My Life as a Eunuch
Posted: Mon May 19, 2003 7:44 am
It's been almost a year since my castration, so I suppose I can comment on what life is like as a eunuch.
It didn't take long for the castration to show its effects. I lost the ability to have spontaneous erections almost immediately, and in a couple of weeks lost any interest in masturbation. From that point on I was basically impotent, because when I would rub my penis I didn't get hard at all. I also lost interest in looking at pics of naked guys and reading porn stories.
I did notice some loss of length in my soft penis, and of course I didn't get hard so I couldn't measure that
Very quickly my now empty scrotum shrank from not having gravity pulling on my balls, so it was not much more than a flap of slightly loose skin.
Around Labor Day I met the man who is now my partner, and in October we got together again. That time when we were in bed he began rubbing my penis and I got sami-hard. Not fully stiff like when I had my nuts, but not soft either. I guess it was about three inches, compared with under two when I'm soft, and five or so before I was a eunuch.
It felt good, so I asked him to keep doing it. It wasn't the horny reaction I had previously, more of just a good feeling that I wanted to keep. He masturbated me for quite a long time, and the good feeling kept getting better. At last I could feel an orgasm coming, so I released it and a small amount of clear liquid escaped from my penis. It didn't shoot out; it just dribbled onto my belly, and was a very small volume.
Now, about the orgasm. It was totally different fom the orgasms I had when I was a man. Those were centered around my penis, but this one felt like it took over my whole body.
The interesting thing was that after that, despite how good it felt, I didn't seek out orgasms. I was content just to cuddle and kiss, but once my partner started masturbating me I would be taken over by the feeling of the slowly-building orgasm.
When we got together between Christmas and New Years, he pointed out to me that I was losing my body hair. My belly har, which had been quite thick, thinned out quite a lot, and I lost most of the hair on my legs.
Earlier this year he convinced me to begin low-level HRT. It's still not enough to give me spontaneous erections, and I still don't seek out pics, but when we get together I can get fully hard. My erections now are about four inches. So as a man my erection was on the small side, but now as a eunuch I'm right at the lower end of adult males. In my opinion, for blow jobs that's perfect, because it means my partner can easily take all of me into his mouth. Orgasms now feel more like they did when I had my nuts, and interestingly enough my semen has gotten some of its color back. It tastes different than it did when I was a man. It's lost the bitter taste it had, and actually tastes kind of sweet. The volume is greater than before I was on HRT, but not up to previous levels. Also, it shoots out with some force, but not up to the shots I had as a man.
My body hair hasn't gained in thickness, but the loss of hair seems to have stopeed.
To sum up, castration had the effects I expected, and if I didn't have a partner I would have been quite happy not to have hormones. I liked that my penis was shrinking and that I lost all interest in sex. It would have been interesting to see how short my penis would have gotten. Being completely impotent was quite nice. Also, I liked that I was losing my body hair.
With my partner, I like the effects of HRT. I still feel in control of my sexuality, but now when I'm with him I'm looking forward to sex and I'm able to be more aggressive. It seems some of the effects (loss of penis size and loss of hair) are permanent, and that's fine. I really enjoy my empty scrotum, my indicator that I'm a eunuch and not a man.
It didn't take long for the castration to show its effects. I lost the ability to have spontaneous erections almost immediately, and in a couple of weeks lost any interest in masturbation. From that point on I was basically impotent, because when I would rub my penis I didn't get hard at all. I also lost interest in looking at pics of naked guys and reading porn stories.
I did notice some loss of length in my soft penis, and of course I didn't get hard so I couldn't measure that
Very quickly my now empty scrotum shrank from not having gravity pulling on my balls, so it was not much more than a flap of slightly loose skin.Around Labor Day I met the man who is now my partner, and in October we got together again. That time when we were in bed he began rubbing my penis and I got sami-hard. Not fully stiff like when I had my nuts, but not soft either. I guess it was about three inches, compared with under two when I'm soft, and five or so before I was a eunuch.
It felt good, so I asked him to keep doing it. It wasn't the horny reaction I had previously, more of just a good feeling that I wanted to keep. He masturbated me for quite a long time, and the good feeling kept getting better. At last I could feel an orgasm coming, so I released it and a small amount of clear liquid escaped from my penis. It didn't shoot out; it just dribbled onto my belly, and was a very small volume.
Now, about the orgasm. It was totally different fom the orgasms I had when I was a man. Those were centered around my penis, but this one felt like it took over my whole body.
The interesting thing was that after that, despite how good it felt, I didn't seek out orgasms. I was content just to cuddle and kiss, but once my partner started masturbating me I would be taken over by the feeling of the slowly-building orgasm.
When we got together between Christmas and New Years, he pointed out to me that I was losing my body hair. My belly har, which had been quite thick, thinned out quite a lot, and I lost most of the hair on my legs.
Earlier this year he convinced me to begin low-level HRT. It's still not enough to give me spontaneous erections, and I still don't seek out pics, but when we get together I can get fully hard. My erections now are about four inches. So as a man my erection was on the small side, but now as a eunuch I'm right at the lower end of adult males. In my opinion, for blow jobs that's perfect, because it means my partner can easily take all of me into his mouth. Orgasms now feel more like they did when I had my nuts, and interestingly enough my semen has gotten some of its color back. It tastes different than it did when I was a man. It's lost the bitter taste it had, and actually tastes kind of sweet. The volume is greater than before I was on HRT, but not up to previous levels. Also, it shoots out with some force, but not up to the shots I had as a man.
My body hair hasn't gained in thickness, but the loss of hair seems to have stopeed.
To sum up, castration had the effects I expected, and if I didn't have a partner I would have been quite happy not to have hormones. I liked that my penis was shrinking and that I lost all interest in sex. It would have been interesting to see how short my penis would have gotten. Being completely impotent was quite nice. Also, I liked that I was losing my body hair.
With my partner, I like the effects of HRT. I still feel in control of my sexuality, but now when I'm with him I'm looking forward to sex and I'm able to be more aggressive. It seems some of the effects (loss of penis size and loss of hair) are permanent, and that's fine. I really enjoy my empty scrotum, my indicator that I'm a eunuch and not a man.