it mattered!

If anyone has a time machine, by the way, can you take me to just after tonight's Euromillions lottery draw? Just need to make a note of something then back....

Cheers,

Pinot.

I love yer sense o' humor! seriously tho, life is a real bitch -experience can leave you with wisdom but not youth and in most peoples cases youth comes without wisdom! ain't that a kick in the head !?!

I understand the sentiments about doing things differently and the 'if only' view of life but I lived in that frame of mind for way too long and certainly wouldn't recommend it... so now i'm concentrating on looking forward, not back, cos I don't doubt there's gonna be plenty o' time for that when i'm old, wrinkled and lying in a hospital bed with not much else to do!