Visiting a professional Dominatrix

[callmarkus (imported)]

Hi all,

iam a lover of visiting dominant females.

It is a special feeling for me which i cant reach in other ways.

I have written down some of my experience in a story:

http://www.eunuch.org/Alpha/B/ea_142426besuch_b.htm

I would be very interested if also others are interested in that

lifestyle and what experiences they had made or will make.

[Hrlyrdr01 (imported)]

ok, you posted in english, now translate the story to english!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[strassenbahn (imported)]

Hi all,

iam a lover of visiting dominant females.

It is a special feeling for me which i cant reach in other ways.

I have written down some of my experience in a story:

http://www.eunuch.org/Alpha/B/ea_142426besuch_b.htm

I would be very interested if also others are interested in that

lifestyle and what experiences they had made or will make.

I have been intentensely attracted to the concept of being subject to a dominant female since puberty, but for me, at least, visits to a professional dominatrix have always proved ultimately disappointing. The reason is that it is impossible during the session to get it out of my mind that this is all just acting, and that the supposed female tyrant wife is really an actress and that you can call things off at any time. For me the fantasy is one of being involuntarily under a woman's vicious rule, e.g. in a marriage from which there is no escape. That is why I so like the classic female domination erotica of the past, such as the works of Stanton and Bilbrew, which make use of this theme. Incidentally, since you enjoy female domination fantasies, have you visited the website of the Other World Kingdom (www.owk.cz)? The owk is a sort of concentraiton camp for male masochists located in the Czech republic. The site has loads of pictures, and there is a companion site, owk-cinema, that shows streamed video clips about half an hour long of the OWK dominatrices physically abusing the male "inmates". Since the men in the videos are real masochists (anyone can offer to be in one of the clips), unlike most SM videos the beatings are very real!

[incubus (imported)]

Callmarkus & Strassenbahn,

I had apparently developed a taste for domination over the past seven years without really noticing it. I think when My Lady and I began, she was definitely in the submissive role. But over these years it seems she had grown into a dominant position, and I being in the submissive role. It was a much as a marriage as could be without the paper work - we were only with each other through those years.

It was after this change of roles that the roles themselves became more pronounced. It was during the latter stage, in which she was dominant that I was placed in a chastity device, and that I began to be milked (if you read my post) for the purpose of weaking me in preparation for castration.

The friend that My Lady had enlisted to aid her with this task was truly a domininatrix. Her husband was a very tiny man, of a different ethinic group. I had seen many times how she enjoyed treating him like a puppet whenever they were out in public. Once he tried to mount her at a time she did not want intercourse - and she proceeded to crush one of his testicles in her hand, sending him unconscious to the hospital. The other day she told me that she plans to destroy his remaining testicle soon! (And keep in mind that this is the person I am now going with!)

In her (Muriel) occupation as a nude female wrestler, Muriel likes to put her opponents to sleep before she anally fucks them in front of the crowd (which always brings the house down!) My previous Lady occasionally did this to me as well, but Muriel is the real pro at it! It is that technique she used on me the night she had me castrated!

[sag111 (imported)]

Well being a submisseve i love to have my Lady or my Mistress controal me and to serve them in their dayley life.Yes i said serve and their is a diffrence between BDSM and serving here and i see most people want to play and not take care of their Domina or Master but have them play with the submissive.I love the service lifestyle and have just came back from serving my Lady and Mistress i took care of the cooking cleaning massages and everything else that was required of this boy.Never did my Lady or Mistress get mean or upset at me and they always treated me with respect but i did get played with when i earned it but not befor.For me this is a lifestyle not just acting my only regret is i cant do this 24/7 but i did bring my training back with me and my wife now has a husband who listens and has learned to serve her as he dose his Dominas.I hope you to will find what you and yours make you happy

[incubus (imported)]

Callmarkus,

This is going off the subject from the topic, but I just wanted to say that I am fascinated by your Avatar! Is that you? And how are you pierced? I always wanted a Prince Albert piercing for myself.

And I like that clean, shaved, look - that is how I have always kept myself.

However my sac hung lower than yours does due to having a ball stretcher applied frequently as she prepared me for castration. I didn't realize at the time just how powerful a Dominatrix she had become!

I think perhaps I keep looking back at your avatar because I am beginning to miss my testicles. The other day I felt some "phantom pain." This morning as I left the bath, I missed holding them in my hand as I went to the closet. Occasionally I liked to squeeze them. Don't get me wrong, I do like the new feeling of walking about without them, but I fear I am coming into a bit of depression about being castrated.

