Hi All,

I am relatively new to this site and am glad to have found it. I am a 30 year old male and while I identify as male, I have never felt that my male genitalia should be part of me. There are numerous accounts in the forums of life before, immediately after, and a while after castration. For those who are very serious or have already been castrated, when and how did you know that you needed to become a eunuch?

Thank you!

Jeepfan92 (imported) wrote: Mon May 09, 2022 11:30 am Hi All,

I am relatively new to this site and am glad to have found it. I am a 30 year old male and while I identify as male, I have never felt that my male genitalia should be part of me. There are numerous accounts in the forums of life before, immediately after, and a while after castration. For those who are very serious or have already been castrated, when and how did you know that you needed to become a eunuch?

Thank you!

From age of 17 years it seemed to me that male genitals are superfluous...

I was 10 years old when I castrated my first calf on my dad's ranch. I knew before that calf was off the ground that I too, would be castrated at some point in my life. When It finally happend 66 years later it was the most exciting thing I had ever had happen to me. Since that night on Jan 7th, I've never been happier in my life when I had nuts attached.

personally for me I never had that moment or thought. I got offered the chance to be castrated as a joke at a party with friends and [in my infinite mildly drunk 18 year old wisdom] decided "what the hell" and went through with it.

@CKAMoose Does this mean you are castrated or it was a play castration and you sill have your nuts?

If you lost them what was your reaction after you realized they were really they were off?

CKAMoose (imported) wrote: Mon May 09, 2022 6:16 pm personally for me I never had that moment or thought. I got offered the chance to be castrated as a joke at a party with friends and [in my infinite mildly drunk 18 year old wisdom] decided "what the hell" and went through with it.

Wait a minute, what?? How did they do it?

Jeepfan92 (imported) wrote: Mon May 09, 2022 11:30 am Hi All,

I am relatively new to this site and am glad to have found it. I am a 30 year old male and while I identify as male, I have never felt that my male genitalia should be part of me. There are numerous accounts in the forums of life before, immediately after, and a while after castration. For those who are very serious or have already been castrated, when and how did you know that you needed to become a eunuch?

Thank you!

For me it was always there on some level for as long as I can remember. I can remember feeling at age 5 or so that those parts were not supposed to be on my body. Keeping in mind that age for me was in the mid-1970's, the only things I could find about males wanting those parts of their bodies removed/dealt with was Male to Female transgender people. Initially I thought that is who I was, but when I studied it more as I got older, I realized it wasn't right for me.

Then in the mid-late 1990's the Internet came along and I ran into a Usenet group called alt.eunuchs.questions - it was my first exposure to other men who felt the same way as I did. They were male, wanted to remain male, but all those "foreign growths" between their legs just were not right on their bodies and needed removal.

10 years after that first discovery, I was castrated, then nearly 20 years after the discovery, I became full fledged nullo when I had my penis and scrotum removed.

Becoming a nullo is the single best gift I've ever given myself. I'm so much calmer, relaxed, and engaged with the world than I've ever been.

I was really stupid in highschool and had poor choice in friends, and apprently they knew a cutter

CKAMoose (imported) wrote: Mon May 09, 2022 9:53 pm I was really stupid in highschool and had poor choice in friends, and apprently they knew a cutter

Sounds a little bit like fiction, or am I too harsh?

Just to answer the initial question, I already felt uncomfortable with having genitals since early puberty, so it was somewhere in my (early) teenage days when I started to think about getting the stuff down there completely removed.

Easy. 31st July, 2021.

Since I was a child I have felt like so many here, that I was well, male-ish, but the genitals were somehow not right. Since I was about 10 years old I have had different ideas about how the dangly bits might be rearranged more to my satisfaction. Then on the above date I ran across a photo of someone with no balls or scrotum, and I just knew. In a mind blowingly intense flash of recognition, I just knew that what I saw was absolutely right for me.

In the few years before then I had been gradually building up an idea that initially was a trans-scrotal tunnel. The tunnel gradually became bigger and bigger, finally becoming a sort of crescent shape to completely separate my scrotum from my dick shaft, leaving my balls to hang in a wrinkly skin hammock. This was all in my mind of course. I was not yet convinced that what I was imagining was what would fill the need. And then serendipity. That photo, and my quest to get castrated began. As soon as I saw I knew it has to be. This is how I might well be already except life dragged me off in another direction for a while.

In my case, we're talking age 9. I had an event I interpret as a partial torsion -- in any case it was painful enough to make me fall over. I've had this since, intermittently, and since 2019 the pain has been highly variable but never hone. It's also a bilateral phenomenon. My view on this is some malformation makes my cords prone to damage, and that the inflammatory processes and pain since 2019 are my active Crohn's Disease doing what TNFa does best... but despite peer-reviewed studies into this it is politically controversial for my UK Crohn's doctors who silo narrowly into gastroenterology. At the moment I'm waiting on a) a diagnostic cord block to rule out spine damage causing referred pain (this the twists would just be a cremasteral reflex); and b) the WPATH SoC v.8 so I could petition to get my nuts out without implied feminisation.

Anyway, as I have had unpredictable severe testicular pain from the first premonitory rumblings of puberty it is unshakably ingrained in the formation of my sexuality. I was on this site as an undergrad (so, I guess 19/20yo ish) with my blurb saying "I'm pretty sure my nuts are going to be best got rid of at some point, but I'm unsure right now" -- a procrastination that has well and truly sailed. I'm glad I integrated into the community early though, as the support of peers is really healthy. Prior to that, in candidness, my thoughts mostly revolved around envy of animals, who seem (in a daydream framing, at any rate) to experience much less protracted healthcare access problems in this area...