Hello from a newby
Posted: Mon Jul 10, 2006 2:10 pm
Hi all! I wanted to introduce my self and describe how and why I came upon this board. But first, thanks to all of you for posting your personal stories here.
I am a straight male in a satisfying relationship. I write for a hobby, since nobody has yet paid me a cent for my musings. A close friend is transgendered and we have had many discussions about SR surgery but I never seriously thought about or had castration fantasies. Until...
About a year ago I went to my dermatologist with a serious skin condition. She prescribed some medication that had an unusual side effect. It blocked my production of testosterone. This was not a side effect that I was warned about, the big one being an increase in cholesterol levels. After a week on this stuff my libido was markedly decreased and after about two weeks I was impotent. After about four weeks my testicles had pulled up close to my body and my scrotum looked like after a dip in a cold lake. At times I had serious discomfort when sitting down as my balls would move inside my body. At that time I went in for a follow up visit with the doc.
Normally, I would be escorted to the examination room by a nurse who would take vitals and information, tell me to put on the stupid gown, then she would leave. Later the doc would come in by herself for the exam. But on this occasion I was escorted in by a Resident. A rather attractive Resident who looked to be in her late 20s. She told me that dermatology was not her specialty, family practice was, but she had to do a dermatology rotation for a few months. I told her my concerns and she told me to put on the gown and left. Now, Im assuming the Resident has gone on to the next patient and Im just waiting for my doc. But instead, a few minutes later, they both came in together. I repeat to the doctor these unusual symptoms and she tells me to stand up and remove the gown. So here I am buck naked in front of these two women, with shriveled up genitals, as the doctor goes over my skin describing everything to the Resident, who is taking notes and eyeing me at the same time. Embarrassment is not the proper word to use to describe my feelings. It was something else entirely.
After examining my skin the doc tells me to get on the table. She begins to feel my balls and asks about pain, etc. She then tellss the Resident to exam me. The Resident puts on some latex gloves and starts feeling my balls. I tell them about the occasional discomfort when I sit and the Resident says, with a slight smile, well, we can always remove them. So here I am buck naked with two female docs standing over me, examining my testicles and one makes a castration joke. My doc then says we can either discontinue the meds or she can prescribe a testosterone patch. The meds had cleared up my skin so I decide to discontinue it. She says thats great and to call her if there are anymore problems and leaves the room. The Resident, however, stays and says she would like to do a prostate exam, just to be safe. She tells me to pull my knees towards my chest and then she slides a lubricated finger up my ass and hits home. This is unusual because I never had a prostate exam in this position and she stays in for what seems like hours, all the while standing over me and my shriveled up genitals. She finally finishes, tells me everything feels fine and to get dressed then she leaves the room. I stop taking the meds and within a week everything returns to normal.
When I tell my transgendered friend about this she laughs. She said I experienced a dominant/submissive relationship, even if it was brief and professional. She also thought the Resident was getting off on it because she knew I was feeling emasculated. I dont know, Im not a shrink. But I have to admit I found the whole episode highly erotic, especially when they were both standing over me and the Resident made the castration joke. I have no desire to be castrated but the fantasy of this event has been incorporated into my sex life with my significant other and I have written several stories with a similar theme.
That is how I came upon this site and have read so many wonderful personal stories from some marvelous souls. I am safe in knowing that my fantasies are not unusual and I am not alone.
I am a straight male in a satisfying relationship. I write for a hobby, since nobody has yet paid me a cent for my musings. A close friend is transgendered and we have had many discussions about SR surgery but I never seriously thought about or had castration fantasies. Until...
About a year ago I went to my dermatologist with a serious skin condition. She prescribed some medication that had an unusual side effect. It blocked my production of testosterone. This was not a side effect that I was warned about, the big one being an increase in cholesterol levels. After a week on this stuff my libido was markedly decreased and after about two weeks I was impotent. After about four weeks my testicles had pulled up close to my body and my scrotum looked like after a dip in a cold lake. At times I had serious discomfort when sitting down as my balls would move inside my body. At that time I went in for a follow up visit with the doc.
Normally, I would be escorted to the examination room by a nurse who would take vitals and information, tell me to put on the stupid gown, then she would leave. Later the doc would come in by herself for the exam. But on this occasion I was escorted in by a Resident. A rather attractive Resident who looked to be in her late 20s. She told me that dermatology was not her specialty, family practice was, but she had to do a dermatology rotation for a few months. I told her my concerns and she told me to put on the gown and left. Now, Im assuming the Resident has gone on to the next patient and Im just waiting for my doc. But instead, a few minutes later, they both came in together. I repeat to the doctor these unusual symptoms and she tells me to stand up and remove the gown. So here I am buck naked in front of these two women, with shriveled up genitals, as the doctor goes over my skin describing everything to the Resident, who is taking notes and eyeing me at the same time. Embarrassment is not the proper word to use to describe my feelings. It was something else entirely.
After examining my skin the doc tells me to get on the table. She begins to feel my balls and asks about pain, etc. She then tellss the Resident to exam me. The Resident puts on some latex gloves and starts feeling my balls. I tell them about the occasional discomfort when I sit and the Resident says, with a slight smile, well, we can always remove them. So here I am buck naked with two female docs standing over me, examining my testicles and one makes a castration joke. My doc then says we can either discontinue the meds or she can prescribe a testosterone patch. The meds had cleared up my skin so I decide to discontinue it. She says thats great and to call her if there are anymore problems and leaves the room. The Resident, however, stays and says she would like to do a prostate exam, just to be safe. She tells me to pull my knees towards my chest and then she slides a lubricated finger up my ass and hits home. This is unusual because I never had a prostate exam in this position and she stays in for what seems like hours, all the while standing over me and my shriveled up genitals. She finally finishes, tells me everything feels fine and to get dressed then she leaves the room. I stop taking the meds and within a week everything returns to normal.
When I tell my transgendered friend about this she laughs. She said I experienced a dominant/submissive relationship, even if it was brief and professional. She also thought the Resident was getting off on it because she knew I was feeling emasculated. I dont know, Im not a shrink. But I have to admit I found the whole episode highly erotic, especially when they were both standing over me and the Resident made the castration joke. I have no desire to be castrated but the fantasy of this event has been incorporated into my sex life with my significant other and I have written several stories with a similar theme.
That is how I came upon this site and have read so many wonderful personal stories from some marvelous souls. I am safe in knowing that my fantasies are not unusual and I am not alone.