A friend of mine was coming on to me online pretty strongly. In a combination of thoughtfulness and desperation I mentioned to her my considerations of castration. But now that I've said it, I feel like I told it to her more for the purpose of stopping the persistent little motions and words she was using geared towards turning on my (not yet removed) sexual functions. I intended to say what I said so that she knew to seek elsewhere for a sexual relationship, but it seemed more of a diversion tossed in her way while I dodged to the left and jumped in a hole.

I have, on occasion, been fully receptive to cybersex, thankfully never in person. Even driven to seek it out on occasion, though I inevitably end up tiring of the intimacy and desiring more of a friendly relationship. My mind changes when those hormones start to flow; I literally want things that I don't want and it's terribly confusing. How do I tell people about this desire of mine to get freed of these weird impulses contrary to the nature I have developed into? Should I tell anyone? Would it be like, "Oh by the way... I'm probably going to get myself fixed once I can afford it, so enough of the kissy hip wiggly stuff okay?"

Am I just play acting all of this out of some bizarre desire to get attention? That's what I would suspect if I were watching myself in action. But it feels so wrong the way things are now... it's clogging up my motivation and desire....

Well polcat as others here have put it we do have to be careful what we say weather it be castration we desire of gender problems we face most dont understand just what is going on with us.So choose the people you need or want to shair this information with it will just make things eaiser for you in the long run good luck my friend.