Putting a name on my feelings

[demale99 (imported)]

Hello, I'm a 45 years old male, but since I'm 9, I'm feeling weird. I did'nt had conscience of my genitals before this age. My feeling was, that I don't need and want them. I started to want them removed. I'm currently on my way to figure out how it would be without any genitals, completely nullified, or perhaps orchiectomy and removing the scrotum would be sufficient?

[Prudence (imported)]

Just be sure to do a lot - and I mean A LOT - of intense and/or thorough research before you do anything permanent. Read over the posts in this forum to see what others have gone through and how they dealt with it.

Many have tried Chemical Castration first, that is, taking medications that would shut down Male Hormone (mainly Testosterone) production. It is like a "test drive". You can see how it makes you feel, and if you don't like it, you can just stop taking the medications. But if you have your genitals removed and don't like it, you are stuck for life - there is no going back!

Also, you might find this desire will fade in a few years (as your Testosterone levels go down with age). Sometimes the desire to have genitals removed is tied into your sexual desire, ie: Testosterone level, and as soon as that level goes down your desires go away. It has been that way with me.

[Losethem (imported)]

Just be sure to do a lot - and I mean A LOT - of intense and/or thorough research before you do anything permanent. Read over the posts in this forum to see what others have gone through and how they dealt with it.

Many have tried Chemical Castration first, that is, taking medications that would shut down Male Hormone (mainly Testosterone) production. It is like a "test drive". You can see how it makes you feel, and if you don't like it, you can just stop taking the medications. But if you have your genitals removed and don't like it, you are stuck for life - there is no going back!

Also, you might find this desire will fade in a few years (as your Testosterone levels go down with age). Sometimes the desire to have genitals removed is tied into your sexual desire, ie: Testosterone level, and as soon as that level goes down your desires go away. It has been that way with me.

For the record, Chemical Castration is only a logical choice as "Try before you buy" if the intent is to eliminate your sex drive or go asexual in some way. Demale99 has not indicated this is what they wish to do though has indicated obtaining androgyny may be a goal in their profile. Other than that, there is no indication what their ultimate goal is, other than they have some sort of discomfort internally about having their genitals.

Perhaps the goal is the elimination of libido, perhaps it isn't. I find myself wanting and needing a bit more information from Demale99 before offering any advice or guidance. Regardless, I remain supportive in their desire for more information, and am glad they have found their way here to learn more about the subject.

[demale99 (imported)]

Thanks for your answer. You're right, no need to hurry and no need to have definitive solution. I'm currently in a therapy (had a lot without solving my problem) perhaps it will be better.