(I apologize for the length of this post, but would appreciate any feedback whatsoever on this. I'm kinda stuck in a spot about the whole thing.)

Hello everyone,

I think this is my second post ever. I posted on this site in early spring. I had just taken 300 mg. Depo-provera. I liked the effects. I found myself to be more emotionally in tune with myself, less bothered by sexual urges, and generally happier. Since then, I've had a lot of trouble getting on it consistently due to delays in shipment. About 6 weeks ago, I took 300 mg again, followed by 150 mg. shot two weeks later. None since then. I found myself to be more depressed and felt the positive effects less.

My basic goal is this:

I am in a relationship and wish to be sexual with my partner. However, I do not want to be affected by random sexual urges, or a need for sex, as she is not. Beyond just libido, I enjoyed the calmness and emotional balance I felt with the orginal shot. I felt that I could not blow off things that should bother me anymore. I felt truly emotionally happy.

I am curious about surgical castrations and the effects. I want to know how I personally will be, physically and mentally, after castration before committing to an operation. So, what would be the best way to mimic a surgical castration in its entirety? Do i go back on depo regularly? Do i find an alternative or stronger anti-androgen? Should I avoid surgery entirely given the physical ability I wish to maintain.

I need some advice also on what I can expect physically from chemical and possibly eventually surgical castration.

Will I be able to get erections and have orgasms? I want to have the ability to be turned on, but only when I choose to be, and only when I should be. I also want to be rid of these awful effects of testosterone nature has so graciously endowed upon me (and every other male),i.e. irritability, aggression, being apathetic.

I'll post again with more questions, I'm sure. I know what I want, I'm just having trouble finding out how to get that.

Thanks everyone

I ordered both Androcur and Depo Provera to undergo chemical castration. In the mean time, I had 1500 mg. of progesterone in oil. In the past 5 days, I have injected a total of 200 mg and was experiencing noticable erectile dysfunction the past 2 days. Today, the Androcur arrived. I took 100 mg and about 5 hours later the combination of the two seemed obvious. I tried jerking off and had nothing but a limp dick. Absolutely no sign of an erection. I am suprised to be getting such fast results. I always had a high libido and would jerk off 2 or 3 times a day. Needless to say I am very pleased with the results.

I have also studied the idea of surgical self castration. I have a source for injectable Lidocaine to numb everything, antibiotics to handle any liklihood of infection. I also have sterile medical supplies in a military field kit. It contains sterile sutures and all the necessary surgical instruments. And I do have some experience in self surgery, having removed a .7.62X39 Russian bullet from my knee in Vietnam. Did good enough job the doctors later commented they couldn't have done any better. And I didn't have any real pain killer except for a single dose of morphine. Which I chose not to use as it would have made things foggy. And all while in mud up to my neck and being watched from several points by Charlie. Doing a self castration should be relatively easy with the right equipment and naturally studying the specifics of the procedure in a medical book. Oh yeah, the military field medical kit is one of two I have still in a sealed metal container and it also contains an anti beeeding preparation that can be sprayed onto aven a major arterial severance, and in seconds the bleeding will stop. The kits aren't cheap. Each cost $149, but cost the government well over $ 1500.

hulagai (imported) wrote: Tue Sep 14, 2004 6:31 pm I ordered both Androcur and Depo Provera to undergo chemical castration. In the mean time, I had 1500 mg. of progesterone in oil. In the past 5 days, I have injected a total of 200 mg and was experiencing noticable erectile dysfunction the past 2 days. Today, the Androcur arrived. I took 100 mg and about 5 hours later the combination of the two seemed obvious. I tried jerking off and had nothing but a limp dick. Absolutely no sign of an erection. I am suprised to be getting such fast results. I always had a high libido and would jerk off 2 or 3 times a day. Needless to say I am very pleased with the results.

I have also studied the idea of surgical self castration. I have a source for injectable Lidocaine to numb everything, antibiotics to handle any liklihood of infection. I also have sterile medical supplies in a military field kit. It contains sterile sutures and all the necessary surgical instruments. And I do have some experience in self surgery, having removed a .7.62X39 Russian bullet from my knee in Vietnam. Did good enough job the doctors later commented they couldn't have done any better. And I didn't have any real pain killer except for a single dose of morphine. Which I chose not to use as it would have made things foggy. And all while in mud up to my neck and being watched from several points by Charlie. Doing a self castration should be relatively easy with the right equipment and naturally studying the specifics of the procedure in a medical book. Oh yeah, the military field medical kit is one of two I have still in a sealed metal container and it also contains an anti beeeding preparation that can be sprayed onto aven a major arterial severance, and in seconds the bleeding will stop. The kits aren't cheap. Each cost $149, but cost the government well over $ 1500.

Your meds seem a bit much. How does the government afford such kits? How rare are they? I think what you did with one is pretty cool.

The challenge in self-castration seems not to be in the steps of the proceedure, but in doing all of them correctly the first and second time. For this reason, I'm letting someone else do the work.

awen