Now, there are going to be many of you that are going to go into 'defense mode'. But hear me out.

I've always thought of castration as being weird and unusual. But I've had a fascination with it all my life. Even when I was a child. When I heard on the radio where some area mentally-retarded man chopped off his privates, I'd be traumatized by the news. Never mind that the guy was sick in the head, WHY DO THAT TO YOURSELF?

Nonetheless, I've gone on a "crusade", if you will, to track down news on the internet about castration incidents. Or rent movies that have castration in it.

Friends of mine would think that I'm sick for dwelling on castration. And I KNOW some of you would say that I probably want to be castrated since I spend so much time researching the stuff. Not so. Do I want to be an eunuch?? Hell no. Look- I'm embaressed about this fascination of mine. When I'm at the library pehrusing the 'net, I try to cover up the pc screen so the guy setting next to me doesn't see me reading about castration.

Yes, this subject makes me insecure (as with MOST American males).

You see, in the back of mind, I think of you people who are eunuchs as "freaks". EVEN if you have become an eunuch for health reasons (cancer, etc). But I'm **trying** to be open-minded about it.

In one way, you can do what you want with your body. If it means controlling libido and you want to have the surgery- power to you, though I'd probably disagree with your decision.

I mean, I think I have a high libido. But I think I can control it WITHOUT surgery, which I find extreme and bizarre.

Though, If there is one thing I can admire about eunuchs is that they are, for the most part, at peace with themselves. I guess it would be "nice" to look a fucking hot chick and not want to fuck her brains out. Just yesterday, I was out doing some early Xmas shopping, and boy, were there were lots of hotties! I had a perpetual boner. I wanted to stop what I was doing and go home and jerk off.

Anyway, don't take it personally that I called you folks "freaks" because you are eunuchs. I don't know any of you at all. It's just that I find castration abnormal. I just want a better understanding of the subject matter, that's all.

Welcome to my circus, XXX.

I think you could have chosen a better word than "freaks", but seeing as how you put it in quotes and offer that you don't intend to be insulting, I guess I won't throw you to lions. I think we can look at the word "freaks" as a synonym for "oddity" or "something unusual, deviating from the norm".

I'm feeling quite liberal today, so enjoy it. I'm sure it won't last long. I have shopping to do later.

Natural curiosity on a topic that scares the wits out of most men and boys is fine. I'm sure that you'll learn a great deal in your search and that you'll find many different views and ideals expressed on these boards.

For one who has a fascination with, yet no desire to BE, a eunuch, I can only offer hopes that it never happens to you and that you go off well-informed and the better for it.

Paolo wrote: Sun Dec 01, 2002 11:09 am I'm feeling quite liberal today, so enjoy it. I'm sure it won't last long.

Are you telling me I am at your mercy?

I feel humbled...

XXX,

No defense mode needed for me. I am a freak and proud of it. I rather enjoy the freaky nature of my castration. I have throughout my life had to display a conservative image on the outside that wasn’t really me. I made a conscious effort to at least let loose with the parts that don’t show. You state that you have an obsession with castration. That is exactly how it started with me. I found the thought of a castrated man erotic and exciting and I looked for every reference I could about it. The interest turned into a strong desire to be castrated myself and eventually I was able to achieve it. Is castration abnormal? Absolutely. Is it also abnormal to change something about yourself that you don’t feel is as it should be? Does society call people who undergo liposuction, breast implants, face lifts, nose jobs and tummy tucks freaks? (Don’t count Michael Jackson or Joan Rivers.) They are just as unhappy with something about their bodies. Over twenty years ago when I began my search it was a lot harder to find this stuff, but there were sources and there was a significant number of us out here searching. I am scheduled to have a penectomy the 9th of December. Am I taking freak to its pinnacle? You bet I am. Would my friends and family accept this modification? No, but it is none of their business. Will it make difficult to find a potential partner? Yes, but I wouldn’t want a partner who wasn’t into the “scene” anyway. Will I regret it? Perhaps, but I will also relish the opportunity to do something that few men are able (or want) to experience. The thing I guess I am trying to say is, if you take a look around at your fellow human beings, you will see a lot of freaks and I guess that is part of what makes life interesting.

SPEAK FOR YOURSELF!!!

Hell, man!

I am just too damned weird to be classified as a mere house and garden variety domesticated freak.

I AM A FUCKING FREAKAZOID!!!!

The Aliens abducted me and then brought me back because I scared them.

HEY XXX!

Do you know why the gyneocologist got kicked out of Baker's school?

It was because he couldn't keep his fingers out of the pie!!!!

Now, wasn't that a hairy joke?

A-1

THE GREAT

sexual desire or libido felt liberating. It was the most fulfilling interval in my life for intellectual endeavors. Certainly, I did fully enjoy the calm and (if you will pardon the term) emotinal detachmet that came from being without much sexual desire.

I am almot hesitant to take testosterone shots in the new year though I do miss the musculation it gave me. I also miss being part of the vast human (and animal) enterprise of being sexual.

However, I don't see being a eunuch of any kind. I'm surprised that more men don't consider at least the chemical route to freedom.

I can partly say this because I enjoyed the benefits of having a sexy spouse and a delightful sex life with her for a long interval. I would not trade that experience for a trip to the moon.

XXX (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 01, 2002 9:46 am You see, in the back of mind, I think of you people who are eunuchs as "freaks". EVEN if you have become an eunuch for health reasons (cancer, etc). But I'm **trying** to be open-minded about it.

In one way, you can do what you want with your body. If it means controlling libido and you want to have the surgery- power to you, though I'd probably disagree with your decision.

I mean, I think I have a high libido. But I think I can control it WITHOUT surgery, which I find extreme and bizarre.

Though, If there is one thing I can admire about eunuchs is that they are, for the most part, at peace with themselves.

A high libido is not the same as an uncontrolled libido. Grudging alledged "open mindedness" is not the same as acceptence. About the only thing you got right, as it applies to me (I speak for nobody else in the EA with this posting except me), was being at peace with myself, and the world. The Eunuch Calm.



As Dr. Spector once wrote, on his older web site, "In the case of TS or eunuch, a deep calm serenity develops which, from then on, makes life far more worthwhile."

Why do you have a problem with that?