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Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 5:49 am
by Hash (imported)
I'm wondering how many of us eventually acted out our fantasy or fantasies? I know I did. I abused and cut my scrotum open for years dreaming about castration. I'd go to sleep thinking about getting castrated. It took over ten years, but I finally acted out my fantasy and am now a eunuch. Does this mean that all of us are destined to act out our fantasies? Even to a certain degree?
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 8:26 am
by Riverwind (imported)
Good question, I thought you were writing about me.
River
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 9:04 am
by strassenbahn (imported)
Hash (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 20, 2007 5:49 am
I'm wondering how many of us eventually acted out our fantasy or fantasies? I know I did. I abused and cut my scrotum open for years dreaming about castration. I'd go to sleep thinking about get castrated. It took over ten years, but I finally acted out my fantasy and am now a eunuch. Does this mean that all of us are destined to act out our fantasies? Even to a certain degree?
Writing as one whose fantasies of castration are very intense, but who knows that the real thing is not for him, I would suggest that everyone should carefully bear in mind the difference between the worlds of fantasy and reality; and make decisions relating to the real world in terms of analysis of the latter alone -- is being castrated right for me? In some cases the answer is an unequivocal yes, in others it will be no -- rather than projecting the fantasy experience onto reality. For instance fantasizing (as I do constantly) about being castrated by a woman is a different thing from actually living the rest of one's life as a eunuch (which some will love, others regret). To give another example. Ever since childhood I have had intense fantasies of female domination. But I have never had a really enjoyable visit to a dominatrix because the knowledge that she was just a hired service provider rather than the tyrant wife I dream of actually stood in the way of the fantasy. Likewise I fantasize about technology that would actually turn me into a genetic girl (see my avatar) but I know that in my case, and I stress in my case I would be disappointed with the results of transgendering because I would be so different from my fantasy ideal. want to stress that I am not arguing against actual castration, just recommending careful self analysis before taking an irrevocable step.
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 1:33 pm
by Hash (imported)
Strassenbahn,
I understand what you mean, but I'm afraid you didn't get the full point of what I was saying. What I'm saying is that those who fantasize long enough about something, in your case female domination, will act out their fantasy. You acted it out, but it was not satisfying because you were paying the person, so even though you acted it out, the reality did not satisfy your fantasy. However, for those who fantasize about getting castrated over a period of years, they will act out their fantasy one day just like you. Of course when they act out their fantasy, their testicles will be gone and you cannot reattach them. It's as if a powerful force pushes you over the edge, you can no longer resist acting out what once was pure fantasy. The fantasy becomes reality, you cannot control your desire. That's the way it happened to me and to others on this board.
I'm wondering if the constant repetition of the fantasy, playing it out in the mind over and over and over again, does something to the psyche of the person that removes the last inhibitions and safeguards. It would stand to reason, wouldn't it? Maybe the fantasy wears out from repeated playing and it becomes a broken record that no longer satisfies the person, and you must do more & more dangerous things to gain the same level of satisfaction, moving closer and closer to the edge of actually going through with the castration, instead of just fantasizing about it. Comments please.
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 6:06 pm
by markdf (imported)
What about those of us whose fantasies involve castrating other people? I doubt many people here have done so (or have even had the opportunity), but any stories from those who have?
Performing a clitoridectomy or a penectomy is pretty high on my list of things that I'd like to do during the course of my life.
I suppose I might part with my own equipment at some point, if I were satisfied that I had used them to their full potential... there's something really fun about surgery, about having a slightly different body afterwards. There's nothing quite like it, even if it's as minor as a piercing or having your frenulum linguae snipped (which I totally recommend, btw).
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 8:59 am
by strassenbahn (imported)
Hash (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 20, 2007 1:33 pm
Strassenbahn,
I understand what you mean, but I'm afraid you didn't get the full point of what I was saying. What I'm saying is that those who fantasize long enough about something, in your case female domination, will act out their fantasy. You acted it out, but it was not satisfying because you were paying the person, so even though you acted it out, the reality did not satisfy your fantasy. However, for those who fantasize about getting castrated over a period of years, they will act out their fantasy one day just like you. Of course when they act out their fantasy, their testicles will be gone and you cannot reattach them. It's as if a powerful force pushes you over the edge, you can no longer resist acting out what once was pure fantasy. The fantasy becomes reality, you cannot control your desire. That's the way it happened to me and to others on this board.
