i guess i’ve talked about this many times already and my apologies if i’m just overdoing it and everyone is getting tired of it. but this feeling doesn’t subside and in fact reaches an overwhelming degree at times and makes me cry.

the fact is i really want people who i already know to know about my surgery and why. it just surfaces now and then every day. i try to take my mind off it but there it is again and if something happens, like therapy or talking with someone and something totally unrelated somehow reminds me, i’m thrown back into it again. i really want people to know.

i know many people here have spoken about this and i really do appreciate the comments i’ve received. i understand why this kind of thing need not be shared. but like i’ve just said, i really wish people i know would know about it. i feel like having had it done explains me. it reveals why i’ve be reclusive all my life and or secretive, and or dissociated and or a self harmer and or a creep or seeming hostile or whatever people saw in me. there was a simultaneously me person who wished for true friendship, laughs, happiness, connection that just was not there for me. this surgery was the key that unlocked my prison cell. and i do not see castration as a bad thing or any kind of affront on other people’s sensibilities. it was just a way for something that did not work in me to be removed since nothing was ever able to fix it.

now i want to celebrate. i don’t think that is wrong. it is kind of lonely being happy all alone.

This is all I have to say. (https://makeameme.org/meme/the-worlds-best-5c5d01)

Sorry if that seems uncaring, but EESH, wasn't this was talked to death in the last thread? If you wish to continue, I'd bring it up there. I see no need for a new thread.