Thank you for having me. I am a sports professional from Australia who has a long term interest in castration more specifically nullification. I've also hated my pathetic privates. Completely useless. I ignored that hatred and concentrated on my pursuits that I was forced into.

I played professional sports at a national/international level. I was driven and also extremely sexually active. Still am. Food, Sex and Sport were all I ever thought of. I am by nature, a passionate person. It drove me to my goals, but those goal posts have now changed.

I am now an assistant coach. Practically pressured to take the position. Last year after a disappointing season. I regained my intense fetish for Complete Penectomy. Would eunuch calm help my situation? To make matters worse the senior coach has told me in private then he intends to retire after this season to coach at his home club interstate. He would recommend to the board I would be capable to replace him as senior coach.

Because of this; I have been taking it out on my pathetic privates. (I did so that night when the senior coach confided to me). They have put me in a position of despair. I cannot concentrate on my career. Especially if it goes to plan with next year. I have already inflicted damage on my privates, that required surgery. I want to finish it off.

I have not told anyone of my thoughts and feelings about this subject.

P.S. From the bench is a joke as I am a professional sports coach that sits on the bench!

Thank you for reading.

I've done lots of damage over the years. been to ER many times. been to OR twice for repairs. doctors responded well if I said I wanted to repair things but not if I said I wanted to be with out those parts. one doctor even blocked my phone calls after I asked for chemical castration. I finally had an orchiectomy last March. but the Dr was reluctant to do a penectomy. being castrated is great. I'm so happy about that. but I do need all of that stuff gone. hopefully I'll find a doctor willing to do it soon.

I always hated self inflicting. I don't understand how all those doctors could let it go on for so many years.

hey I'm by no means athletic or aware much about sports terminology but I knew about the bench. it's interesting how hatred of parts affects very different kinds of people. I wonder what quality is the same that makes that happen. you and I are apparently quite different but have that same need.

it was very difficult for me to stay safe for years. it's still difficult. but when you realize there are some doctors who do want to help, it does get easier to hold out for safe surgery. you just gotta be persistent in your search and do your best to follow their requirements. fortunately there is greater awareness now and new standards of care coming soon. when you know someone is going to help, it gets much easier to wait rather than trying to do it yourself.

just one question. orchiectomy is removal of the testicles. that, I believe is where the calm would come from due to loss of testosterone. you mention castration and penectomy. I do believe it will be quite satisfying to have the penis gone, but I don't think that is the same as the calm from an orchi. yet damage I did to my penis didn't help my state of mind. getting castrated did. are you looking for both?

sometimes doctors seem to be OK with doing both. in my case only the orchi. I hope you can find a doctor to do it right for you - by my thinking, in one shot. but if not, I'd recommend castration first. I don't know if any of this helps, but just sharing my similar experience and ideas in the hopes this will help.

Welcome to the archive...

A few thoughts about your intro and some of your other posts...

Being in your job position, I'd definitely want to consider how it might impact your position. I've never been any sort of a jock, but my understanding is that 'passion' is a big part of success in sport competition, whether it be from the athletes or the coaches.... I don't see any way that you could keep it secret, if for no other reason than the need to take time off for surgery and recovery....

I'm not sure how eunuch calm would impact that level of passion.... OTOH, while there were very few eunuch soldiers that we know of, there were several historically famous eunuch generals.

Similarly if you are in a relationship I think it's important to let your partner know about your desires and work out how you both will deal with them.

We are all anxiously awaiting the official release of the WPATH SOC 8, which provides for a lot more guidance to medical people about dealing with folks like us that want a non-binary transition. The expectation is that SOC 8 will make it a lot easier to get the sort of care we need / want.

As a first step I'd start trying to locate Transgender centers in your area and start reaching out to them as that is the path to getting things done on a medical basis.

WheelyCurious

And whatever you do, please don't take matters into your own hands. If you really want this done, do it safely and only with folks with proper medical training.