Most of those who are reading this forum are eunuchs by choice - mine was forced upon me. I am amazed by how frequently I see the word "calm," or some reference to it. I would like to feel that sense of calmness I read about on this forum, but as of yet it has not come to me.

At first I was elated at my new condition, and my new relationship with Muriel. Now as each day goes by I await in dread what apparently members of the forum have suggested is going to happen - slow loss of my ability to perform sexually, and even loss of libido.

I am still tussling with why I so easily allowed this act to happen. I have stated many times that this was the originally the reason I became a member of the forum - to try and understand myself through others that had gone through this. I have begun to piece together certain events from earlier in my life that might have "predisposed" me to want castration, but as of yet they remain isolated incidents.

I guess I had better enjoy what I can, while I can.

incubus

[incubus (imported)]

I need some of that "support."

incubus

[Kangan (imported)]

Incubus,

Hang in there (oops sorry...). Uh, I'll restate that - Don't let depression rule your life. Try to find positive things to think about. There's more to life than having balls.

I would think that if you keep yourself sexually active, everything will continue to function as before. Now bear in mind that every man has a problem with erections at some point in his life. So if you have an occasional arousal problem, I wouldn't be too concerned about it.

Being a eunuch is a very special thing for special people.

However, I do agree that being castrated under duress was very wrong. (Not that I am recommending that you take any action concerning this....) You appear to have forgiven the person who did this - perhaps that is for the best as you don't need to be tomorrow's front page story in the National Enquirer.

I'd try to take it one day at a time and live each day of your life as your last. In other words, enjoy life and have as much fun as you can.

[mrt (imported)]

Callmarkus,

This is going off the subject from the topic, but I just wanted to say that I am fascinated by your Avatar! Is that you? And how are you pierced? I always wanted a Prince Albert piercing for myself.

And I like that clean, shaved, look - that is how I have always kept myself.

However my sac hung lower than yours does due to having a ball stretcher applied frequently as she prepared me for castration. I didn't realize at the time just how powerful a Dominatrix she had become!

I think perhaps I keep looking back at your avatar because I am beginning to miss my testicles. The other day I felt some "phantom pain." This morning as I left the bath, I missed holding them in my hand as I went to the closet. Occasionally I liked to squeeze them. Don't get me wrong, I do like the new feeling of walking about without them, but I fear I am coming into a bit of depression about being castrated.

Most of those who are reading this forum are eunuchs by choice - mine was forced upon me. I am amazed by how frequently I see the word "calm," or some reference to it. I would like to feel that sense of calmness I read about on this forum, but as of yet it has not come to me.

At first I was elated at my new condition, and my new relationship with Muriel. Now as each day goes by I await in dread what apparently members of the forum have suggested is going to happen - slow loss of my ability to perform sexually, and even loss of libido.

I am still tussling with why I so easily allowed this act to happen. I have stated many times that this was the originally the reason I became a member of the forum - to try and understand myself through others that had gone through this. I have begun to piece together certain events from earlier in my life that might have "predisposed" me to want castration, but as of yet they remain isolated incidents.

I guess I had better enjoy what I can, while I can.

incubus

When my hormones were tanking I found it difficult to get anything done. However going on HRT (Androgel) changed all that. My life is 1000x better. Sex went from (who cares & impotence) to WOW WOW W O W! Was it ever this good before? Talk to your doctor. They have several ways to replace your testosterone and I think you will be much happier for it. As to the whole forced castration thing? Dial 911 man! That is criminal stuff on an insane scale.

[incubus (imported)]

Thanks, gentlemen, for your advice.

I well know the warning signs of depression, and I am striving each day to avoid these.

Because of the profession I am in, I cannot allow what has happened to be revealed to anyone further than the 3 people who already know. That is the hold that Muriel has over me - as long as I tend to her needs & desires, physically & financially, she will keep what she had done a secret.

However, as far as hormone treatment is concerned, I have begun to consider this option - since I can get the medications without my associates knowing about it.

One question I have - I think I am noticing a decrease in the amount of clear fluid that comes out prior to, and upon ejaculation (this is all the fluid I discharge now). This pre-cum had always served as a lubricant, and now occasionally Muriel has to use some lotion, particularly if she decides to take me by hand. Is this a sign of my declining sexual ability?

Thanks,

incubus