After writing my latest story, Sunday Balls, I've noticed that, although I'm gay, and read both m/m and f/m stories, I seem only to write from the persective of women nutting men. And I have absolutly no idea why.

I suppose that I fell in love with f/m ball busting stories when I first found Caligula's work, ages ago, online. To me it was so thrilling to see women take on sadistic and cruel pleasure in torturing men's balls, as compared to m/m stuff which was really kinda repetative: hit, hit, smash, smash, the end. They almost always take place in a sports situation, and I just can't abide that. I hate sports! lol

I think I've noticed that, although my stories are written from the women's perspective, the focus is really on the men and what happens to them. I don't know. In fact, to me, the real common thread between the three stories posted here on EA is men willingly and loveling giving their "goods" to those who want to torture them. For some reason, I think I have difficulty believe most men would do that with other men, even if they were gay. But with men, especially straight men, it seems more plausible to me that they'd submit to women and that the women would enjoy it much more.

Or, perhaps it is my gayness that makes me avoid men hurting men, since in real life I find pleasure in giving pleasure to men, not pain. Again, I don't know. I just think it's an interesting question . . .lol.

Anywho, my conclusion is that sexuality is a strange affair, and full of hidden and mysterious motivations. I was wondering if anyone else has this issue of writing from a perspective not obviously in line with their "stated" sexuality?

Cheers,

Nick