Chemical castration: My journey starts tomorrow (hopefully)
Posted: Tue Mar 29, 2022 11:03 am
Hi there.
So I'm kinda bored, and just wanted to share my story, in case someone is interested in anecdotal data.
I'm male in my early 30's living in Finland, and I suffer from sever hypersexuality, which is non-medical term for constantly high sex drive.
I'v been suffering from hypersexuality as long as I can remember. Even one the earliest memories I have, is about my second cousin who took me to amusement park, and I think I liked it, because I found her sexually appealing. I would estimate my age to be at that point somewhere between 5 and 7. Then through my early teen years 13+, I masturbated frequently to adult entertainment content (videos, gifs and still images), depending on the day, sometimes 1 time, sometimes 3 times, in extreme cases 6 or more times. That pretty much continued to this day. I think my record is something like masturbating 12 times, when I was having a hangover. (Hangovers increased my sex drive to insane levels.)
I also have had high amounts of anxiety because of my hypersexuality. I used to get anxiety always when I saw attractive females. Almost any part of female body would instantly trigger my anxiety combined with extreme need for intercourse. So vanilla intercourse, anal intercourse, oral intercourse, "handjobs", french kissing and lip kissing. All those things would flood my mind. The anxiety would come, because I always knew there is no way an attractive female would want to have intercourse with me. (I no longer have this anxiety, because of my SNRI medication.)
So that's the basics. Now about castration.
I think I first heard about chemical castration maybe in 2014 or 2015. I think 2015 was the same year I asked first time a psychologist about it, and tried to convince her to ask her co-worker, a doctor, if they could chemically castrate me. However, my request was declined. I think the reason was pretty vague. Something like "It's very odd request. Sex drive is natural part of human being." (Or something like that...) I think they also reminded me, that the sex drive would decrease with aging. I believe I was 24 then.
So now when I'm in my early 30's, I have to say, that there has not been even a slight decrease in my libido.
All suffering has to end, sooner or later, and I think, that I have suffered enough. I'm simply put; done.
I don't want sex drive controlling my life anymore. I wan't to be 100% libidofree, or as most people call it, an eunuch. (I also humorously like to call it "artificially asexual".)
So as of today, March 28th 2022, I made an appointment for doctor, who is both doctor and sex therapist, to meet him tomorrow, on March 29th 2022.
I have a good feeling about that doctor. I hope he takes my suffering seriously. I don't think I'll leave his office until he offers me some form of hormonal treatment.
I'm interested primarily in Salvacyl (11,25mg, every 3rd month) or secondarily in Depo-Provera (800 mg/mL, once a week).
Wish me luck!
So I'm kinda bored, and just wanted to share my story, in case someone is interested in anecdotal data.
I'm male in my early 30's living in Finland, and I suffer from sever hypersexuality, which is non-medical term for constantly high sex drive.
I'v been suffering from hypersexuality as long as I can remember. Even one the earliest memories I have, is about my second cousin who took me to amusement park, and I think I liked it, because I found her sexually appealing. I would estimate my age to be at that point somewhere between 5 and 7. Then through my early teen years 13+, I masturbated frequently to adult entertainment content (videos, gifs and still images), depending on the day, sometimes 1 time, sometimes 3 times, in extreme cases 6 or more times. That pretty much continued to this day. I think my record is something like masturbating 12 times, when I was having a hangover. (Hangovers increased my sex drive to insane levels.)
I also have had high amounts of anxiety because of my hypersexuality. I used to get anxiety always when I saw attractive females. Almost any part of female body would instantly trigger my anxiety combined with extreme need for intercourse. So vanilla intercourse, anal intercourse, oral intercourse, "handjobs", french kissing and lip kissing. All those things would flood my mind. The anxiety would come, because I always knew there is no way an attractive female would want to have intercourse with me. (I no longer have this anxiety, because of my SNRI medication.)
So that's the basics. Now about castration.
I think I first heard about chemical castration maybe in 2014 or 2015. I think 2015 was the same year I asked first time a psychologist about it, and tried to convince her to ask her co-worker, a doctor, if they could chemically castrate me. However, my request was declined. I think the reason was pretty vague. Something like "It's very odd request. Sex drive is natural part of human being." (Or something like that...) I think they also reminded me, that the sex drive would decrease with aging. I believe I was 24 then.
So now when I'm in my early 30's, I have to say, that there has not been even a slight decrease in my libido.
All suffering has to end, sooner or later, and I think, that I have suffered enough. I'm simply put; done.
I don't want sex drive controlling my life anymore. I wan't to be 100% libidofree, or as most people call it, an eunuch. (I also humorously like to call it "artificially asexual".)
So as of today, March 28th 2022, I made an appointment for doctor, who is both doctor and sex therapist, to meet him tomorrow, on March 29th 2022.
I have a good feeling about that doctor. I hope he takes my suffering seriously. I don't think I'll leave his office until he offers me some form of hormonal treatment.
I'm interested primarily in Salvacyl (11,25mg, every 3rd month) or secondarily in Depo-Provera (800 mg/mL, once a week).
Wish me luck!