Hey all, I'm new here.

I have been treated for numerous psych conditions for years including PTSD (military Veteran). I need my doctor to help me with my addiction to sexual fantasies and think I need to eliminate testosterone from my system. All this crazy stuff goes on in my head and I can't think of anything else. Should I tell my shrink about this and do you think they might give me chemical castration like Lupron, etc.? This is what I really want as I have no desire for sex but I can't stop the sexual crazyness from destroying all my time. My fantasies don't include pedo but everything else you could imagine. While so far this is all in my head I'm afraid I might act on it someday. I don't want to be locked up but just want one of those long lasting (6+month) injections that will kill my testosterone and my libido. I have already tried injecting one of my testicles with 30% Saline and I think it's working because that nut seems to be shrinking but i'd rather try the chemical route just to test my theory. I don't need my balls anymore as I am 60 y/o.

How should I approach this subject with my dr.?

skyline77 (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 05, 2022 12:17 pm Hey all, I'm new here.

I have been treated for numerous psych conditions for years including PTSD (military Veteran). I need my doctor to help me with my addiction to sexual fantasies and think I need to eliminate testosterone from my system. All this crazy stuff goes on in my head and I can't think of anything else. Should I tell my shrink about this and do you think they might give me chemical castration like Lupron, etc.? This is what I really want as I have no desire for sex but I can't stop the sexual crazyness from destroying all my time. My fantasies don't include pedo but everything else you could imagine. While so far this is all in my head I'm afraid I might act on it someday. I don't want to be locked up but just want one of those long lasting (6+month) injections that will kill my testosterone and my libido. I have already tried injecting one of my testicles with 30% Saline and I think it's working because that nut seems to be shrinking but i'd rather try the chemical route just to test my theory. I don't need my balls anymore as I am 60 y/o.

How should I approach this subject with my dr.?

Ask him to refer you to a sex and gender therapist and discuss it with that person. I general practitioner isn't likely to be much help, but you can relate your concerns the the sex and gender therapist and they should be able to work with you on a solution.

skyline77 (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 05, 2022 12:17 pm Hey all, I'm new here.

I have been treated for numerous psych conditions for years including PTSD (military Veteran). I need my doctor to help me with my addiction to sexual fantasies and think I need to eliminate testosterone from my system. All this crazy stuff goes on in my head and I can't think of anything else. Should I tell my shrink about this and do you think they might give me chemical castration like Lupron, etc.? This is what I really want as I have no desire for sex but I can't stop the sexual crazyness from destroying all my time. My fantasies don't include pedo but everything else you could imagine. While so far this is all in my head I'm afraid I might act on it someday. I don't want to be locked up but just want one of those long lasting (6+month) injections that will kill my testosterone and my libido. I have already tried injecting one of my testicles with 30% Saline and I think it's working because that nut seems to be shrinking but i'd rather try the chemical route just to test my theory. I don't need my balls anymore as I am 60 y/o.

How should I approach this subject with my dr.?

I agree with Losethem, I think your first step is with a therapist, perhaps someone who understands sex identity. I hesitate to say disorder, I don't know that anything is wrong with you. Fantasies are normal and I think you know that realty is never nearly as good as a fantasy. My sexual fantasies can go over some crazy spectrums, but I also recognize, the realty is never as good. Full disclosure, I used to have a rape fantasy, as in being picked up, thrown in a van and gang raped. The reality is rape isn't a sexual pleasure, but a planned gang bang is. Just saying.

One suggestion, start with a new therapist, someone who has no preconceived notions about who you are or what you've been through. Someone you have no history with that you could start the conversation with this specific topic with truth and honesty.

There are some significant nonjudgmental threads here about injections, what people have used, their experiences - positive, negative, and neutral. Directions about what to not use, and being safe. Some examples of what others have done include Vodka, Ever Clear, CaCl2, and Saline. Conduct your own research before doing anything you read. I recently started Ever Clear injections - it isn't for everyone. Asking to have the boys removed is a LONG process; plan to be patient. I have no experience with requesting testosterone blockers. i'm sure others do and can tell you their experiences and what over the counter options there may be.

Some other suggestions- WPATH to understand the standards of care (an update is coming soon), Crane Center (https://cranects.com/) has great information about their procedures and requirements.

PLEASE DO RESEARCH BEFORE JUMPING HEAD FIRST INTO ANYTHING.

Well, after much patience and a couple more doctors I finally convinced them to give me Zoladex (3.6) a few days ago. I am a bit anxious but confident that it will alleviate my very high anxiety about sexual fantasies. I wonder how soon I might see any signs it's working but I am also confident that there will be few if any unwanted side effects.

I am so elated to know that I should be on my road to some peace. I hope to achieve that much talked about 'calm' I have heard about.

Doc says if in a month I am good with it that he will do another injection, probably the 3 month formula.

skyline77 (imported) wrote: Sat Jun 11, 2022 7:55 am Well, after much patience and a couple more doctors I finally convinced them to give me Zoladex (3.6) a few days ago. I am a bit anxious but confident that it will alleviate my very high anxiety about sexual fantasies. I wonder how soon I might see any signs it's working but I am also confident that there will be few if any unwanted side effects.

I am so elated to know that I should be on my road to some peace. I hope to achieve that much talked about 'calm' I have heard about.

Doc says if in a month I am good with it that he will do another injection, probably the 3 month formula.

I hope you're able to achieve the peace you're seeking. Good luck!

Further to my last, I went a month with the Zoladex and after a month I went for a followup. This time he offered me 3 month injection, which I took. Definitely makes me think about sex. Barely a weak hardon but never orgasm. Penis and testicles have shrunk by about 30%. My Dr says if after the 3 months I'm OK with it he will do the 6 month Lupron. Only noticable side affects are some fatigue, which has gotten better and hot flashes, which don't last long but definitely make you sweat.

Glad to hear you are getting good results. Congratulations

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