Mind made up!

[cutmefast2 (imported)]

hello everyone:

after many, many, years of fantasizing i have finally decided to try to locate someone that can, and will help me turn my fantasy into a reality. Now before everyone starts telling me how dangerous or stupid my fantasy is believe me i do honestly realize just how dangerous this will be. assuming i can find someone willing to help me to carry this out. My desire has now grown stronger than my fear of the danger involved.

I am now actively searching for a woman that is willing to help me. i want a woman to go with me into the woods near my home, or elsewhere if she knows of A better place. i want her to either tie me to a tree, or tie me laying down upon the ground. i don't care how she ties me, i only want to be tied so that once she moves to start the dirty deed my hands cannot stop her. i want her to cut my dick off, but not to do anything to my nuts. As soon as my dick is severed she can either walk away leaving me there, or she can first cut my bindings so that i am as free as my now severed cock. i know there will be lots of blood, and most likely i will go into some form of shock. but i have read many times that if only the cock is cut eventually the blood will clot and stop the bleeding. i will leave it too her also as to what she does with my severed cock. i only know that no matter what i do not want it found and reattached, i am thinking perhaps we could set up a small hibachi type grill and light it beforehand so that once my cock is cut off she can just toss my cock on the grill and let it burn, i won't want it. if anyone knows of a woman that might be interested i am reachable under the nic submissive4fun on the plentyoffish.com website. oh and by the way i am located in Michigan...

[Paolo]

Well, it is a hell of a fantasy ...

I wouldn't count on the blood clotting of its own accord, though, even though there are cases of it cited in "The Amok Journal".

Good luck, and we hope you don't die while tied to that tree.

[cutmefast2 (imported)]

Thank You Paola, i truly do want this to become a reality, even if this does cause my death, at least i will have realized my fantasy. i am certain that as soon as i know that its about to happen i will start to panic inside. about 3 years ago i thought this fantasy was going to be a reality, i was with a Woman that would tease my dick with a sharp knife while i brought her to orgasm orally, but even though she did cause my dick to bleed a few times it was never very serious,just minor cuts that healed easily, now i despartly need to find the Woman that can and will finish the job all of the way..

[jemagirl (imported)]

Hi cutmefast2,

I'm not going to judge you or even criticize your phantasy, because it is totally not my place to do so. I'm not qualified to do that, and besides I'm not beyond having tried my own unsuccessful DIY orchiectomy. So it would be hypocritical of me to say the very least.

All I want to say that acting out your phantasy would take but a moment, and then the moment would have passed. Since it will only last a few moments at best, it would be good to consider ahead of time what you would like to do for the rest of your life. Do you want to live as a eunuch? Thats OK. Your in good company here.

It's just hard for most people to know what that would be like living as a eunuch until they experience it first hand. Fortunately you can try it out chemically. It's best to get the medication through a Doctor with a note from from a certified therapist. There are many therapist these days who are "kink" aware and can be very helpful talking about your motivations. After trying chemical castration for about a year you'll definitely know if this is for you. Also you may find that the need for physical castration has faded away, or that the need to make it an S&M scene is no longer your motivation.

Jema

[cutmefast2 (imported)]

Thank You Jema for Your suggestions, but at this point in my life i feel that this is one experience that i do truly owe myself. It has been a part of my mental make up for so very long now that i feel i must make this a reality and afterwards i will just have to accept it and learn to cope with the situation. i feel that if i deny myself this at this point then i have failed myself. i truly do realize that even as the act is being done i will regret that the thought ever came to me at all, but i really must move ahead with my plans. I truly do thank You for your suggestions, You did make a very sensible statement, but obviously i am beyond the point where i am willing to be sensible about my choice. i honestly need to feel the knife as it cuts through my dick and also to feel the warmth at first as my blood gushes out, then the cold reality of what has been done to me.

[Kangan (imported)]

You run a serious risk of killing yourself due to extreme blood loss. Be prepared to stop the bleeding at once. Possibly banding at the base and then severing would be a better choice. Either way, you will need to get to an Emergency Room ASAP.

[cutmefast2 (imported)]

Thank You Kangan, actually i have already been thinking that banding first might actually be a good idea, after all it is not my intention to have this done as a means of suicide, but i do want to feel the pain as the knife slices through my dick as soon as i can locate someone to help me with this.

[Kangan (imported)]

Thank You Kangan, actually i have already been thinking that banding first might actually be a good idea, after all it is not my intention to have this done as a means of suicide, but i do want to feel the pain as the knife slices through my dick as soon as i can locate someone to help me with this.

You'll only get one opportunity to try -- don't waste it. You really need this done somewhere like the O.R.R. folks in Belgium. From looking at their website, they would do stuff without anesthetic first and then fix you up afterwards. I'd go there, but they are $$$$$$!

[Kangan (imported)]

I'm not in favor of losing my penis (just my balls), but the smooth look does appeal to me somewhat. I used to fantasize about what it would be like not having genitals when I was a kid. I have toyed with the idea of having my scrotum removed, but my wife likes to play with it too much....