There's no going back now!

[Friage01 (imported)]

I am sitting at my computer looking at the item sitting on the desk and wondering what I will do with it now. You see it has no home anymore, no purpose to fulfil. At least not for anyone with me. The item is a shiny, polished chrome testicle weight weighing approximately 1.5 lbs. I purchased it around 5 years ago to try and control urges I’ve had for some time which involved controlling something that was controlling me. Not in a terrible way, but in a way that made me a little less than happy.

The other Items I will not be needing are the needles, syringes, the opened bottle of grain alcohol, castrating bands from the farm store and my modified vise. My real desire was to create a need for the removal of the offending objects, or at least to render them useless. The thoughts and my sometimes-cruel actions went on for many, many years.

Well around 48 hours ago I had a well-qualified urologist remove the testicles and the pouch containing the little orbs. In their place are a couple of ice packs being rotated in and out of the freezer. When I was just coming out from the anesthesia, it felt as if I were about 45 minutes into a banding session. I was not very happy until I was gifted a little white pill by a very understanding nurse and since then it hasn’t been too bad.

My story leading up to this moment is like some you may have read but totally different from others. It started years ago but it wasn’t until this past summer that I sought help from professionals. Getting the surgery really could have taken just a short period of time since all the urologist wanted was a letter from a qualified therapist and money. But since I was concerned about who was responsible for any complications, I thought to submit to the insurance company and see how much interference they wanted to give. Their published services in this matter used outdated terminology from outdated resources. They would not give any guidance in my several calls to them. In my opinion this was intentional to discourage people like me and really did affect how I expected this to go. As it turned out, the biggest obstacle was in my own mind, and it only took 4 months from my first visit to the therapist to getting approval from the insurance company. The insurance company only took three weeks to approve but I made appointments to see the therapist, primary care doc, urologist, and an endocrinologist before having the urologist submit the ins claim.

Maybe I’ll put it on a chain and wear it around my neck.

[Valery_V (imported)]

I am sitting at my computer looking at the item sitting on the desk and wondering what I will do with it now. You see it has no home anymore, no purpose to fulfil. At least not for anyone with me. The item is a shiny, polished chrome testicle weight weighing approximately 1.5 lbs. I purchased it around 5 years ago to try and control urges I’ve had for some time which involved controlling something that was controlling me. Not in a terrible way, but in a way that made me a little less than happy.

The other Items I will not be needing are the needles, syringes, the opened bottle of grain alcohol, castrating bands from the farm store and my modified vise. My real desire was to create a need for the removal of the offending objects, or at least to render them useless. The thoughts and my sometimes-cruel actions went on for many, many years.

Well around 48 hours ago I had a well-qualified urologist remove the testicles and the pouch containing the little orbs. In their place are a couple of ice packs being rotated in and out of the freezer. When I was just coming out from the anesthesia, it felt as if I were about 45 minutes into a banding session. I was not very happy until I was gifted a little white pill by a very understanding nurse and since then it hasn’t been too bad.

My story leading up to this moment is like some you may have read but totally different from others. It started years ago but it wasn’t until this past summer that I sought help from professionals. Getting the surgery really could have taken just a short period of time since all the urologist wanted was a letter from a qualified therapist and money. But since I was concerned about who was responsible for any complications, I thought to submit to the insurance company and see how much interference they wanted to give. Their published services in this matter used outdated terminology from outdated resources. They would not give any guidance in my several calls to them. In my opinion this was intentional to discourage people like me and really did affect how I expected this to go. As it turned out, the biggest obstacle was in my own mind, and it only took 4 months from my first visit to the therapist to getting approval from the insurance company. The insurance company only took three weeks to approve but I made appointments to see the therapist, primary care doc, urologist, and an endocrinologist before having the urologist submit the ins claim.

Maybe I’ll put it on a chain and wear it around my neck.

I congratulate you on making your wish come true!

I hope you don't regret anything.

I wish you a quick and complete recovery!

[WheelyFixed]

Congratulations and welcome! I went through the same sort of surgery in September, so I know what it's like coming out of anesthesia... Be careful about those little white pills, they can get you in a really bad way if you take to many / for to long... (Having had to go through hell to get off the addiction to fentanyl patches that I ended up with from my stint in rehab, I may be overly paranoid, but I'd rather scream than risk getting hooked on that shit again...)

