I jointed the forum a few months ago hoping to learn more about the experiences of the eunuch life and especially any negative health consequences. I am a fully intact married male nearing 60. Several years ago my wife had an hysterectomy and her ovaries removed due to health issues. Prior to this, we rarely had sex and after surgery we have had sex once, I think now we have gone 2 years without sex. This hasn’t been all that bad because my libido is very low but does exist and I do have occasional desire. About four years ago a dermatologist gave me topical finasteride for my thinning hair, at the time he told me that if I took pills it work work better but there was a risk of impotence and gynecomastia, after about a month of the topical I decided to take the pills. This did lead to impotence and I now have about ‘A' cup boobs, less muscle mass, and very little body hair, my legs are as nearly smooth as a women. My wife actually likes where my temperament has gone and my physical appearance. This has led me to the point where I feel like I should just eliminate all desire and hoping by getting castrated I would achieve this. This is probably too much information but what has led me here. There is more to my story that I may share later if it seems pertinent.

rdfwtexas (imported) wrote: Sun Aug 14, 2022 3:38 pm I jointed the forum a few months ago hoping to learn more about the experiences of the eunuch life and especially any negative health consequences. I am a fully intact married male nearing 60. Several years ago my wife had an hysterectomy and her ovaries removed due to health issues. Prior to this, we rarely had sex and after surgery we have had sex once, I think now we have gone 2 years without sex. This hasn’t been all that bad because my libido is very low but does exist and I do have occasional desire. About four years ago a dermatologist gave me topical finasteride for my thinning hair, at the time he told me that if I took pills it work work better but there was a risk of impotence and gynecomastia, after about a month of the topical I decided to take the pills. This did lead to impotence and I now have about ‘A' cup boobs, less muscle mass, and very little body hair, my legs are as nearly smooth as a women. My wife actually likes where my temperament has gone and my physical appearance. This has led me to the point where I feel like I should just eliminate all desire and hoping by getting castrated I would achieve this. This is probably too much information but what has led me here. There is more to my story that I may share later if it seems pertinent.

doesn't seem like too much information. I've revealed as much or more. I envy your results. I had an orchi in March but no noticeable physical change or very slightly. it varies from person to person. I'm presently thinking about / planning starting with estrogen. I have been having hot flashes and emotional issues. I believe the estrogen will help with this. I kind of enjoy the idea of possible feminization. but there's no way of knowing what will happen until I I've been on it for a while. I'm happy to talk more about this if you want to.

Welcome to the forum... It is definitely the place to learn about becoming and being a eunuch. If you haven't already done so, it is a good idea to read some of the stickies at the top of the various topic areas as they will give you a lot of basic info. (Though you probably should skip the alcohol and CaCl injection threads unless you want to go that route...)

Nice intro BTW, gives us a good idea of where you are coming from.

The good news about starting to explore the idea now is that we are just about to see the release of an updated version of the "Standards of Care" that are the standard protocols that the medical folks use. They have some major changes that will make it a LOT easier to to do things under proper medical care, far better than the DIY / cutter route that used to be the main choice because of doctors being unwilling to help us...

WheelyCurious

It is very difficult being succinct in such a profound matter. I am 75 and I am approaching the one year mark since I was 'fixed' ( a term typically reserved for castrating a male dog, but I like the 'double meaning' of fixed). I truly don't think Testosterone is healthy for anyone! I liken it to a drug that can provide bursts of energy that clearly would help in dramatic situations- alas, warfare and heroics seem prime examples- but really is as useful as operating a drag racer in downtown anywhere.

So many 'drives' that I read in various forums- whether it be to grow breasts, being able to pass as a female- are, I feel, fueled by crazy Testosterone. I had been on anti androgens and estrogen/progesterone for many years- they did help me rid my body of male hair, grow some breasts. After the orchi, my breasts have filled out to a solid B cup. Interestingly, I don't truly care anymore! Frankly, at this point, all they are is a source of potential embarassment in public. After all, we have to content with interacting with others and this world will never truly accept people who don't fit into standard role models.

I have been married nearly 40 years to a good woman, but we haven't been sexually active-or even slightly intimate- in decades! This would be an entirely different conversation, but she didn't care a hoot what I had between my legs. Overtly we appear an agreeable couple , but so much isn't evident in public, is it. I can picture how nice it might be to have a happy existence as a couple, but I regret that my crazy T didn't conform to a manageable level so I couldn't find that perfect harmony. Getting fixed can be a great improvement, but there clearly are trade offs. Good luck.

I found both of your testimonies, harley47 and rdfwtexas, touching. Me too I'm a recent member of the forum and I also share about the same goals and expectations from sharing life experiences.

I'm a little over 65 and devoted to the same women since 36 years by now with a gradual declining sex life after the birth of our son, up to nothing in the past 8 years. It's been difficult, it change my life mostly in the perception of my gender.

After 4 years with a sex therapist I now undersand where my fragile masculine gender came from and I'm now at the cross roads. Leaving my beloved seams very difficult to me. Having affairs seams on the hand too complex and not accepted in my couple. Would she change, as she sometimes says? Or could castration be part of the solution? I'm not affraid of some feminization as I'm already very feminist in my toughts and for some of my clothings (mostly panties and tights).

As I see we are all sowehow similar and different at the same time. Moving through different life experiences leaving us at this point in time where impotence is close by, sex, something from another life and the question of what to do with all this.

So we'll see, and in the mean time, like you, I'll follow on the experiences and comments from the others in the community.

Thank you and good luck to you to.

Wonderful to see you here and welcome! Thank you so much for sharing with us here. I turn 39 here in 15 days and have been castrated since I was in my mid 20's due to an accident. For me, when it happened, I experienced a whole lot of powerful and very negative emotions and thoughts. I went on hormone replacement therapy for several years and eventually made the decision to stop that as well. I remember the way I used to think and it actually makes me embarrassed.. as odd as that sounds. I can remember when I realized my libido broke. I freaked out and ran right to the doctor to get HRT to fix it. What I do not remember is when I stopped caring about it. I don't miss it and I don't want it back. There is also a chance it won't change much at all about how you think and feel. From everything I read on here, it seems to affect everyone in a slightly different way. There will be things you notice and things you do not. You might get an effect others have gotten that simply does not bother you as much as it does them. If you're curious about it, you might be able to check into a chemical option. In any case, if you're curious about anything at all you're welcome to ask. The people here are an amazing source of knowledge, experience, and support.

Thank you everyone for the responses. I have been really surprised at just how many have similar situations to mine. One thing I left out, is I have been taking metformin for years and I think this has contributed a lot to the impotence and decrease i libido, this was unexpected since the doctor never mentioned this, at least with the finasteride I was warned. In addition, my left testicle has shrunk, it is really small, the right seems the same and my penis is may be 3 inches, it stays retracted almost inside me. I would have never guessed I would be ok with feminizing effects or how I think and feel, it all odd to me but I am ok with it. Even more surprising that my wife is ok with it.