Hello everyone! I'm 22 years old, and I think that's about the only personal info I can share at the moment. Please excuse my English.

I don't really know how to begin to tell about how I started my fascination with this topic. I don't know how it began, I guess, I can only remember I've always liked it. Or get turned on by the idea of it. I think the first time around I read fictional stories about castration/nullification was back in 2020, when I got too much time being home, I surfed the internet a bit much. That's how I began developing so many of my kinks and interests, including nullification and much more.

I guess, I've always seen myself as submissive my whole life, but you can definitely call me one of those guys who don't really know what I want. I have no experience in anything BDSM related, and I'm not saying that being a eunuch, or castration and nullification is strictly BDSM, but you know what I mean? My only proper sexual experience so far has been vanilla, and my very first experience was in a time when I didn't even know sex was even a thing and had no concept or idea about it. It was more so taken away from me than anything. So, it's really bad. But in a way, that's probably how I always feel the way I feel, being submissive.

I have not carried out any actual experience of me being a sub, but the idea of actually doing it is so hot, I always nutted the hardest whenever I read like those extreme bdsm stories or videos or imagining it myself. And I honestly really don't know whether I actually want to be castrated or nullified, but the thought of it is so exciting. I mean, it's the idea of truly dedicating your life for someone, or giving away one of the typical symbol that makes you a man? I'm sorry if I still think like this and i know i shouldn't, I just don't know how to word it better. But like the idea of being a slave to someone that I'd let that someone to do whatever they want to me, including body modification is so arousing.

So yeah, I don't know anything, and I still don't know what I "actually" want, but getting a penectomy is one of the things that I've always thought about, and I'm here to learn and to connect, and hopefully get someone to teach me more about it and anything beyond. So far, no things have actually made me turn away.

Also thanks for the board admins for making sure this board runs well, and to everyone for having me here.

Welcome, it is good to have you joining us. We welcome any friendly folks with an interest in the subject, whether as a fantasy or wanting to become a 'fully qualified' eunuch, we just ask that you be open about which you are - which it sounds like you are doing...

Being a eunuch and / or getting castrated doesn't really have a lot to do with BDSM directly, or being gay, or pretty much any other kink, orientation, or whatever - I know pain isn't my thing, I'm straight, and the few times my GF and I experimented w/ bondage it didn't do much for us... In fact I'd strongly suggest that if the ACT of being castrated is a big turn-on, or getting fixed in a particular scenario is a thing, then it probably is best NOT to go for it... I can say that if done under safe medical care, the process is about like any other medical procedure, and about as exciting as a colonoscopy (assuming that isn't your thing... )

Absolutely nothing wrong with it being a fantasy interest, but doing it in reality is very much something you don't want to rush into as castration is FOREVER - there is no putting the bits back on.... However I think that wanting to learn more is a good start and hope we can help you with that...

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Welcome lovershunt,

I always hated my cock and balls. I abused my balls so much that I required castration. I found myself still lacking and incomplete. I worked for a time with a therapist and found I required nullification as the final step in realizing my gender identity.

I was never supposed to have junk in my pants. It took me many years to understand this wasn't a fantasy.

I understand about fantasy and submission. I've always loved being topped by a man who gives me no choice but to submit. It's a fine line between submission and rape and I always loved being shoved out from my comfort zone. Just one thing to remember: there are no hard and fast rules, except that no means no.

You're young. Live your life. Be submissive if you need to. Explore, experiment and mess up your junk if you need to.

But, by living that life, if you determine that castration or nullification might be who and how you need to be, then by all means, pursue it.

Living my life, I learned I'm supposed to mostly look male, but I'm not exactly that. I'm a nullified eunuch. I absolutely love those side looks I get when a guy realizes there's nothing in my shorts.