I'm wondering if the constant repetition of the fantasy, playing it out in the mind over and over and over again, does something to the psyche of the person that removes the last inhibitions and safeguards. It would stand to reason, wouldn't it? Maybe the fantasy wears out from repeated playing and it becomes a broken record that no longer satisfies the person, and you must do more & more dangerous things to gain the same level of satisfaction, moving closer and closer to the edge of actually going through with the castration, instead of just fantasizing about it. Comments please.
There is a lot of difference in acting out a female domination fantasy that costs you a couple of hundred bucks for a disappointing experience and spending the rest of your life as a eunuch (which may be right for you or may not. My advice was simply that before doing anything irrevocable one should try as hard as possible to focus on the reality (in this case, life as a eunuch) as opposed to being carried away by fantasy focussed on the castration event.
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 10:16 am
by crankshaft (imported)
interesting topic,
most things if we put our mind to it, we can make it happen,
so in a way, yes,
as for me,and others here, when you hurt long enough you, and say enough,
you put your mind to it, of making something happen,
while somethings take time, but for me at least I got one side out, (and I cannot say how much of a relief its been) now I sit back and see how I handle one side, yes the otherside hurts but nothing like the left side that got just taken out, after reading others experiences, sometimes its best to go step by step , with no surprises ,than to jump and hope for the best,
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 1:48 pm
by Hash (imported)
Markdf,
There is another factor that will stop certain people from truly acting out their fantasies, it's called "jail time." That's what stops most people from hurting or injuring others, some also have consciences. It's easier to follow through with a fantasy involving just yourself because if you hurt or injure another, you know that the consequences will be great. This brings up another question, "If you follow through with your fantasy to castrate or penectomize another person, have you crossed the boundry of sanity? Have you become pyschotic? Is that what happens to mass murderers? Would or could someone become a mass castrator?
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Sun Jan 21, 2007 9:46 pm
by penispain69 (imported)
Hash (imported) wrote: Sat Jan 20, 2007 1:33 pm
Strassenbahn,
I understand what you mean, but I'm afraid you didn't get the full point of what I was saying. What I'm saying is that those who fantasize long enough about something, in your case female domination, will act out their fantasy. You acted it out, but it was not satisfying because you were paying the person, so even though you acted it out, the reality did not satisfy your fantasy. However, for those who fantasize about getting castrated over a period of years, they will act out their fantasy one day just like you. Of course when they act out their fantasy, their testicles will be gone and you cannot reattach them. It's as if a powerful force pushes you over the edge, you can no longer resist acting out what once was pure fantasy. The fantasy becomes reality, you cannot control your desire. That's the way it happened to me and to others on this board.
I'm wondering if the constant repetition of the fantasy, playing it out in the mind over and over and over again, does something to the psyche of the person that removes the last inhibitions and safeguards. It would stand to reason, wouldn't it? Maybe the fantasy wears out from repeated playing and it becomes a broken record that no longer satisfies the person, and you must do more & more dangerous things to gain the same level of satisfaction, moving closer and closer to the edge of actually going through with the castration, instead of just fantasizing about it. Comments please.
My enjoyment is penectomies. I don't think I would go all the way just because I enjoy the torture of my penis more than finally removing it completely but..... I know what you mean and who knows, I may go too far some day. I like banding my penis. Some day I may end up leaving it on too long and it will need to be removed.
They say some psyco people are like that. The guy who invented Save-A-Lot in Indiana was like that with strangling and drowning people. He would take his lovers home while his wife and kids were gone. He would drown them but just until they were unconsous. Eventually he went too far and then he would kill all of them.....until he got caught.
Re: Will fantasy eventually lead to reality?
Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 8:58 am
by Uncle Flo (imported)
What exactly is Save-A-Lot? Indiana is starting to sound downright inhospitable. --FLO--