Early 20s here. I'm just sharing my testimony. I know i probably do not fit many category's here.

But as a complete heterosexual, i am sick and tired of what's going on. I feel like I'm trapped. Ever since i was a kid i had a hyper sex drive. Ever since i could remember I've been masturbating and lusting. Even as young as 5-7 years old. Its to the point now where all i would have to do to ejaculate is put pressure in that area! As ive gotten older and of age, i choose to find myself through what some would consider the Christian "religion". And since then I've been keeping it celibate, as well as abstaining. Well I've been trying to.

But abstaining and being celibate has became more of a challenge! I do not desire a woman face or presence anymore, and the idea of "love", being flesh to flesh is not attractive to me, at all anymore. Even as a young child, i never desired a girlfriend, or a wife etc. Its always been about the body and about sex. And although i never had any issues with getting sex, since turning into faith, i don't even want it anymore, the idea being disgusting.

But when I decided to abstain and be celibate, its literally become near impossible. As in, impossible to not feel like exploding physically when you even look at a woman after celibacy and abstinence. The way clothes are made does not make it better, and the way sexuality is promoted through all media does not make it better. I recognize that i did not grow up well mentally, and from a young age was turned to these desires. But now that i am changing Its gotten so much worst that i feel like castration is the only way to go. I mean, everytime i go somewhere or watch something i am constantly reminded of my sexual desire by my smaller member. When i lay down and sleep it feels like i am literally boiling in hot water. Every second of the day i feel as if im thinking about some lust. I feel disconnected from who i truly am because after years of watching my thoughts, and trying to reject these lusts with everything i can, i started to depersonalize with the sexuality. To me its literally only a physical reaction.

I understand how frustrating it is to have an overwhelming sex drive. And how it disrupts work, leisure and spiritual life. But given the permanence of having your testicles removed, why not do a test run on chemical castration first. I’m sure many of the guys on here will be willing to share their experience on anti-androgen medication. Good luck and let us know how your voyage turns out

I agree with Origen. A trial-run with chemical castration should be your first step. It's mostly reversible should you decide you don't like the effects. A minimum trial of six months, and preferably longer, before anything permanent.

JesusA (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 19, 2022 1:07 pm I agree with Origen. A trial-run with chemical castration should be your first step. It's mostly reversible should you decide you don't like the effects. A minimum trial of six months, and preferably longer, before anything permanent.

Im planning on doing this first.

Do yo have any idea how to go about this? Who do i contact? A urologist or someone that specializes in transgender transformation? Im also looking on resources on how to absolutely null feminization.

I am not interested in becoming anything other than what i am physically, i just need to absolutely dead this libido. My plan is hoping that i can retain some of the low T benefits of chemical castration or at the least observe and adapt to the rising T levels as it climbs back up, hoping that it will help me control my sexual desires more.

Please let me know. My decision is not new, but i am new to the terms and process. I find it confusing to get help because i am not a MTF OR FTM. And i really dont consider myself suffering from identity. But at the same time i am 100% certain about my decision, and do not want to messaging and contact a general doctor just for them to refer me to therapy, and a whole bunch of other loopholes and wastes of time.

Please let me know

Origen22 (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 19, 2022 11:26 am I understand how frustrating it is to have an overwhelming sex drive. And how it disrupts work, leisure and spiritual life. But given the permanence of having your testicles removed, why not do a test run on chemical castration first. I’m sure many of the guys on here will be willing to share their experience on anti-androgen medication. Good luck and let us know how your voyage turns out

Im looking at this option 100%. But the problem is finding a doctor that can actually put me on trail, as a hetro. Im also looking for the best (healthiest) chemical process that can null feminization. I guess i need to make a new post. But do you have any resources or things to share?

Im currently typing some paragraphs to send to some docs. Hopefully i will have some luck on finding someone who can administer this in a timely process.

slarror1234 (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 19, 2022 1:36 pm Im looking at this option 100%. But the problem is finding a doctor that can actually put me on trail, as a hetro. Im also looking for the best (healthiest) chemical process that can null feminization. I guess i need to make a new post. But do you have any resources or things to share?

Im currently typing some paragraphs to send to some docs. Hopefully i will have some luck on finding someone who can administer this in a timely process.

Welcome to the forums, I hope we can help you find the answers you are looking for... It definitely isn't my motivation, but you are not the first person I've seen posting here looking at castration for religious reasons (And if you look through some of the resources on 'historical eunuchs' you will find plenty of precedents...)

I don't know what options there are in your part of the country, but I'd suggest trying to find a good 'transgender center' and talking to them about a "Male to Eunuch" transition... They will have a better handle on the appropriate drugs and so forth than any other docs.

For just a chemical castration trial, you really want an endocrinologist, as they are the folks that deal with hormones and the chemistry of what is happening in your body. Urologists are more into just dealing with the physical 'plumbing' and might be involved at the surgery stage, but not before then (other than possibly to make sure there aren't any physical issues) While transitioning to eunuch is not as complex as a full MtF or FtM transition it is somewhat of a multi-discipline job, and a TG center has the advantage of both being more open to the idea of wanting a non-standard orientation, and having all the right specialists that are used to working together as a team...

I'd join the chorus urging you to do a 'test drive' of chemical castration before doing anything permanent, with the slight caution that at least some of the drugs if used improperly or for to long can be permanent whether you want it or not. Also as a young man, I'd urge you not to completely rule out the desire to have kids later on, so you should look into options for sperm banking, etc.

Currently the 'gold standard' for protocols is the WPATH Standards of Care (SOC) Version 7, which was released in the 70's and doesn't have a lot in it for folks wanting to transition only part way. There is a 'Draft SOC V.8' that was supposed to have been released as the new standard back in 2020 before that bug started going around. It is now in the 'Real Soon Now' stage - my bet is at a WPATH conference they are having in September 22... However any decent center should be familiar with the draft SOC 8, which has a section in it specifically about eunuchs, and relevant changes in a lot of other sections that make things easier for us. I'm currently on a path to chemical castration through a TG center in Boston, MA, and they have not had any issues at all with helping me so far.

Also it is worth noting that there don't seem to be any options that both get rid of male sex drive AND not having some level of feminization as part of the package. Your body produces a certain amount of female hormones already, and if you shut down the testosterone factories, they WILL affect you... You may need to find a balance between enough testosterone to keep you from feminizing but not enough to maintain the undesired sex drive...

Hope this helps, feel free to ask any additional questions...

WheelyCurious