Hi there,

Well, I'm back.

This time I have decided it's a lifestyle change. I plan on being either chemically castrated the rest of my life or physically castrated.

I was on androcur for 3 months and stopped after my wife said she wanted sex again. Well, I tried it (life with testosterone again). At first I thought I could do it, but I wasn't happy. Not happy at all. I was curious to see if things would go back to the way they were.

Slowly but surely they did. (not in this order)

-The semen after an orgasm came back. It was liquid more than white semen then it slowly returned to normal semen.

-The morning erections returned.

-My testicles, which I thought had shrunk proved they had by getting larger again. One actually was larger than the other for a while.

-My libido returned.

-I'd read the board and would get erections again. (unlike when I was on androcur and I'd read it to read)

It was so gradual. I eased out of it as easy as I'd eased into it (thanks to reading hours and hours of the board posts from those who had tried things before). But I got to the point where I knew that I didn't like it. I am a eunuch or have that type of mentality. I haven't ever felt better than I did when I was testosterone free (or as close to it as possible).

After a nice long talk with my wife we both said ok to doing it again. I'm so happy!! Last night I took my first androcur and this morning I took my second. I'm looking forward to week 3 again when I saw the earliest signs that it was working.

It's so great having this board. The board helped me cope while the testosterone poisoned my body and mind. I look forward to being back among the testosterone free members here again soon.

Love ya!!

Hi,



Was this post odd? I'm just wondering because no one had anything to say?



I seem to always stop threads or don't get responses. Was it my avatar?

Sorry for the desperate plea for feedback, but I knew no one could read my mind.

I hope I've never offended anyone here by one of my posts or anything?

Hi,

Beleza (imported) wrote: Sat Jul 10, 2004 4:56 am

Was this post odd? I'm just wondering because no one had anything to say?



I seem to always stop threads or don't get responses. Was it my avatar?

Sorry for the desperate plea for feedback, but I knew no one could read my mind.

I hope I've never offended anyone here by one of my posts or anything?

I have not read many of your posts, but there is nothing offensive in this one. As a rule most folks just read and don't respond to posts. So don't worry too much about that, and if the thread ends with your post....wel you just got the last word in.

There are a lot of post that I don't feel qualified to respond to as they lay outside my interest or area of knowledge. The great thing about the EA is the level of diversity here. If I don't know what to say some one else probably does. If you don't get a response to one of your posts try rewriting and reposting. Some times people just don't see it.

Regards,

Jema

Hi Jema,

Thank you! I'll follow your suggestions!

Beleza (imported) wrote: Sat Jul 10, 2004 1:45 pm Hi Jema,

Thank you! I'll follow your suggestions!

Thank You Beleza

Beleza (imported) wrote: Fri Jul 09, 2004 5:26 am Hi there,

Well, I'm back.

This time I have decided it's a lifestyle change. I plan on being either chemically castrated the rest of my life or physically castrated.

I was on androcur for 3 months and stopped after my wife said she wanted sex again. Well, I tried it (life with testosterone again). At first I thought I could do it, but I wasn't happy. Not happy at all. I was curious to see if things would go back to the way they were.

Slowly but surely they did. (not in this order)

-The semen after an orgasm came back. It was liquid more than white semen then it slowly returned to normal semen.

-The morning erections returned.

-My testicles, which I thought had shrunk proved they had by getting larger again. One actually was larger than the other for a while.

-My libido returned.

-I'd read the board and would get erections again. (unlike when I was on androcur and I'd read it to read)

It was so gradual. I eased out of it as easy as I'd eased into it (thanks to reading hours and hours of the board posts from those who had tried things before). But I got to the point where I knew that I didn't like it. I am a eunuch or have that type of mentality. I haven't ever felt better than I did when I was testosterone free (or as close to it as possible).

After a nice long talk with my wife we both said ok to doing it again. I'm so happy!! Last night I took my first androcur and this morning I took my second. I'm looking forward to week 3 again when I saw the earliest signs that it was working.

It's so great having this board. The board helped me cope while the testosterone poisoned my body and mind. I look forward to being back among the testosterone free members here again soon.

Love ya!!

Hello Beleza,

This is wonderful news dear. Sorry I did not post sooner. I'm glad your wife agrees with the decision you have made to continue chemical castration. It is important for both of you to have an understanding about what is going to happen as time goes on. I am happy for you.

I am also glad that you took the advice of so many here and tried the chemical route first. It truley is "the" way to test drive castration before taking any irriversable steps that you could have ended up regreting.

Thank's for keeping us posted, and do let us know how things go in the future and if you will be getting surgery. You have many friends here that will lend advice to you should you need it.

Beleza you look great and yes do take the advice of others here.Iwas out of town and just got back in and seen your post.Iwas on depo provera for two years befor my wife and i decided to go for the surgery and so far we are happy with it so do keep us informed and love your pic

I found your perspective very interesting. Is an avatar your picture it is pretty good. Being last it is probable a blessing of sorts

Thanks to everyone else for responding.

It meant a lot!!!

:headphone

Thank you very, very much.

Sorry, I should have jumped in sooner, I took androcur for a year before being castrated and I have no regrets. After I was castrated I told my ex-wife and my kids. The whole family knows, no secrets. The best part of all of this is the friends that I have made here, for the first time in my life I could talk to guys like me. Good luck with your quest, having a loving wife to stand with you is fantastic.

Remember we are here for you.

River