with the hand one holds. Aside from the fantasies about emasculation, I find that I've lived a long time with an actual eunuch condition--that is a eunuch status--that is not having testosterone or libido. Good or bad, I don't know which the condition has been for me.

I hope that I can at least for a bit escape this status. I have deeply missed feeling desire. I have missed relationships. I am still just barely in the ballgame--pun slipped by me.

I guess that I really don't understand why anyone would want to get rid of this aspect of life, though I also know the pleasure of not thinking about sex all day. I suspose that is a pleasure or what it just the hand I held. I don't know.

Blaise (imported) wrote: Thu Jan 30, 2003 8:37 pm I guess that I really don't understand why anyone would want to get rid of this aspect of life, though I also know the pleasure of not thinking about sex all day. I suspose that is a pleasure or what it just the hand I held. I don't know.

I was castrated by Dr. Spector. He mentions those with an uncontrolable libido, with a libido that seems to be out of control, to a libido that can even get us into legal trouble. Such as mine. For some of us ELECTIVE eunuchs, we are placed back "in control", both of our libido, or sexuality, and even our lives.

Of course, thert are many other reasons to become an elective eunuch, and I will let them tell their stories.

But for me, it was like I was riding this wild horse all the time, and the Good Dr. Spector, along with Jeff Adams, not only enabled me to dismount from the horse, but to walk out of the corral in one piece, and close and lock the gate behind me.

must have been and must be immense. I wonder whether I really knew what you experienced with libido. As I recall my history, I may have had low testosterone levels a long time ago even though I did enjoy making love and enjoyed the chase. Certainly, to be a slave to one sexual desires must be awful if that rules all of one's life.

I have to agree with Andrew but i agree with Andrew a lot anyway i guess it is the way i felt all those awful years myself so i can certanley understand a lot of what he is saying.But i do feel bad for someone like yourself who did not want this so all i can say is i hope you can have a more normal life for yourself As for me i finaly feel normal good luck Softee.

I can play whatever hand I get. :tongueout I'm learning that one has advantages with and without testosterone. Personally, I liked having a lot of lean muscle mass in my youth. I enjoyed being able to hike or canoe for hours. I enjoyed playing some competitive games.

However, I also enjoy sitting under my favorite cork tree and smelling the flowers, instead of my underarms.

I feel much better than I did before getting the shots. I do have more bulk in my penis. I do feel desire. I do generally feel more like a human being than I did without the shots.

What amazes me are the smiles I get from women. It's as if they know.

Well softee i am glad things are working out for you and i am glad things are working for me to your friend sag111.

I like the effects I'm feeling, especially the flirting! However, I really do know the benefits of not having libido. In fact, the loss of libido is much less troubling than the loss of general masculine features.