I did a pretty lengthy coverage of my recovery in the "I've got a Date" thread if you want to see what you have to look forward to... I'm pretty much all healed at this point other than waiting for the scar to fade... Took me about 6 weeks before I totally stopped oozing, but most of it was OK in about 2-3 weeks. I actually think the scrotum was more painful / took a lot more to heal than the testicles did.

Let us know if you have any questions or other stuff we can help with.

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[JustMe (imported)]

Congratulations with the surgery. Once healed it feels wonderful crossing one’s legs and nothing gets squeezed

[Friage01 (imported)]

I congratulate you on making your wish come true!

I hope you don't regret anything.

I wish you a quick and complete recovery!

Thanks! No regrets so far and I really don't expect any.

[Friage01 (imported)]

Congratulations and welcome! I went through the same sort of surgery in September, so I know what it's like coming out of anesthesia... Be careful about those little white pills, they can get you in a really bad way if you take to many / for to long... (Having had to go through hell to get off the addiction to fentanyl patches that I ended up with from my stint in rehab, I may be overly paranoid, but I'd rather scream than risk getting hooked on that shit again...)

I did a pretty lengthy coverage of my recovery in the "I've got a Date" thread if you want to see what you have to look forward to... I'm pretty much all healed at this point other than waiting for the scar to fade... Took me about 6 weeks before I totally stopped oozing, but most of it was OK in about 2-3 weeks. I actually think the scrotum was more painful / took a lot more to heal than the testicles did.

Let us know if you have any questions or other stuff we can help with.

WheelyFixed

I think the pill was a Percocet and at the time it didn't matter. I was prescribed tramadol after the surgery, took two and since have gone to ibuprofen. The scrotal area is not an issue here except for the stiches poking me. No drainage problem after the first 24 hrs. The tied off cords were the issue but as of today that swelling has really subsided a great deal.

I have followed your post especially regarding the E patches. I have a prescription at the pharmacy for a .05 dosage which has been my plan of action since it just didn't make sense, to me, to be castrated and get back on testosterone. I weighed the options of replacement T vs. E and I feel for me that E is the best option. I can't say the I won't miss the occasional erection but the non-binary side of me does not want the male role to control my life. That's a rabbit hole I've down and really want to stay out of.

[Friage01 (imported)]

Congratulations with the surgery. Once healed it feels wonderful crossing one’s legs and nothing gets squeezed

It already is wonderful! I bought some women's boyshorts from wally world due to the doc saying that something would be needed to hold the bandages in place. I'm not into crossdressing but they now fit surprisingly well. Fulfills the autogynephilia type issues I was having.

[WheelyFixed]

Keep an eye on your hormone levels... 0.05 might not be enough... My doc started me on 0.1mg, which she said was not enough, and boosted me to 0.2mg, which turned out to be to much, and now has me on 0.15mg, (a 0.1 and 0.5 patch) which had me at the right point pre-surgery. I'll probably be getting another check in a month or two to see if that changes...

Of course they are extra worried about my levels because I already have bone health issues from my SCI and they don't want to make them worse from being hormone free...

Glad you found my posts helpful...

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[Wolf-Pup (imported)]

Keep an eye on your hormone levels... 0.05 might not be enough... My doc started me on 0.1mg, which she said was not enough, and boosted me to 0.2mg, which turned out to be to much, and now has me on 0.15mg, (a 0.1 and 0.5 patch) which had me at the right point pre-surgery. I'll probably be getting another check in a month or two to see if that changes...

Was it too much because of how it made you feel or because of blood work numbers going too high?

[WheelyFixed]

Was it too much because of how it made you feel or because of blood work numbers going too high?

Mostly getting the number to the value she wanted, which is roughly the average for a pre-menopausal female... Because of my SCI, I'm already at high risk for bone issues, so the only way she would sign off on any surgery was if I was willing to do full level T or E...

I've never had any noteworthy reaction to hormone changes either way. I had so little reaction to shutting off T with Lupron that I wasn't sure it was working until I got a test back w/ 'undetectable' levels... I may be a bit more mellow now that I'm on E, but I can't say that I feel a lot different.

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